那些年，我想到的人

你看過今年最多人關注的《那些年，我們一起追的女孩》了嗎？你也有跟我一樣的感受嗎？－想起當年喜歡過的人或被追的那個人？還有跟一群死黨一起讀書的日子？

我想到了很多以前在讀書時的事。中學也好，高中也好，都是我會回味的日子。有很多好事，也有很多不好的，但我想這些都是人生的一部份吧。雖說讀的是女校，但慶幸認識一群好玩的朋友，有時也會做出瘋狂的事。雖然都不是戲裡的那些, 但是感覺是一樣的.

高中又不一樣了。高中的我好像有點平凡無奇，好像又有點荒唐。有很多值得回憶的事，又有很多不想回憶的。而矛盾的是，有些事是一樣的。總之，是心情很複雜的一個時期。不知道是好是壞，有很多的遺憾，又沒有好好用功，又沒有很瘋狂。

Sister's Big Day! :)

Finally my sister is officially married! After all the engagement, ROM and finally the custom ceremonies over the past 2 years.

It's quite fun but tiring having a family member getting married. Why didn't my eldest sister get married leh? And I've met so many people I haven't met for a long long time. Okay, let's start from the morning.

朋友到了极乐世界

最近有认识的人过世了。虽然和对方不是很熟，但在社交网上有互动，所以还是有所感触。而且我根本没有想到这样的事会发生在一个还很健康的人。她好像和二姐一样年龄，结婚刚满三年。最近因为发烧住入了医院，以为只是小事，结果因为细菌感染而去世了。很震惊。也有些许的难过。

知道消息的时候，朋友已经出殡。也许我也不会出席，只是看到她弟弟因为这件事影响很大，也会有一点感慨。而且，这也再次提醒我们要珍惜身边的人。因为谁都不会料到这样的事会发生。前几天还好好的，结果就这样，离开了人世，真的好可惜。想起来还是觉得无法接受。而且刚开始心情还难以平复。

结果，只好跟这个朋友说再见了。希望她一路好走。

Hong Kong - Revised.

Feel like talking about the Hong Kong trip and the camp.

Been to HK so many times and I haven't felt sick and tired of the place. Every time there is something new, every time there is something for me to look forward to and enjoy. And I think I will continue to go to HK. I even ever secretly hoped that I will be able to work there, even though my Cantonese is really cui. Haha!

Anyway, we took a midnight flight to HK because it's cheaper (we are trying to go all budget). But we still took a Cathay Pacific so as not to sacrifice our instruments for the strict rules of budget airlines, moreover, Jetstar wasn't any cheaper.

A-Inn Hostel
We got ourselves very cheap hostel, 4 in a room with private bathroom, and allowed check-in at any time of the day. Perfect for us since we are reaching that early and it's quite impossible for normal hotel to allow to check in at 8am, no? It's the first time I actually took a public bus out of the airport - something new for me. Haha. In the end we still got to the hostel so early that nobody was there yet. Had to call the number at the door to get someone to come. Nevermind about that, at least we weren't left there unattended for hours.

I realise I have quite good memory on what's here and there. I could recall the cafes, restaurants I've been to, pretty much. Heh.

Dim Sumsssss
Dim sum is essential. So we went to 好彩海鲜酒家, 莲香楼 on first day and second day morning respectively. Both of them looked the same from the last time I went. 好彩 back in 2007, and the other in 2009. LOL! 莲香楼 is really good for experiencing traditional local dim sum practice. We practically shared the table with 2 other group of people. Although they were quite nice, we didn't manage to get any desired food at first try. They guys were shocked at the speed the food was taken off the trolleys that just came out from the kitchen. But in the end we still managed to eat quite a number of different dim sum, after they got the hang of getting the food from the trolleys. Haha!

Other Foodsss
Okay, it's kind of unfair to list the rest just under 'others', because they are very nice food and very important in the trip too! haha!

Wanton Mee
I'm not exactly a fan of Wanton Mee, but knowing it's quite famous in HK, we went to try the one Von went before. Not bad actually. The portion is kind of big and there was a lot of people by the time we ordered.

Mido Cafe
I swore to go to the cafe again ever since I saw it being featured on 刑警. hahaha! But seriously, the food aren't really cheap at all the 茶餐厅s. But the milk tea is really good. :) and the 菠萝油! Love.

Porridge
Generally, I loved the 海皇粥店 there. We went to a shopping mall too late to meet the closing time of a eating place so we just stopped at a random porridge shop on our way back to our hotel, and it's actually just opposite the place. Randomly, the food is nice everywhere around there!

Fast Food(s)
Actually we had quite Mac quite a few times, KFC once. And there's more variety in KFC than Sg, and more drinks selection in Mac. They have the HK milk tea in mac. haha! Quite cool. Nuggets are nice too.

Bubble Tea(s)
It's a blessing to drink the 贡茶 there. It's the large cup at a price cheaper than Sg's smaller cup. And it's nicer! And we have one just around our hotel! :) Oh and we have a 歇脚亭 right outside our door. So we tried too. Not bad lah. Haha! Basically, usually the milk teas there are nice. :)

Dessert(s)
Tried 高记甜品 and 满记甜品. Can't remember the rest. Mango desserts are love. :)

Ok, I got to confess now that I can't remember anymore details. =x Blame it on the procrastination.

Other than shopping, we only went to visit The Victoria Peak, Madam Tussauds Wax Museum and Ocean Park. The last time was really the wrong company to go to Ocean Park. Had so much more fun this time. Esp. at the Marine World, we were there for such a long time looking at all the fishes and such. Still didn't see the panda this time round. But played more rides, took the cable car up to the theme park area, and the express train down at the end. And we were so 'lucky' that the typhoon came halfway through our cable car ride. How coincidental is that?! So of course we had no choice and had to tahan till the end of the ride and still got stuck at the station. Luckily we had poncho and we ran out with it on when the rain got lighter. And luckily the weather became better afterwards, if not we wouldn't get to play those rides and wouldn't be able to watch the animal show as well.

