Countdown of 7 working days till the end of my current job. Actually i'm quite reluctant to leave. I do like this job. I like to work in SCO. I do not really like the nature of my job but i like the nature of the company.
Well, I didn't choose to leave. Just that i'm not needed there anymore. Apparently i'm just not the ideal person to do the job according to them. It's fine. I do understand their concerns as every company is concerned as well.
It's just that I didn't expect it to come so fast. Before the trip I was still asking abt it and was told the possibility of extending the current temp contract. After the trip I was told it's over. That's it. What a blow. But i have to accept it and of cos. carry on and get on to the next job (not that i've found it yet). Yah, I need to find a new job, like soon.
Need to start packing up the things i have in office. Haha!
Monday, December 21, 2009
Friday, December 18, 2009
破碎的梦
一切都已成定局，不必再多说了。我也没有选择的权利。就这样吧。
我觉得今年我真的是跌到了谷底。虽然一直抱着正面、积极的态度，但就是什么都不如意。
希望过了今年，运气也会好转。
没办法看到自己的未来，真的失去了方向。
我觉得今年我真的是跌到了谷底。虽然一直抱着正面、积极的态度，但就是什么都不如意。
希望过了今年，运气也会好转。
没办法看到自己的未来，真的失去了方向。
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
First weekend of Dec
Woah... First weekend of Dec over... we are another step nearer to 2010 now. Hmm... That's really fast! I'll be spending the 2nd weekend of Dec in HK! In like 3 days... I will be flying to HK with kim and han! omg. That is so... i dunno. Anticipating. I hope the trip wouldn't seem too short for us. HAHA! (I haven't even started packing yet. i'm dead)
Last weekend was... Exciting? haha! And nerve breaking too. Ok... anything could be nerve breaking for me.. including watching the horror movie with the nyco ppl. LOL. Ok that's besides the point.
And ya.. the audition was nerve breaking too! I was all fine until i really get into the room. BUT somehow i was quite composed and I tried to calm myself down mentally while playing and without playing wrongly. Was a bit wobbly for the choice piece which was like 'how can it be' cos it should be better. Some of the notes were obviously out of the intonation... but surprisingly i played one part (which i always flopped) nicely! The note was clear and i did it during the repeat too. Haha! Or maybe i wasn't playing fast enough. But i dun care. lol. Set piece was fine! Sight reading was ok... except for the half notes... a bit tricky... and a lot of ppl got caught off guard over there too.
After the playing zhang commented a bit on my intonation. He asked me if i know which note i didn't play accurately.. Err.. I wanted to say a lot! haha! But he said that my first finger is nv accurate in intonation at first position. if i had shifted it to the correct position. it would be all fine.
Ok. Accepted. Then i vaguely heard guo commenting my yin se was quite all right while zhang continued to comment on my instrument. Teachers are really teachers... just one look and they knew it. Haha! If not for the tight time already i think they would have taken more info off me. lol. Like who i bought it from and who made it and blah blah blah.
Then today! 2 ppl are making me nervous by asking me if i got in already. Like I dunno lah! But made me wanna know... Plus my boss mentioned that guo says some of us didn't play very well during the audition. dunno from which section and who. so dun ask me. Well... i hope those whom i hope they will stay, will stay. the others... just go back to where you were. sorry.
Yea. Sunday was the standard chartered marathon. First time going on a 10km. And i left my friends behind after like 2 or 3 km. I can't rmb. Seems quite far cos i kept on looking forward to the next km covered. It took so long for us to see the 5km mark. And i thought 'omg now just 5km'? What i've gotten back? A medal, a satisfactory timing, a pair of muddy track shoes, a few incidents i clearly rmb, and some blisters. lol! But i think it was worth. I saw someone wrote on the tag behind, 'Limits are meant to be broken'. I thought, 'wow! that was cool!' He/she is right, we do not only meet our limits but should try to break it, so that we will not always stay on the spot. Interesting. There are a lot of interesting/encouraging quotes... Next time i should put 1 too. Haha! It really makes the person behind you feel better while running.
Ok... I'm feeling hungry now.. so i should go sleep now. Bye!
Last weekend was... Exciting? haha! And nerve breaking too. Ok... anything could be nerve breaking for me.. including watching the horror movie with the nyco ppl. LOL. Ok that's besides the point.
And ya.. the audition was nerve breaking too! I was all fine until i really get into the room. BUT somehow i was quite composed and I tried to calm myself down mentally while playing and without playing wrongly. Was a bit wobbly for the choice piece which was like 'how can it be' cos it should be better. Some of the notes were obviously out of the intonation... but surprisingly i played one part (which i always flopped) nicely! The note was clear and i did it during the repeat too. Haha! Or maybe i wasn't playing fast enough. But i dun care. lol. Set piece was fine! Sight reading was ok... except for the half notes... a bit tricky... and a lot of ppl got caught off guard over there too.
