Mad rush at work

It's really a mad rush trying to get everything done... and i think it will be even a bigger and madder rush the following days until the exam is over. OMG. I hope i get everything done so that the exam will go on smoothly and I wouldn't create any trouble for my colleague anymore.

Just last week, i was rather angry with myself for something i ought to do, but didn't. I feel super guilty everytime we realise extra work has to be done becos of me. I blame myself for being careless and all. I wasn't thoughtful enough some of the time and forgetful most of the time. I can't believe how forgetful i can get. We only have less than 3 working days to get everything done. Argh. And here i am. still on the net. Still blogging. Well. I hope tmr will be a better day, for me to complete whatever is necessary.

This is my first time involved in this whole thing, i'm already quite uncertain and nervous abt it, yet it has to be at a new venue. Ah.. I think i really have to prepare myself mentally and physically. Been trying to wake up earlier to go work earlier, but failed. Only managed to do it 1day last week. LOL.

After this whole mad rush period, i'm going off for a little break with my dears. Happy that horng is coming back for a short holiday, haven't seen her in a thousand years, and she's only coming back for such a short while. Then again, becos of this i feel guilty again cos there are days during my leave that has exam. Though not always long day, my colleague has to handle it tgt with my boss and part timer. I hope it will be fine. 

Ok. Off to sleep.

生活的点滴

今天早上在红绿灯遇到邻居，是位阿婆。绿人亮起的时候，我踏出了第一步，要用着我平常的步伐过马路。但我却发现阿婆一下子才开始走，而且走得很慢，毕竟她已经年过80了吧。我心想着放慢脚步，但脚步真的没办法放慢至可以配合她的脚步。结果还是在她的前面转身说‘再见’。

然后，我想了很多。我想，这就是新加坡人的生活。我们没有办法，可能也不愿意放慢脚步，没办法等，不想等，没办法去接受这样的差异。也许是因为家里已经没有长辈已经有十年了，没有亲近感。很无奈，我们的社会就是这样。在这个生活节奏快的城市里，我们真的很难停下来，看看身边的人，和事吧。

明天是外婆的冥诞，我们没住在一起，记忆中跟外婆的互动很模糊，也许多数是小时候，后来的互动更少，常常因为学校的事，或是补习，没有每个星期都到外婆家去。外婆在我中二的时候过世了，在这种时候我们才会后悔吧。后悔没有花多一点时间，后悔把其他的事放在家人前面。但是我怀念我们每个星期都会到外婆家的情景。小时候最期待的就是星期六，可以去外婆家，去玩，去吃外婆煮的好吃的食物。

长辈过世了也不要太悲伤，他一定是去了一个更好的地方。要欣然接受所有会发生的事。

最后，大家珍惜身边的人和现在所拥有的吧。

1 year liao!!!

That day zhulin just reminded me that i've learnt from him for about 1 year. YA! like omg. I didn't even realised.

He said I improved a lot, erm, actually, i'm not very sure abt that as well. Haha. The thing is, starting from this year, I didn't really have the time to practise. If not i might have done much better now? And so, now, after much struggle i felt, I manged to get 阳光 down the list. Erm, doesn't mean i've mastered it. Then between the last update on my lessons till now, a few pieces have come and go. Like 增二度练习曲, 五度练习曲. 秦腔 and 草原 which i'm still practising now.

Then after 阳光 was taken off the list last week, 霍拉舞曲 is added to the collection. LOL. dies. this week haven't prac yet. =X

The thing is.. I feel quite bad cos this year i haven't really got all the time to practise.  Unlike when i just started. That's why i kept on thinking is it that i really have too many commitments. The thing is, if i don't continue sy, i also dun see point continuing taking lessons. cos i wun be playing anymore anyway. Then... I dunno if i should quite teaching. BUT i do enjoy the lessons. HOW AH!! Then if i continue to do all these, I really have no life!!

Then i'll continue to get complains from my friends that i always have no time and always ps them. Aiya, i'll talk abt this in another entry.

Ok. That's all... update again soon.