Ya. There's just so much I could remember about the shopping part. =P

Batam Stayover - Done! :)

Had a getaway to Batam last weekend with some beloveds. (Note: I didn't use 'trip' because it's not long enough to be considered a 'trip' for me. Haha!)

Been long since I last went to Batam. And I've never been there on my own without any family member before. And never ever done free and easy on my own with friends before also. Everything I go there, my cousins will be driving us the moment we reached till we leave. Ok, for a tour like that, it's the same lah. We got coach to bring us around (to places I've never been to I think) and to and fro the pier.

It was quite ok, one of us couldn't make it last minute, but it was good that we can cancel out the name easily. Of course the package money is paid, but at least we saved the fuel charge and all that. And it was fun because of the company! :)

Apparently we went to this seafood restaurant for lunch and everything is so familiar, like the one we've always gone to in the past. The settings and environment are all the same, but I couldn't be sure if that was the one. Next time I go again must ask them. Lunch was ok if we weren't in such a rush. And I'm still harping over the fact that I only had 1 pathetic piece of calamari out of the whole big plate because some auntie whom we shared a table with scooped all the remaining pieces onto her plate without even asking or noticing other ppl. Totally sian-ed after that. The aunties are seriously in their own world and totally in the spirits of Singaporean aunties.

Seriously, how coincidentally one of the auntie approach yih to ask a stupid question on mer's tattoo, and then secretly cut the queue to clear customs. And then happened to be on the same coach as us for the whole holiday, and share the same table for lunch. Gawds. Luckily that was the ONLY meal we had to eat together. Thankful for that.

But at the end of the day, we saw something which we couldn't understand. Seriously don't know what the aunties are trying to play with. Disappearance? My friends only do that when we were in sec school. And at this kind of time. Not very funny. Ok, so the auntie who approached us actually told her 2 friends to wait at the departure area while she went on to eat and shop. She might be kind of wrong in this but I reckoned the 2 friends didn't want to walk because at the shopping mall the previous day I saw the 2 aunties resting at the stage area (with chairs) for quite some time. So the auntie came back nearing the boarding time to look for her friends and couldn't find them. So she asked if we've seen her friends, well, of course we didn't lah. So she was quite anxious and worried - her stuff are with them I think, and obviously if you can't find your friends you panic lah, moreover in a foreign land right. So the auntie couldn't decide if the friends have already gone in, so she queued to clear the customs (she cut the queue btw), while she was doing that, we saw the 2 friends actually inside a waiting area and didn't want to let her know, keep asking us to keep mouthed about it. Hello, we are not interested in your game. And please, how old already still play this kind?! Eventually, they entered the departure area at different time and cleared the customs with some interval in between each other, a bit weird I say. And they still sat together in the ferry. Weird kind of friendship I say, or if you even consider that friendship.

The worst part of the trip was on the return trip, trying to get out of the building to go on the ferry. We were all squeezing actually. Initially, we queued up because everyone was queuing. But towards the boarding time, everyone just crowd themselves around the gate, and so the queue dissolved once they announced for us to board the ferry. It was crazy and aunties are really good in all these, they encouraged younger people in front of them to squeeze and not give way. Typical. At least in the end we still managed to sit together. Credits to daijing who was able to squeeze out the fastest with the help of an aunties pushing the 2 girls behind daijing. haha!

Best part of the trip is at least we get to eat some good food, get some cheap clothes and buy cheap tidbits! :D Though didn't buy a lot, but we had our fair share of fun, esp. when we were playing saboteur in our room at night. It was kind of crazy and fun.

And I had a big bed to myself!! Woohooooo! :D

I'm actually looking forward to the next time I go back there to find my cousins again. But probably it wouldn't be so soon, and I wouldn't be able to get on such trips again easily, because I'm trying to get more students to earn more money. It's hard to give up some things (fun and rest) for such, but it's the age to do so and I'm going to heed the advice from my teacher to make it a break before I don't have the energy to do so. :) And so, I want to save up more for future better trips. :)))

The next trip?

Last week one of my friends asked me, if I could only go to one place, where is the first I want to go. And you know what, I can't even answer this question. In the end I still had an option answer. i.e. Shorter period (1week) - Japan, Longer period (2weeks) - US. So it depends on how much time I can afford. Oh, and probably how much money I can afford too. Plus, if I can afford, I would really want to go to London. One of my dreams to watch some musicals there! Omg. I can't wait for myself to go already.

The thing is, there are so many places I'd want to go!

So now I've got to start saving. =.=

They say if I stop going to all the short trips to HK, I will have the money to go to these places. But but but... I <3 HK! And I seriously don't mind going again. Esp. for the camp or just shopping. Okay, maybe not the camp anymore because I believe that those memories are the best to keep. :) But shopping, yes!

You see, I haven't been to HK that often. The last time was 2 years ago. HAHA! And I haven't only gone to HK mah. And I visited other places before. So it isn't fair to say that.

Ok. Got to plan for next year soon. So that I can save up well. :)))

End of 7th Year!

10 Sep Chamber Series concert marks the end of SYCO 2011. (Ok, there's still the reception). I hope I won't get emo then.

I remember 09 I wanted to stop because of the possible clash in school lessons and practice days. But somehow the schedule allowed me to go for practices, only to fill all my weekday evenings. Definitely one of my hardest year but I pulled through.

To be truthful, I can't really say which year I enjoyed the most. Every year there's something the same, something different. Every year there's a different feel. But I can safely say I became more and more attached to the group every year. And that's the exact reason pulling me back from the most cruel decision, and the thought of 'I  should have done it earlier'. But I'd say I have never regretted anything for SYCO for the past 7 years.

And now, it's time to make a decision again. To stay or to leave. I very much want to stay, then again, I had to consider some other things happening in my life, or I think I should be doing. Esp. when I know that some things are too difficult to achieve in the orchestra. But if I leave, it means I'll be left with no orchestras at all! And that is sad.

I don't know exactly, 2 voices are shouting out very loudly to me. 1 saying, 'Stay! Your passion, your friends are all there!', and the other saying, 'No, you should spend more time building your own career and stop wasting time because you are not young anymore!' Both are like damn true.

