Bah............

Sometimes life is just full of irony.

As I was reading through some of the entries for the past year, I realised how much life has changed for me, how much things aren't real for me, how things just go off course so suddenly, how different it is now than what I thought they would be like in the posts.

I didn't have a job for the past 3 months but my expenses are the highest during this period. 2 Overseas trips plus driving lessons and PT is enough and plus all the other misc expenses like minimal shopping and such. I already very control. But well, I want to be strong and not admit to my family what I'm facing. And well, I owed my sister quite a bit of money to begin with. =x You wouldn't believe the amount. haha.

Then to make things worse, students left one by one. And it had to happen when I'm in need of them. I'm kind of disheartened to not teach anymore. But how leh? I think I'll give myself and the music school another month.

And then, more and more things coming up. I really need to settle this soon!

Journey to Driving

Dragged for almost a year. Wasted a PDL because I was too busy when I first applied for it, and totally wasted it without using it for even once. Finally started the lessons when I lost my job. Yup. To be truthful, it's a lost to me. But anyhows life went on, and so I might as well make use of the time. About $1300 - every single cent out of my own pocket even without an income for the past 3 months.

I was very nervous and anxious because I do not want to drag it longer, and I do not want to spend more money on it. I have to say I'm being lucky today. The tester was nice. And the tester might be rushing for time. But still made a few mistakes here and there. The worst was on the road. Didn't filter across ALL the lanes fast enough. And caused a car behind to brake. =x Wasn't really hoping much. But we returned to the school right after that. So no more chance for mistakes and that's why I passed? Haha! Luckily he didn't mark that as 'caused near accident'?

Other than that, the rest of the points came from the circuit. Can't believe some of the mistakes I made. Like on the slope! Tsk. I was kind of confident for that. But I don't know why I lifted up my foot from the brake pedal before releasing the clutch to biting point. I think my mind was in a blank. And the E-brake too. I totally forgot and reacted too slow plus wrongly. I can't even remember now which pedal did I step on first. =.=

Anyway I'm glad I passed, although not the best. But I did! :D Tyvm now I'm a P-plate driver. :)

HK Camp 完zor :(

Sometimes I do not know if that was a really good decision to go to the camp. If I hadn't, I wouldn't have so much feelings about it and wouldn't have this real feeling of missing it again. But if I hadn't, I wouldn't have met so many nice people, wouldn't have so many new friends added to my life.

回來後，有一種空虛感。有一點小遺憾，一點不捨，一點小傷心。很多事，我清楚我知道的。就好像一場夢一樣，沒想到我真的還能有機會回去，沒想到能遇到一些舊朋友，也認識到這麼多新朋友。真的很高興，我並沒有白去。但，我也知道，夢終究是要醒過來的。夢做完了，就要回到現實。

現在，我得回來了。