Tuesday, May 30, 2006

My future..

Hmm... think everyone is already one step ahead of me... could only blame myself for not planning early... i do regret of cos... i regret even more when mum started to harp on the matter... i dunno why... but it really hurts when she put me down instead of encouraging me... i thought that's what i need the most now... Maybe that's one of the reasons why i didn't want to tell her... and didn't want to fail... already anticipated such reactions and comments... but never expect myself to still drop tears cos of it...

And now it's a bit late to realise my mistake of pinning all the hopes on these 2 unis... i rather the unis gave me an ans earlier... like my other friends... now if i want to go overseas.. i've got to wait for another year be4 i can do so... at least for most of the unis i saw... however... looking at the cost that it will incur on my family... how could i ever bear to do so?

Now i will try going the other path... that is into the arts arena... will be applying for Lasalle-SIA Arts Management degree while appealing for the other 2 unis... and also looking out for overseas opportunities... Sis been a great help.. and great support... that's what makes me love her.. thou she's rather irritating and unloving at times... Well... bless me for getting into the course... this year...!

Well... May is coming to an end.. and june is coming... so fast..~ Everything in a flash... i've been with my job for 3 months already..~! And tml might be Mike's last day in Samsonite. I'll be glad to see him leave and not come back 2 weeks later.. not that i hate him or what... in fact he's a very nice guy thou quite childish and mischievious sometimes... but it's a good thing for him to be accepted by the course he applied for and go study... isn't it? And of cos... i should be getting my month's pay pretty soon..~ =) Anyway.. june is here and i'm making some amendments to my wishlist... esp. i've fulfilled some of them myself just lately.. Take note... cos THE DAY is not far.. heex..

Monday, May 29, 2006

Rejections and choices

Erm... i guess this entry is going to be very lengthy and erm... low spirits... so pardon me...

Well... basically i've received letters from both NTU and NUS... and sad to say... i got rejected by both schools... i'm quite shocked by it cos i tot i still had chances... although chances are not very very high... but it nv struck me what am i going to do if i got rejected by both until it really happened... i lost my direction... dunno where should i head to... thinking if i've really made a wrong decision 2 years ago... i always tot that this will be the path i will be taking... i've already planned my route since i graduated... but it's all finished... and now i got to start all over again... And i'm kinda stuck nowhere... Now i can say... so what if i passed everything~!? I can't even be compared with someone who failed gp... at least they are given a place to study already!!

So what's my next step? Many asked me... i said 'i dunno'... actually i very wanted to study music... but i knew that my mum isn't very supportive of the idea... dad was actually the one who read my mind... but i didn't say out that's what i want... then the qns comes again... violin... erhu.. which? on the other hand i'm also afraid that actually my knowledge very shallow for the no. of years i learn... that i will not do well... And i'm afraid too... being alone... in a unfamiliar environment... being such a pampered me... will i survive? But actually i do like to experience it also...

Ok.. that's one... then other unis in sg? I dunno... but i've nv tot of taking business courses... one other thing that interest me is actually arts management... that will be either lasalle or other countries again... but i'm not really sure about it... so still got to gather more info to see if it really suits me...

Then next.. NIE... it used to be the next step of my plan... and i didn't really want to forward the plan... and i didn't want to make it like getting in for the sake of getting a place somewhere... ya.. it's true that i always wanted to teach... but the qns is... will i make a good one? Esp. when i've met some teachers that are not very good and disliked by students... i nv want to end up to be one of them....

So far.. i haven got the guts and chance to tell my parents about it.. another reason why i always wanted to enter a local uni is that i didn't want to worry anyone... and also to lighten the burden of the family... esp. when my parents are already quite old... and i nv like changes... in fact i think staying in sg is good~ i will miss everything in sg if i really study overseas... so how?~! And imagine my mum asking me how and how and how... and nagging at me... saying that i'm lousy... or what-so-ever... or worrying for me whether i will have a good future.. and will have enough savings to pay for my expenses... all these... made me think be4 i approach them... maybe i need another 1 to 2 days to think it over...