Like I always say, it really takes a lot of courage to give up something. Esp. when I don't even know if it's worth giving up yet since I haven't got any solid plan that will be happening for sure if I do. But if I do not give myself more time first, how do I execute any plan? Ahh!! Still a dilemma after all. I need more time.

Anyhows. I <3 SYCO max. Thank you people, again, for another wonderful year. :)

Don't ask.

Ending my 3rd week. 

Think about it, I've done a lot but haven't really done a lot too. Maybe there's just too much. And sometimes I just feel a little depressing looking at the current situation. But that is so not me, so I decided to take it in stride. Do what I can and take what is there for me.

Everyone kept asking me the same 2 questions of the past and current, and I already feel very sick answering them all the time. I wouldn't say what they ask, quite sensitive issues. And to speak the truth, I feel a bit embarrassed answering them. I hope they will ask me no more. :)

Perhaps, it was never a good decision from the start of this whole life. (not referring to this current job)

I'm enjoying what I'm doing to be honest, if only the returns are slightly better. And I'm not asking much anyway, so I need to do something more in my life. Just got to work harder i guess.

Bah............

Sometimes life is just full of irony.

As I was reading through some of the entries for the past year, I realised how much life has changed for me, how much things aren't real for me, how things just go off course so suddenly, how different it is now than what I thought they would be like in the posts.

I didn't have a job for the past 3 months but my expenses are the highest during this period. 2 Overseas trips plus driving lessons and PT is enough and plus all the other misc expenses like minimal shopping and such. I already very control. But well, I want to be strong and not admit to my family what I'm facing. And well, I owed my sister quite a bit of money to begin with. =x You wouldn't believe the amount. haha.

Then to make things worse, students left one by one. And it had to happen when I'm in need of them. I'm kind of disheartened to not teach anymore. But how leh? I think I'll give myself and the music school another month.

And then, more and more things coming up. I really need to settle this soon!

Journey to Driving

Dragged for almost a year. Wasted a PDL because I was too busy when I first applied for it, and totally wasted it without using it for even once. Finally started the lessons when I lost my job. Yup. To be truthful, it's a lost to me. But anyhows life went on, and so I might as well make use of the time. About $1300 - every single cent out of my own pocket even without an income for the past 3 months.

I was very nervous and anxious because I do not want to drag it longer, and I do not want to spend more money on it. I have to say I'm being lucky today. The tester was nice. And the tester might be rushing for time. But still made a few mistakes here and there. The worst was on the road. Didn't filter across ALL the lanes fast enough. And caused a car behind to brake. =x Wasn't really hoping much. But we returned to the school right after that. So no more chance for mistakes and that's why I passed? Haha! Luckily he didn't mark that as 'caused near accident'?

Other than that, the rest of the points came from the circuit. Can't believe some of the mistakes I made. Like on the slope! Tsk. I was kind of confident for that. But I don't know why I lifted up my foot from the brake pedal before releasing the clutch to biting point. I think my mind was in a blank. And the E-brake too. I totally forgot and reacted too slow plus wrongly. I can't even remember now which pedal did I step on first. =.=

Anyway I'm glad I passed, although not the best. But I did! :D Tyvm now I'm a P-plate driver. :)

HK Camp 完zor :(

Sometimes I do not know if that was a really good decision to go to the camp. If I hadn't, I wouldn't have so much feelings about it and wouldn't have this real feeling of missing it again. But if I hadn't, I wouldn't have met so many nice people, wouldn't have so many new friends added to my life.

回來後，有一種空虛感。有一點小遺憾，一點不捨，一點小傷心。很多事，我清楚我知道的。就好像一場夢一樣，沒想到我真的還能有機會回去，沒想到能遇到一些舊朋友，也認識到這麼多新朋友。真的很高興，我並沒有白去。但，我也知道，夢終究是要醒過來的。夢做完了，就要回到現實。

現在，我得回來了。

HK I'm coming!

It's been almost 2 years since I last went to HK and 4 years since the last HK music camp. I'm feeling both a little excited and a little uncertain. I'm not sure why either. Maybe because I also don't know who exactly I will meet again. But well, I know exactly who I wouldn't meet, because he isn't part of CO. Ah... what a pity. But ya. I guess I will still enjoy myself much! :D

All that said, I'm flying tonight! :D And returning on 7 Aug. Of which, I shall try to be worry-free (though kind of difficult because the pieces are kind of worrying, and my driving test is kind of worrying as well). Omg. But I'm really just gonna enjoy! Happy MUCH! :D

Bye! Actually I hope I never have to come back again. LOL! =x

4 things to do in half a day.

Today marks the end of SCO 10/11 Season. One very good concert I say, however, I only watched the 2nd half of the concert because I have too many things going on today.

But the concert was decided 1 year ago, while the rest of the matters just came in. Then it was Von's birthday party. I was really apologetic that I couldn't stay through. Initially I even wanted to back our from my attendance, because I must go to the concert. But she's already so nice to shift the cake-cutting forward! Omg. A friend I want to keep forever. :) So in the end I agreed to be late for my concert. And I think it's worth it. :)

Then before that was movie and high-tea/dinner with my buddies Via and Mel. Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2, the much awaited one. I would have watched it earlier if not for the early arrangement. Haha! Many might have felt that it wasn't up to their standard, but I think it was good! I have my anxiety moments, my touching moments, my happy moments. Seriously I have nothing much to ask for. And don't you feel like watching Harry Potter all over again?

Then a meal at Sun and Moon @ Wheelock Place. Nice! Everything we had tasted good! Great sushi, sushi mixed rice (it's really damn good), and dessert!! The crepe cake is really nice!! I still have a slice of it in my fridge. Haha! Next time Hokkaido fair must buy more. :D Ok, we can always go back to Sun and Moon to eat it. Heh.

