Friday, April 22, 2016

An additional 'burden'

Today, it's the first time I pay for a TM Wealth Enhancement policy plan premium.

I'm not sure if it's just me or it's the same for people of my generation.

At this point of time, I am still very very very skeptical of what this plan will bring me, even with all the papers on the premium terms with exact numbers on it.

Not exactly skeptical on what I can get out of it after 25 years, more like skeptical if I will be able to fulfill the premiums fully before I take anything out of it. And that is scary because oh man... When I see "25 years" now I still feel the same: that's a hell long time! I don't even know what will happen to me in the next 5 years, let alone 25! And the nature of my passion and work made me more skeptical about all these. I don't even know where I will be working, if I will get married, have any children, have a house, have a car, or even, if I'll still be alive! 

So... I've been wanting to do something like that since I started working, but also due what I've gone through for the past 6 years... there was no security in my life, there is no stability and I can't afford at all, though it would have been better if I have started earlier.

Maybe I'm ready now, maybe I'm not. But I have taken a step. So I'll just have to do it now. For the next 20 years! :o

And then... down to the next thing I want to tick off my list. ;)