Random feelings

- Sometimes you make so much effort and in the end it is just another disappointment.
- I really do enjoy myself working in somewhere i really have interest for. but some things are just not want i want. And i just ALWAYS do not get what i like better
- I feel that you really have to like your job to enjoy your job. if not it will just be torture.
- I dun really like the attitude of __________. Since you are still in the company, you should do what you ought to do. Not to give the hack care kind of attitude.
- I feel injustice. for a lot of things. life is just not fair.
- My existence is needed to the minimum. So much so that it is not appreciated at all.
- Things just doesn't work this way.
- I dun want to spend so much energy on such things anymore. Tiring.
- I am a person with very little initiative. yet i have to pick up that little bit to do it first.
- I dun care but this is what i feel.

Nites.

Some update

Nothing is really getting any better. I'm still the lowly paid cheap labour... And i'm still struggling with all the other activities i try to have. It rather fulfilling actually.

Had a good lunch with my NY girls. Talked abt many things but mainly our r/s. Thanks for their concern but if nothing comes, it can't be forced as well right? But i'm happy for the girls who are going on quite steady. And of cos. Someone with pursuer. :) Mine? Slowly wait ba. God knows when and how? It's not easy i guess. Dun worry, i'm as as happy even i'm still single.

And I really enjoy working out. It could be a bit demanding and kinda testing my limits. But it was really good. Er-jie and I missed the bodycombat class on sat cos we were late. So did some workout on our own. Then jogged at ECP on sun evening with yushi. Nice one. Cool weather and good determination. (But spoiled photo memory card. -.-'''). Best was bodycombat class on monday. Really drained every bit out of me. And i have aching thighs today. LOL! damn jialat. Feels like an old woman now. But all was good. Hope to do more and better. :)

Yup. Need to sleep more too. Nitex. Update again soon. I hope. :D

Nice dinner :)

Delighted with dinner at home today...



YEAH! Wah... Chicken chop, Egg on bread and Fries. Actually still got baked beans... but i dun like.. so nv take. hee.

Although we didn't eat tgt... but i'm happy becos my mother did everything herself.. including the sauce on the chicken.. :) ok.. she didn't do anything to the bread. and fries obviously is from those frozen pack. But it's really nice. It depends on how u fry it as well lor... Yeah yeah... will share other food photos another day. hee.

Ya. Need to go. Ciaoz~

Music Sharing

爱不疚 - 林峰
收藏在眼眸
常徘徊左右
爱 猜到没有
愉 快玩笑後
能全然退後
你 开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚
讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後 或会走
这种恋爱太罕有
不 须真正拥有 成全
衷心祝福然後 就放手
放手 放开所有
彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有
还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
遥 远是宇宙
静静在背後
去 看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚
讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动挽
你手 这种恋爱太罕有
不须真正拥有 成全
多舍不得仍然 是放手
放手 放开所有
彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有
还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
放手 我的牵挂
找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许 爱很深厚
然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有


最近看太多电视。=P Yeah... 2nd series theme song for 管家仔 and 于素秋. Nicer than 1st series! hahaha. 1st series one overused. and the tune is super getting on my nerves cos it just keep on repeating. lol. So this song nicer! :)

Haha. Like a bit emo... and a bit long liao hor the song. Aiya. i super not updated nowadays. too long nv buy CD and get songs from friends. Somemore i kanna complained by my er-jie. She 嫌弃 my songs say too old!!! wah liao eh. Also never see her go buy CD let me listen. Nowadays she too free liao. But i think i got fetish for buying CD leh. hahaha. I wanna buy so many until i think i got no budget liao. 林宥嘉 sounds good, 蕭敬騰 also good... sis wants 蔡淳佳, i want 陶喆 (so that i can let him sign on our event. HAHA!). I wanted A-mei also.. How like that? Still got so many!! JJ's new album will be out in Dec i think. hahaha. Yeah! :)

Yeah.. i so so excited... although the event could be a bore. but the thought of possibility to get my CDs signed, and take picture with 陶喆 makes me damn excited! hahaha! I hope i really can get it lah. HEE. If not hor also must get the autograph at least right. Wah liao.. i die also want to go to the event. =x

Emo-ness + some happiness

Ok... i admit that i was a bit emo over the weekends... spent most of my time sleeping.. except for the gym times... Actually it was sunday which i was really emo cos i received some unexpected news...

Still went to run early in the morning and in fact had a better run than any days else. Considered the fact that i haven't train my run for some time, it is not bad a result. At least i completed 4.8km. and still, it is only half of the 10km which is less than 1month away. I think that's it lah. hahaha.

Then after i came back from the run. Went into emo mood... Sleep, lunch, erhu, com, sleep, dinner, tv, sleep. I super duper don't know what i doing.. and i really hope everything was a dream. But it's totally the reality.