Ok, back to the concert. The pianist is totally too awesome! His fingers are like so fast! And played so clear. Omg I love the 4th movement. I was totally looking at how his hands move over the keys. How did he even do it. I wished I had learnt a bit of piano last time. Never could do it myself. He was quite nice too, took a group photo. Reminds me of the Lang Lang concert too. Hais, why are these pianist so zai?!

All rights. I have my share of fun these days. Shall update more soon! :D

Budak Pantai - Assorted Nuts

Been looking for this album for a long time. Sometimes I do hate myself for being indecisive and then regret later on.

Sydney/Melbourne 11-21 June: Part 9

Okay I guess this will be the last part! I don't have much pictures to share already. Haha! Should have taken even more. But I have already taken almost 1.4k photos leh! And still not enough. Ya should have taken more food. Haha!

Day 10/11: Sydney - Singapore

View from our hotel room - Very beautiful! :)

Sydney/Melbourne 11-21 June: Part 8

The disastrous part of the trip. Can't blame anyone for sure. We are at fault too. Maybe not that literally disastrous. But was one of the worst hiccups you can find.

Day 9/10: Melbourne to Sydney - Blue Mountain

Blue Mountain

Sydney/Melbourne 11-21 June: Part 7

Don't after The Great Ocean Road, there won't be any other things nice in the trip, continue to read on and you will know :)

More good food coming up!! HAHA

Day 8: Melbourne (SHOPPING)

It's a WHOLE LOT of walking the whole day! It's just eat and shopping and eat and shopping and eat! hahaha! And we survived all our days in Melbourne with the map below! Kept it from Day 1 in melbourne. With some places we need to go marked. Lucky thing we (I) can read the map easily.

Melbourne City Map
(Yes it's originally grey scaled)

Sydney/Melbourne 11-21 June: Part 6

One of the best part of the trip is coming! :D Really a great choice to go on a tour like that. :)

View of The Great Ocean Road from the Helicopter

Day 6/7: Melbourne (Great Ocean Road Trip and Philip Island)

Sydney/Melbourne 11-21 June: Part 5

Now we are going for some great views in bad weather sometimes. Never gotten that kind of wet in cold weather before. Luckily none of us fell sick during the trip. HAHA

Day 5: Melbourne (Touch down)

Sydney/Melbourne 11-21 June: Part 4

Watching TV is never a good idea while blogging. Yesterday was more productive when I sat at my dinner table to type the post. Today, the page was here all day without even a single word until now. =P

Day 4: Sydney

Sydney/Melbourne 11-21 June: Part 3

Hi! I'm back again! Seriously I'm determined to finish blogging about it. At least before I leave for HK camp. Haha! That's like about a month away. I'm sure I can do this. Without further ado, let's continue on the journey. 

Day 3: Sydney

Sydney/Melbourne 11-21 June: Part 2

Just 1 day and I used like how many days to complete it? It makes me wonder if I will ever finish blogging about the trip. HAHA. Maybe I should really just cut short everything. But I already cut very short leh. o.m.g. Ok. Let's just do it lah.

Day 2:
MY BIRTHDAY! LOL

Sydney/Melbourne 11-21 June: Part 1

Sydney: 11 - 14 June, Melbourne: 15 - 18 June, Sydney: 19-21 June. It's not enough. I wished we could stay longer. So many things and so many places we haven't gone to. I believe regrets will bring us back to the place again. haha.

Day 1:

Sydney/Melbourne 11-21 June: Prologue

It was a great trip, even with some hiccups here and there. We are probably not experienced enough, well, I'm supposed to be the most experienced traveller among us, but I guess I didn't do enough during the trips with my parents to apply it here. Some unhappy moments but we all learned from it.

A lot a lot of activities. In fact, we planned too much for us to take. So it was kinda insufficient. I may want to go back again. But not anytime soon. Too many places I want to go.

But there were some experiences so nice I think I will never forget. :)

Stay tuned for more! It could take some time. hee.

SAF 2011

Not Singapore Armed Forces, it's Singapore Arts Festival. HAHA! The theme for this year is - I want to Remember. Nice theme, and nice programmes to fit into the theme! You will see the link with the groups I'm attached to, continue reading.

电视迷上身了

最近事情少了，能做闲事的时间多了。能追看电视的时间也多了。

我本来就有点‘电视迷’，而且喜欢做couch potato, 平时工作的时候，加上每天不同的业余，根本没有时间看电视一眼。现在既然小有时间及闲情，当然要看够本啦!

疗伤歌曲

很久没分享音乐了。最近有几首本人很喜欢的歌曲。排名不分先后喔！^.-

The hot topic

It's the General Elections season, so being a Singapore citizen, I should be concerned right?

Too many people, too many concerns. Oh, and some complaints too.

SYF 2011 - 2

两年一度的中学中央评审就在今天‘放榜’的时候画上句点了。今年因为有时间，所以三天都准时到场，56所中学，只有一所没看/听，因为太累，太饿，所以先跑了。

Like my FB status, "OMG. 3 full days at SYF is likea crazy. I listened to 55 征s, 3 秦兵s, 3 movements of 拉萨行, 3 out of four seasons, 2 太阳s, 2 飞天s, 2 阿佤山s etc etc. Yup. There's only 1 school i didn't catch. HAHA!"

Even I'm amazed by myself. LOL!

SYF 2011 - 1

Even though it's only after the 2nd day of CO SYF Central Judging, I have to say that CO standards in Singapore is really increasing like don't know what. We no longer have the situation whereby you twitch at every other school because of their super out-of-tune suona. Most of the schools could handle their suonas decently. Definitely a good thing. I'm totally not a fan of the instrument, but since it's inside the orchestra, it shouldn't be bringing the overall down. Luckily, we have quite tremendous improvements in handling the instrument now. I'm quite surprised actually. Apparently some schools performed out of our expectation! Usually good. Wow.

But of course, here, we are excluding the fact that they practice for this SYF only and they might not be able to play any other songs. At least it shows the potentials.

We'll see the last day, it's where a number of past Gold and GWH schools meet together. Almost the whole day is like exciting!

It's really tiring to listen to all the schools. The judges are really li hai. haha!

Nights

It's the end of it.