After the playing zhang commented a bit on my intonation. He asked me if i know which note i didn't play accurately.. Err.. I wanted to say a lot! haha! But he said that my first finger is nv accurate in intonation at first position. if i had shifted it to the correct position. it would be all fine.
Ok. Accepted. Then i vaguely heard guo commenting my yin se was quite all right while zhang continued to comment on my instrument. Teachers are really teachers... just one look and they knew it. Haha! If not for the tight time already i think they would have taken more info off me. lol. Like who i bought it from and who made it and blah blah blah.
Then today! 2 ppl are making me nervous by asking me if i got in already. Like I dunno lah! But made me wanna know... Plus my boss mentioned that guo says some of us didn't play very well during the audition. dunno from which section and who. so dun ask me. Well... i hope those whom i hope they will stay, will stay. the others... just go back to where you were. sorry.
Yea. Sunday was the standard chartered marathon. First time going on a 10km. And i left my friends behind after like 2 or 3 km. I can't rmb. Seems quite far cos i kept on looking forward to the next km covered. It took so long for us to see the 5km mark. And i thought 'omg now just 5km'? What i've gotten back? A medal, a satisfactory timing, a pair of muddy track shoes, a few incidents i clearly rmb, and some blisters. lol! But i think it was worth. I saw someone wrote on the tag behind, 'Limits are meant to be broken'. I thought, 'wow! that was cool!' He/she is right, we do not only meet our limits but should try to break it, so that we will not always stay on the spot. Interesting. There are a lot of interesting/encouraging quotes... Next time i should put 1 too. Haha! It really makes the person behind you feel better while running.
Ok... I'm feeling hungry now.. so i should go sleep now. Bye!
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Mood spoilers: Some grumbles
So fast... Left with 1month till the end of the year. Still rmb last year we had a crazy time at Joel's house for countdown to 1jan09. So fast it's going to be a year already. What's in for this year then?
Ya... it also means last month in my current job. And i say the job status now is BAD. Dun think i'll be able to complete the task on time. But anyway. I was thinking. They think that i'm 'green', yet they decided to give me such a task. Isn't it kinda weird. Of cos, i have no experience in doing anything like that. And most of the time the E does not tell me things to do automatically. Then sometimes I wasn't told of anything they discussed with the designer/supplier. so what's the point huh? Then today my boss tell me that i must chase them for things... And that's the reason why i'm here. But they are asking an inexperienced person to do it? Isn't supposed to be I do what they ask me to do and job done? I think they are asking too much from a temp staff.
Although i really do not mind working for the company, i have 2nd thoughts as well... esp. towards this dept. Today the office was peaceful cos all the HODs are out for the whole day. and only my boss came back in the evening. Of cos there are ppl working their heads off, and some ppl just relax and had nothing to do, walk ard, sit tgt and chit chat and god knows what they are doing. Do they have to let the whole world know that they have nothing to do? The whole morning was spent eating breakfast and talking. Then lunch. Like WOW! Cool. Actually there's nothing wrong with slacking in the office, i do that sometimes, but dun have to be so loud and boomz. -.-
I guess tmr will be another day of rush.. to get everything done before my boss goes on leave (again). Here they say how important are the things but they are just always not ard. I can't wait to be away for a while, so that they can spend all the time looking after the mess. =x
Ok. It's just fit of the moment. I still have to do it. bleahs. All rights. Need to do a lot more changes tmr. Have to go sleep now. Nites
Ya... it also means last month in my current job. And i say the job status now is BAD. Dun think i'll be able to complete the task on time. But anyway. I was thinking. They think that i'm 'green', yet they decided to give me such a task. Isn't it kinda weird. Of cos, i have no experience in doing anything like that. And most of the time the E does not tell me things to do automatically. Then sometimes I wasn't told of anything they discussed with the designer/supplier. so what's the point huh? Then today my boss tell me that i must chase them for things... And that's the reason why i'm here. But they are asking an inexperienced person to do it? Isn't supposed to be I do what they ask me to do and job done? I think they are asking too much from a temp staff.
Although i really do not mind working for the company, i have 2nd thoughts as well... esp. towards this dept. Today the office was peaceful cos all the HODs are out for the whole day. and only my boss came back in the evening. Of cos there are ppl working their heads off, and some ppl just relax and had nothing to do, walk ard, sit tgt and chit chat and god knows what they are doing. Do they have to let the whole world know that they have nothing to do? The whole morning was spent eating breakfast and talking. Then lunch. Like WOW! Cool. Actually there's nothing wrong with slacking in the office, i do that sometimes, but dun have to be so loud and boomz. -.-
I guess tmr will be another day of rush.. to get everything done before my boss goes on leave (again). Here they say how important are the things but they are just always not ard. I can't wait to be away for a while, so that they can spend all the time looking after the mess. =x
Ok. It's just fit of the moment. I still have to do it. bleahs. All rights. Need to do a lot more changes tmr. Have to go sleep now. Nites
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