Well well, after i thought it was no big deal. So i guess i just have to let it go and find my life. Too no life now. tsk tsk tsk. But with all the things on hand, how to have a good life? My friends commented that i like very busy, even busier than them. Sometimes i think it's true also. And i don't know i'm so busy for what? It's ok.. I will get over it soon. I have to. It's already been so long and yet. I have a bad control over my emotional feelings. I hate it. But ya. I know i can.

On a lighter note, last fri was YPC concert. Went to help out with bringing the kids. And sat through both sessions of the concert. I can only say, little kids are really very cute and the spontaneous lot. Primary school already not really 'on'. Needless to say the secondary school kids. But i can understand.. cos if i'm there as a secondary school student. i dun think i will participate well also. So can't blame them, it's how the Singaporean kids are brought up to be. Of cos, the most action group was the American school kids. They are really awesome. I can see that they really enjoyed themselves. And i am pleased to see children appreciating our music. :)))

A few more concerts till the end of year. Will be missing the Ah Girl Concert since i will be in HK during that time. Oh wells, no fate with that series. haha! But i've still got Three Suonas and Voice of Harmony II. I'm damn excited to go to VOH II cos David Tao is coming!! Yeah! Hopefully i will be able to get photo and autograph from him. HEE. Actually i do enjoy this part of my work. That's why i think i'm not suitable for the position i'm in now. But how leh?

最后

这是最后一次为他流泪。再也没有什么奢望了。

Waiting for next month!

Somehow i'm looking forward to the next month!! :))) Watching Broadway Beng, concert(s), stand chart marathon, HK trip with the ny clique, SYCO chalet... And many more!!!

This month... i know work is going to be unbearable these few weeks... plus i need to practise erhu for sy audition. It's not going to be easy this time round. so i really need to and have to practise well. Hais. hope next year i will still be inside lor. =x Some friends are coming back. worth to be happy! :)))

I'm really looking forward to the HK trip... first time traveling with han, kim and von. (although i dunno if von will really be with us during the trip since her gab also going). But still, i'm excited! hahaha. And i'm really brushing up my cantonese this time round. :) Hehe. BUT! aiya too bad i'm going the day after NYCO comes back. so bu qiao. if not can meet them there leh! so cool right.

Then of cos the long awaited SYCO chalet... like that's the most looked forward activity every year. hahaha! But JOEL TAN is not going i think -.- Wet blanket. But i haven't really ask him why... TSK. But still, i'm looking forward to it. :)

Erm... Need to sleep so that i can wake up to run tmr! Nites.

November already!

Wah... Half a month gone just like that. haha. Heard over radio... today is 306th day of this year liao. so like what? less than 60 days left till next year. Why so fast huh?

This is what working life turn ppl into. Lifeless. Other than work time.. dun really use the comp much at home anymore.. Damn tired looking at the screen so near already and go home still wanna continue? I dun think so.. I'd rather lie down on the bed or sofa and watch some tv. :)

Work has been quite hectic... other than the times i fb. haha! Oops. But anyways... work is as such and i don't like to comment more.

Other than that, actually i don't really have anything else big enough. omg... ok. Let me think.
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OMG! I really have nothing else to blog abt! what a life!
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Ok. 1.

Last week met up with some of the beloveds for Steamboat session! :))) Qin, ling, yih, sushi, char and i! Hee. Via and Jan cannot make it cos of study. Dj working. 6ppl counted not bad. at least 50% of the attendance leh. :) Haha! Steamboat at Xian De Lai and dessert at Ah Chew. Er. Nv take photos cos no time lah. Busy cooking lor. They say i like have a lot of things in my bowl and on my plate but i nv touch at all. Lol! But in the end i think i ate quite a lot leh.. Right?

Wah. Bad cos eat and eat but i didn't go to gym nor run this week at all! =x Oh. gym once. for Toby's Street class. But that wasn't much a help. hahaha. somemore after that went to eat mac. -.- All gone. hahaha.

And no gym on weekends cos of bh on sat and sick on sunday. I'd rather sleep in. hahaha! All cos of the super duper heavy rain on sat. I think it's raining everywhere lah... and just so happened i was suay to be still waiting for bus to come back from bh. the bus stop no use de lor.. all the rain coming in from the front. got umbrella also no use lah. I was ALL wet from head to toe and still have to protect the erhu. So hor. totally shiver all the way during the 45min or more bus ride. cos raining then the bus driver drove slower lah. and i hate it when my shoes and socks are soaked too. so damp and cold to walk. Bathe right away... and still feeling cold. Wahraoos... Supposed to meet sushi and jan to go DblO at night. BUT i nv. :(

But my mother say she wants to mj. so da-jie, er-jie and i played. "赌桌上是没有亲情的" It's true. Totally. haha. Da-jie lost the most. i think her money all went to er-jie. I won a bit. Mummy lost also. Luckily lah... cos in front i lost until cham cham... i lost like $16 bucks straight before i start winning back. hahaha!

But ya.. that's all lor. Sunday i just sleep all the time away. =x except for some com playing time. but playing the com makes me sleepy. so the cycle goes lah. =D

Ok. Knocking off soon. HAHA! =x