Everything seems so fast. I think we all didn't have the time to react. At least not me. It feels like I still have a lot of things undone. And haven't gotten everything settled. Looks like I have to go back to at least tie up the loose ends. Some stuff i haven't really hand over? Hmm.. Omg. Sometimes I think I'm a irresponsible worker. And maybe that's the reason why I wasn't given the offer anymore? It's not officially the end yet, but quite there.

Anyhows, 看开 already lah. It's not the kind of things that is in my total control, whatever comes, I just have to take it, right? 现在是抱着‘船到桥头自然直’，‘水来土掩，兵来将挡’，还有一点听天由命的心情看待。真的，说的是容易，做一定做得到吗？But then again, 一直以来我的工作运都还蛮烂的，可以一辈子不工作吗？=x But I need a rich husband first. That's like harder than looking for a job, because my 财运 and 爱情运 is even worse I think. Omg. I don't know what I can depend on actually. Kind of sad to know. Bahhh....

But I hope that the rush in leaving everything there doesn't affect their work. I guess they will still do well, without me, and with a new staff. I'm not irreplaceable anyway. And true enough, it's time for me to move on perhaps. I tend to stay in my comfort zone if I can. And I could have just 赖着不走 even though it's a 不怎么样的工作. HAHA. Maybe I should start getting used to moving around.

Erm. I don't what is installed for me in future yet, or if there's anything installed at all. Actually more like what I have installed myself for. I hope I'm not going to have any regrets giving such a big promise to it. :)

I'm tired. Need to sleep. Forever also can. =x

累

I wondered when I could be relieved. I hope soon. Everything going through my mind is so uptight. 真的，眉头会不知不觉的深锁。等我发现的时候，不知已经锁了多久。我并不喜欢这样的感觉，也应该没有人喜欢吧。如果发现自己的眉头有锁起来了，我会用手把它匀开，还提醒自己不要一直这样，但没办法耶！

Do some homework, waiting for responds. Definitely not the period of time I like, but yup, like I said before, no choice. Have to continue to find and then wait again.

I don't want to explain so much and again anymore.

That's it. I'm tired.

Dauntless Spirit 2011 (Y)

It's one of the most exciting concert so far!

Pre-concert 2011

Support SYCO Concert - Dauntless Spirit 2011! :)))

Last rehearsal tomorrow before concert. I hope it's going to be good. I'm actually having quite high expectations for the concert. And I'm glad that my sisters and close friends are coming. Parents not going because my mum can't go so my aunt is going, and my dad gave up his ticket for my aunt's friend. I was quite happy to hear that my aunt wants to watch actually. :)

Nice songs we are going to perform and I'm so looking forward to Minhui's concerto. Preparing to see her shine on stage! Omg I think I totally sound like my child is one performing. HAHA. Anyhow, I think the concerto are going to be fantastic! And I think the whole concert is going to be cool!

Anyway it's the 3rd consecutive years I'm sitting with Zhangls. So lucky right. No matter where I was sitting these 3 years, I met him at the seats. Haha. Such coincidence can. Can't believe my luck. But it was all right, at least not as stress as the first time. And the song was quite all right. Some parts I need to keep reminding myself. Heh.

Time's up, game over.

I believe that everyone will meet with changes in life. Somehow I just have to face it more often. I don't like changes as often as this, but I will take it with stride. I mean there's nothing I can do to stop it now anyway right?

That day I was still talking with Via and saying like it's almost a year I'm here. And indeed, the 1year is ending and never continuing anymore. A bit disappointed, but it serves as a good decision making point. I wouldn't say that I'm prepared to stay in this job for long, but I didn't expect that it would be this fast. And the reason why I didn't want to leave as yet was because I wanted the whole experience of the work from the starting of the year till the end. Involved in a whole year's work. And I can tell people, 'yah, I've been through all of it'. But it's not going to come true then. It's fine, it's just life and people telling me, 'yes, you need to change'. Actually I have friends telling me that all along.

After this I actually hope I can jump out of the box. I hope I will still be able to remain in the arts. But hopefully not in a different field of arts. Erm, yup I hope. And then I'm thinking of the other thing that I have been wanting to do. Maybe I can start doing it already! Since I will no longer be associated like now. Hope so! :)

Okay, I'll start looking. And thanks to friends whom shown your concerns (you know who you are), I appreciate it. But I must say I'm the kind of person who is not good at both the giving and receiving end of consolation. And the more consolation I get, the easier I breakdown. So it's okay, just pray for me k. Thank you very much.

Plans to Fly

To prevent myself from forgetting to blog about my trip this june, I've decided to bring my lappy there. And hopefully we'll have places that have wifi for me to use. HAHA or well, at least I can save all those stuff in my com first. :)

I'm super looking forward to the trip and it still seem so far from now. And I'm going to meet my cousin there too! I haven't seen him for the longest time! Excited to see everything there!

Plus that day I was chatting with my colleague, asking if she's going anywhere after this very busy period for them. She spoke about where she's going and we talked about some of the places we've been to and about my coming trip also. Actually I'm really happy that I'm going on a trip like that, with just a few close friends. (Finally got rid of my sister? lol I'm evil but well there are already 4 or us the optimal number of travelers so we are fine) And we did all the planning on our own! (Although I kind of phased out last week towards the end of the day with the 2 girls haha paiseh) But I'm sure all of us are looking forward.

And it's the 2nd time I'm traveling with exactly the same people! The last time was 2002! WOW! And that was only a 3D2N (I think) at Malacca. Still during our schooling years. With Via to HK a few years back, Genting with Ling and Horng last year. All the short trips. So this time it's the furthest and longest we are going so far. All hail to our friendship all these years. Actually too bad the others can't go with us. Well, can only say it's really difficult for a big group like ours to be moving around together.

Anyhows, there's still some finalising and planning needed. Time to sleep first! Nights.

Exuberance of Youth - Amazing

Today's concert is really like an eye-opener to the kind of talents we have. Esp. the conductors, amazing to conduct SCO yah?