On a lighter note... after tml... will be my off day on tues!! And today is a good day... cos after work... i went to the close door event to see if i can take anything off the shelf... and to my surprise... the price was good! so i bought myself a shoulder bag that i've been eyeing for... HAha... thou the colour wasn't the originally desired navy blue... but it's ok... sky blue is also nice... it's better than normal staff price lah.. too bad dun have the rabbit pencil case liao.. if not i sure buy one also..~ Haha.. so after paying for my stuff... i stayed there and helped there to clear the things... wonder if they will give me another 2 hours of pay.. HAha... even no... i also dun mind lah... at least i've got a bag at a good price... and i've got to eat with them too! HAha... went to 翡翠小厨.. and ordered erm... a lot of things lah... of cos is paid by the company... the funniest thing was.. when renjie came down to pass the key to sweeling.. he didn't know i was there too lah.. but in the end i was the one who called him to acknowledge my presence.. and he was shocked too.. haha.. and after that took train back with those living in the east.. mostly bedok.. and it was good but irritating entertainment by mark... he's really noisy man... cannot stop talking.. haha...

Ytd had a good dinner with melody and sylvia... quite some time since the 3 of us went out tgt... not so much of going out lah... i met them only after work... they were out in the afternoon already... so we went to 85 market.. sat there.. eat and talk and talk... till close to 11 then came home lor... tml will be meeting via again.. going to watch movie... Over the hedge... long time since i last caught a movie... i think it was last year end lor..~ HAha.. so kua zhang right.. but it's true... and i'm going to watch 2 in a row... another will be da vinci code on tues... hopefully tues i'm able to come home a little bit earlier to rest more.. heex...

Ok.. time to sleep!! Nitex!! Hopefully tml will be a better day... 明天会更好!! and hopefully i will come to a decision soon... advice anyone??

Friday, May 26, 2006

山东之旅 -- II

Yea... i'm back again.... after 2 days of full shifts... there wasn't much sales... but still quite tiring lah... anyway... where was i last entry..~?! Hmm.... think today... more about where we visited lah...

Firstly... the most impt place is of cos 泰山.. That is like one of the highlights of this trip.. and also a place that i wanted to see... indeed.. the sceneries are very nice... and we climbed all the way to the top.. thou it isn't the highest mountain... since 山东 is a rather flat piece of land... 泰山 has its stand... and it does look 雄伟! Then there's 孔子's hometown -- 曲阜... visited 孔庙,孔林 and 孔府... basically his house, the temple that ppl worship him... and the place where 孔子 and his decendents were buried and are going to be buried after they die... Also visited a few fountains... and there are a lot of stories behind these places and their signboard... quite a few words are actually written wrongly and there's always a valid reason why is it written like that... and they can even link 2 wrong signboards together... eh... whatever lah..

Some more memoriable places other than 泰山.. one is 风筝和年画制造厂... as the name implies... the place makes kites and 年画.. it's really not easy... and the tradition of nian hua is already fading away... lesser and lesser ppl know the skill of doing it... erm... dun understand what i'm talking about?~ too bad.. i also dunno how to explain.. Haha... Anyway... still went to this 张裕酒厂... it's a company that produces wine, brandy all those... the earliest wine company there... and the place is cool lah... we even went into their underground cellar to tour around... and also get to fill and cap our own bottle of brandy... for 25RMB... thou i didn't buy any.. but i helped 小沈 filled his... quite fun... ohoh... somemore things about 泰山... cos we had to take cable car up half of the mountain lah... so when we were going back... it was actually drizzling a bit... and man! They actually stopped the operation of the cable car cos they say got lightning and thunder!!! Siao lor.. And guess what we did.. everyone started singing loudly while our tourguide tried to work things out with the staff there.. trying every way to arrange for us to get down the mountain in the cable car... and finally... after all our 抗议 by our singing... they let us down by cable car... haha..