What does Expensive Hobby brings

Aiyo.. This is so irritating. Why is my hobby so expensive?

And worse, I know I will feel damn bad if I miss any of them. Like just how I had regrets for some of the shows I didn't have chance to attend or don't have money to attend. Now that I'm financially independent, I can, just that is that all I want to spend on. The fact is that I've spent a lot of money lately and I haven't even paid for my air ticket yet! I'm screwed. :(

First there are pop concerts. Then there's musicals and there are concert! like OMG. I want to watch Lion King for sure. But the most affordable + still can see price is like $125?! What kind of affordable is that? :( But I'm sure I want to watch. It's like my favourite cartoon! And I remembered how I was introduced to the show plus my favourite Simba soft toy (which was lost already) :(

Yup then after listening to 933 today, talking about 881, it seems interesting too! They say it's the musical which runs the longest up-to-date. And one of the important actor is actually... My favourite again! hahahaha. So how to resist you tell me?

Then after that another friend asked if I want to go watch The China Madman - Dick Lee recital. RAH! Hello, stop giving more things to watch. How to miss Dick Lee's performance when I already missed once the last time. But then again, it's the first one I would consider to miss. Afterall, it's because I love musical that's why I never like to miss the previous 2. Difficult decision(s).

The saddest thing: I have very little resistance against things like that. Well, I can only say, sometimes when a Gemini have doubts in things like that, actually he/she already made a decision. Hard to understand? I keep saying I don't know if I should go, don't know if I want to go. In fact, I already had a decision right from the start. Just that I feel helpless having that kind of decision?

It's just like I was deciding whether to buy a MacBook Pro or a normal PC, I actually already had my decision. But I wouldn't admit until the very last minute? I guess that's how we work.

Right. I'm really like tired now. Let's make the decision another day! (Remember: the decision has already been made. HAHA)

The I AM night WE ARE waiting for!

The 3rd time he's staging a full length concert in Sg, and the 3rd time I'm watching a full length concert of his. :) I'm happy and excited ttm prior to the concert. I don't need to have any expectations of him because I know it will be good. :) And just hoped that he will sing all the songs that I would like to hear although i know not all of them will be sung. But no matter what, I AM there. :D

It was truly a high high high night! :D Enjoyed myself so much, it didn't feel like the night has passed. I'm sure no one there would want the night to end. HAHA!

I know that it's a non-photography event but usually they allow digital camera, so i had some photos in low quality. But most of the time I'm using all my energy to look at him and listen to him.

Apple!!! I Love! :D

Actually I've never imagined that I will really buy a MacBook. But I did! And to my surprise, I actually have quite a few Apple products. HAHA. And the addiction for Apple products came from the first one I ever got - iPod Nano 1st gen. I would have never gotten it on my own. It was a free gift from signing up for the internet connection. Never regretted doing that. And it lasted me for about 3years? Good enough i guess, because my friend who had the same one already changed to a new generation for quite some time by then.

And then I gotten a iPod Shuffle free (again), from doing a survey in Lasalle. And it was kind of a lucky draw. So I guess I was lucky for that once. HAHA. Now it still can be used. But not so much in usage, because of the next in line.

Finally I bought my first iPod (Touch). :) It's a total love really. Although can only use wifi but I thought of all these when I bought it. Got it about 2 months plus into my job. The first expensive thing I bought for myself as a reward, (just an excuse actually. Heh.) But it was really the best buy I had then. :))) But now it's a different story already! Haha! Oh, still loving it anyway. Just that shortly after I bought it, they launched the 4th generation. TSK.

And then now, I have a MacBook Pro! :DDD I really took a long time to decide on which one i should get. And sua ku me didn't know that there's no normal black MacBook anymore. -.- And seriously I loved that MacBook ever since I used it during internship at Lasalle. But that was so long ago. Yup. So things do change. HAHA. And then i was contemplating to get the normal white MacBook since it's so much cheaper. But in the end. 反正都要花那个钱了，就一次过吧。Yup, which is really so much of a one time spending. Later will explain.

Last one is iPhone 4! And actually the phone is supposed to be earlier than the lappy, but I did something a bit stupid, so yup, the phone will only come on Monday! and I can only use on Tues then. :( And even sadder because my phone is really dying. And I very scared it cannot 撑过这个周末. :( Ok, I'm waiting for Monday to come! And welcome new Apple product to the family. HAHA! When it's here I will post up photo of them together, but need to go and find my old one first. Heh.

Ok, that's all because my lappy is going to be empty batt in like 8min. Nights folks.

难以抉择 1 - 不开心的事

Today is the day i really felt like strangling my student. I really felt like asking him to get out of my class. I would have done that if he's my private student. Seriously. If the student don't see the need to listen and learn, then what for I waste all my energy after the already long day at work?

I take teaching as a passion and something I like to do. I'm happy when I see the kids learn and are able to play a song properly. However, I don't know if I'm just really that unlucky to get students of such. The 2 that were gone are also like that! I seriously don't know if it's just the kids nowadays or is it me.

So to speak the truth, I was really very disheartened when the kid treated the lesson like that. Although I'm sure he's rather scared after I flare up and didn't want to talk to him. He quieten down and immediately played better though not fantastic. I had no choice but to tell his mother about that. And I really felt better, it's like at least a 交待 to the parents about what is going on in the class. I would very much like his parents to sit in the class. But it wouldn't be a long term solution. And kids tend to hate this kind of things to happen?

Nowadays kids are just getting smarter and smarter, which leads to cheekier and naughtier too. Or is it just my students? 4 out of 5 are like that! So kudos to primary school teachers. Luckily I didn't go for the NIE primary school teacher interview (I may not get it as well). I remembered when I go and learn violin last time, I didn't even dare to talk back or defy my teacher. I don't even dared to talk to my teacher unless he asked. And strict training means strict training. I didn't like it 100% but i learned well! Like what are the kids doing today?

Even the quiet student doesn't register whatever I say. Many times, I told him that if he reaches earlier than me, take out his violin to practise! And I only think it's logical because to speak the truth, I don't think any of the students are able to fork out the time to practise at home everyday. So I'm already giving some chance to self-practise and get a little more recollection before the lesson starts. And I told them straight, they don't practise enough at home, so might as well use the time to quickly take out violin and start practising! I remember that's what I always do for my lessons whenever I didn't practise well enough. I would pray that my teacher doesn't come into the room so soon so that i have more time to warm up and look at the notes again. Then my student, every week I go into the room, he will just be sitting there doing nothing. Why ah?

Then 15min into the lesson or less, you can see signs of student showing tiredness, keep hinting through the painful sound, and can't wait to keep. Naughty one will just start talking, start playing a fool, and start pressing the piano. (I never ever touched my teacher's piano when he's around unless to tune). And keep wanting to sit down! Why do I meet such monsters?

I nearly cried in front of my student. Too stress I think, and I was thinking of something else also. But perhaps he'd be scared at the sight and start to listen to me? I don't know. But I don't want to take the risk.

And these students are the very reason why I'd rather give up the income from teaching and the joy to teach, compared to SYCO. If only they knew how to appreciate the effort. Plus, I don't stay in Yishun, rather, not even anywhere near, and I've been going there faithfully to teach all those demons. But every time I felt so drained from the lessons I think they are not worth it. But i know that SY is the place that eventually I will have to let go, so it's just a dilemma altogether. But the thing is if I continue to stay like that, I will never be able to progress well enough for both the CO and my own lessons. I feel guilty for not playing every time I go to lesson. Why don't my students feel that? :(

OMG HOW?

No post, no recollection.

Just realised i didn't have a post for the last JJ concert. WHY??? I'm sad max. and i couldn't understand how come i didn't do it.

This is weird. HAIS.

Nvm.. will be updating abt this one very soon! Still feeling very happy. And i can still relive it anytime i like! Except for the first part. HAHA. Those 3 hours are the best i've had for the past few months i swear. :)

Gmarket craze

All the items I've gotten.. *Ahem.

 As you can see, I've been crazy on gmarket.

Change of blog add!

A sudden decision to change my blog add.. It's been with me for the past 6 years! Not exactly, but it was also in the month of March! Such coincidence.

And this happens to be the 701th post? So, time to do a little change. 

Reason to change the add: (1) To move on for what i've experienced in life for these years (2) A little change to how i want to present myself in the blog

Yup, so if you have come to this page, thank you for still following me. :)

A little fan moment

A funny encounter i would say. Cos I totally didn't know it will happen. I didn't expect him to reply to the comments. But anyhows, since it happened, i might as well make use of the chance. HAHA! =x

The Rest of Dec. (Finally)

December was really so eventful i think my mum can't really be bothered if i go home for dinner anymore. hahaha!

Let's continue from where i left off, starting off with new numbers. haha.

灵异事件?

I can't believe it myself either. But it's damn freaky i swear.

Was walking to the usual bus stop after erhu lesson. i thought i saw someone sitting at the bus stop. Back-facing me/facing the road. On 1 of the 3 slanted benches - the one nearest to the oncoming traffic. But then when i walked nearer to the bus stop, there wasn't anyone there! And i swear the same thing happened last week, after lesson too!

I was rather freaked out cos it's the 2nd time. Last week i thought i was just too tired. Then this week leh? But i dunno is it really just me being tired and eyes playing tricks or there's really something. Anyhows, at least 'the person' didn't turn ard, nothing happened and I will just treat it as a eyes-tired event.

Somehow, my mum's friend was quite concerned and asked my mum to go pray for me for 犯太岁 this year. I hope i feel more secure and that i'm really fine from any misfortune or unluckiness from now. Hais. Been suay for the longest time you can think of. How long? I don't even rmb.

Ok. Good luck to myself for the coming year and hope i dun see that again next week!

Great Albums, Great Musicians, Great Music

Bought and listened to quite a few new albums lately. And all of them are local productions? haha.

Yup. I'm in favor of purchasing and supporting local singers, local productions. :) From 雨季, Fried Rice Paradise, Cinderel-Lah!, 请你告诉他 (Instrumental renditions of 梁文福's works) to JJ's 她说 and Kit Chan's 重译. They are all great works. Great great works.

I can't say which one I loved more. HAHA. Probably the last 2 are top of the list. Kit Chan's album is the latest I've got and it's on repeat in itunes at my work desk since (as long as i'm not listening to the radio). And I got to say, I love the cantonese numbers! And they can't be played on the radio. Aww... All of them nice leh! Somehow i think that the english numbers are nicer too. Oops. It goes to show that she's good for everything. Haha! :) Btw, 重译 means a 重新演绎.. re-interpretation. Thus, all the songs are ready. And she does the re-interpretation. The songs are all classics man. And the way she sang the songs, omg, so nice! I'm totally immersed in her voice. :)))

JJ's 她說.. is unfortunately, also a new renditions of songs. Just that they are all his past works. Songs that he wrote for other female singers. So ya, get the idea of the topic of 她說 yea? But I love the only new song in the album, i.e. the title of the album, music and lyrics by him and Stefanie Sun respectively. Nice song! :) The rest of the songs... Some i'm more in favor. Some less. Anyhows, some of the songs really sound so different from the original. And i didn't really know that those songs are written by him. HAHA. Oops. (Just as i'm typing this and watching 星光, 魏如昀 is singing that song. HAHA. I nv liked her, but i LOVE the song! :D) Few songs that i liked in the album: 她说, 心墙, 我不住的他, 一生的爱, 记得. Yup! :D

The rest are more of Musical OST. I LOVE THEM OF COS. Each has its own shine. Super like. And i'm still listening to them on and off now. Fav: Any song that is sang by Sebastian Tan. Not just that his voice is nice, the song is nice too. Esp. the ones in Fried Rice Paradise. Taufik was good in the CD too.. Most of them are really nice!! I still enjoy listening to it now. Fried... frieeed... frieeeddd rice. HAHA! :D And 請你告訴她 is like a long time fav. Love the whole scenic story that is portrayed in the song. The 3 part singing is so perfect. Others songs in December Rain is like LOVE! <3. Cinderle-Lah! is slightly less outstanding than the other 2. It's more family and cheerful, which has its good points too. I keep laughing at the ugly sisters' part. HAHA! And the sri-lankan crab part.

YAY. I'm super looking forward to the Concert!!!!!!!! JJ's Concert.. And hopefully Kit is going to have another concert, full length concert! :D

Black Swan

Indeed breathtaking for me. Sometimes I have to really hold my breathe. It could a little confusing and takes quite a bit to get what is going on. But have to say that both the dance and acting is really good. The psychotic mind of Nina is the main thing that is giving all the stories in the movie, it's all in her mind. After the show, it makes me ponder if some parts really did happen or not.

Quite exquisite for a dance show too. Love the dance steps and all. Maybe cos I've always liked Swan Lake. But suddenly it seems to how more of the dark side of the dance and the dance scene.

Hmm... The rating has its reasons I guess. Haha. I kinda feel like watching the uncut version. It is already quite bad and into detail for the M18. How is it like for the uncut?! Lol.

Ok. U can watch the show if u haven't. Every part of it has a story.

蔡康永的说话之道

A great book i must say.

内容很容易懂。 他用词真的很好， 同时表达他要读者知道的信息，又不失幽默感。小故事有人物，有情节；不枯燥乏味。

每个故事(短文)都有个主题, 很明确, 不拐弯抹角, 让读者读得轻松. 都好像轻松小品一样, 但内容很有深度.

很喜欢每篇短文以前都有插图, 画得很可爱, 也很符合内容. 先让读者有个大概念接下来会读到什么东西, 还不错.

推荐给身边的朋友和家人, 现在姐姐正开始读. 日前由朋友到了台湾, 想起我的推荐, 自己也买了一本, 说真得很好. 很高兴可以跟别人分享好书. :)

我不能说自己很会说话, 我只是会很小心地想自己应该说什么, 而且到最后通常都没说出口.但这也好过说错话吧.从书里学到很多在不同时候应该用的言语, 太有用了吧. 有时会觉得身边的人说话技巧很烂, 而且往往说话没想后果, 美估计别人的感受. 还是快快读一读这本书吧. 虽然不是每方面都可以照顾到, 但一定有可用之处! :)

CNY 2011 - Rabbit comes back again

It's been really an awesome cny. I haven't had such a good one for a long time. I had always thought that cny is just a reason for relatives to ask a lot of qns. well, probably still is, haha. But i dun feel it so much now. :)

And the best thing of all is, it's the first time i really felt damn happy with all my cousins and that i want to appear at every place we are going to. (i used to dread it so much) Usually i'm more close to the maternal side cousins, i think cos age gap closer (actually both side abt there). And i used to think i can't click with my paternal side cousins at all. But i was so surprised i managed to survive even without er-jie. Well, i used to be more comfortable with my sis ard cos she's the talkative one who will be talking with the cousins while i stay at the side. So when she's not ard, i usually just have to stay away. So i dunno what have gone into my social skills this year. I managed! hahaha. :D

And we had so much fun taking photos lah. Thanks to er-jie's new cam and my polaroid. hahaha. And surprised that 2 of the cousins working overseas came back for cny. That leaves only 1 cousin not ard this year. And that cousin is pregnant! Heard the baby girl is due in may. Our first next generation in the whole Lim family. And she's going to be a rabbit girl :))) Nice max.

In the midst of celebration was a farewell for zixin. She left so fast! But i'm seriously happy for what she's going to be! Wish her all well in adapting over there and get good results! And i wanna see her soon. :)

Am so glad that i've met most of the ppl i wished to meet during cny. having 4 days does make a difference. but it's really tiring for sure. Family most of the time, sy, mco and most impt, my beloved cogang. We were each other's for the whole day and practically went to all homes of those who went. that's 8 houses! Tired ttm but I love each and every one of them ttm too. I hope the coming weekend is good too! :D

I want to meet my fav ppl again. I want to see JJ this week! :D

A very long update for things happening from Oct to mid-Dec

It's been long since i talked abt the movies, concerts, plays, musicals, whatever events i attended. (been long since i last blogged anyway) =x And the albums i bought.. too many to update. I have at least 10 things on my list not updated. haha! But the thing is i've been to quite a few and also bought quite a no. of albums. ah... money sucking businesses.. but i dun care!

1. Charlie St. Cloud
Watched the movie with my da-jie @Iluma. Zac Efron is so good looking pls. HAHA! Anyway it's really a heartwarming piece of work. And I really do like Efron even more after the show. He has really beautiful eyes. I think i already said that when i saw him in Hairspray. hahaha! Yup, definitely the type of movie i like. Heh.

2. Sun Huang's Recital
Went to watch the recital with a few others @ Esplanade Recital Studio. She's really good with her techniques. Played with a lot of emotions and expressed to the fullest. However, we all agreed that that are some songs which are so not for her style. And, encore piece was Flight of the Bumble Bee, done in less than a minute! Like crazy omg.

3. Buffet @ Melt the World Cafe (Mandarin Oriental)
Went to their buffet dinner with my royals. Many exciting stuff! But overall was all right, catch up a lot with them. Plus, it's the first time i saw von chia ever since she came back from sydney! haha! It's been a really long time. I really miss the times we used to study (play most of the time) tgt. Anyhows, had a good time gossiping abt everything (outside and within us). Nv a grp of friends of mine have this kind of talking power. seriously, sometimes it's just embarrassing with them. But well, we are in our own world. LOL. Joke: We will eat at all the places until all of them ban us from going cos we are too noisy. =x

4. Nike Human Race
The race came right on the next day after the buffet. HAHA! Thing is i didn't really train much. and so stamina was like. hais. And it was sunny that day. And what was disappointing was the finisher gift. damn sian.

In the end we went for Mac breaky after the run and some of us 'dispose' the useless nike figurine there.

Then the rest of the afternoon was spent in bed and the toilet. Something went wrong somehow, i just kept on going to the toilet. sian ttm.