Then there's this garden filled with music stuff.... like Beethoven's sculpture... erm... and a whole piece of floor space filled with music staff with different melodies which i dunno where they extract from... and some pictures of instrus on the floor also... so cool lah... Oh... another cool place... when we were at 青岛... we went to this place at the beach... so many so many couples there taking their wedding photos!!! at least... 30 pairs... the only thing was... it was damn cold there lah... and the brides of cos.. were wearing some tube gowns or spag gowns... aren't they cold? 真是爱美不要命.. Haha... But that place is really beautiful...

Next... the most horrible thing during the trip... Sickness!!! Oh my god.. like so many of us fell sick during the trip lah.. first is Ah-tin-gor... the possibility is that she caught a cold at 泰山... then was 心姨... reason... also caught a cold? HAha.... so they got forced to see the doctor one night when there's a clinic in the hotel... then mummy actually wasn't feeling well one of the nights also... causing her to lose sleep and became so tired and sick the next day... 小沈 was also a bit sick after the seafood steamboat... might be cos he ate the not-so-cooked shell food... in the middle u keep hearing ppl say they are not feeling well here and there... plus ah-hwee jiejie plus 秀芝auntie plus uncle tan... think still got somemore like these minor ones... but the whole thing is serious until one day 5 ppl didn't touch dinner at all!! but worst of all was auntie annie... cos she has motion sickness... and when we took the ferry to one island... she didn't take the medicine for motion and sickness... after that actually still ok... but after going on a long bus trip to another town... she cannot take it liao.. and from then on she's been vommitting even thou she didn't eat anything... in the end still got to go hospital to drop salt water... and even stayed at the shanghai hospital for a night... so in the end they helped her to die die change her return ticket to the same day as us... still have to pay extra lah... but it's better than staying there to shou ku lor.. So she came back to sg with us...

Lastly... Things i bought.. Actually also nothing much lor.... 4 or 5 pieces of tops... a skirt... a pair of sports pants... a sling sports bag... a few keychains for myself and just enough keychains for my gang... and a few vcds which some of them turned out to be a utter disappointment... also an ipod earphone for 36 RMB... nothing much really.. cos at some of the towns got nothing much to shop also... should have bought a new windbreaker since the bottom string of mine broke... so my sis actually bought a new one since hers has a big hole at the pocket.. rmb?! HAha.. and i quite regret nv buy the bracelets... can give ppl mah... but who knows.. i might study in shanghai or beijing next time... ok.. that's the next story...

Erm... conclusion... the trip is still pleasant and enjoyable... going with these ppl are really joyful... they are ppl of average 50+ years old.. but still young at hearts... and becos they are ppl whom i know since young... it's always not difficult to communicate and play together.. =)

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

山东之旅 -- I

First day to update since i came back from the trip... Basically i'm just too busy lah... and i haven thought of how should i present my trip to you... Haha... There's simply too much details thru the trip... and it will probably take ages for me to do it day by day... and of cos due to my not-so-good memory... i might not be able to rmb every single thing... so i shall do it by category!!! Ok.. i shall start now!!! =)

Firstly.... The ppl that i enjoyed the trip with... Erm.. i wanted to put a group photo so as to lessen my narration... then i realised that i dun have any full group picture taken using our own camera... simply cos there's a professional photographer in the group.. it's not his profession but his hobby lah... he brought 3 professional cameras there... who can win him~?! So with his big big lens... it's easy to capture all of us inside... thus all the group photos were taken by him... Yea... Anyway the group is made up of 18 ppl.. Of which 4 is my family (including me).. then i knew 11 of them long long time ago... they are 春姨, 心姨 with Uncle Wong, Ah-tin-gor with Uncle Kwe, 娥姨 with Uncle Tan & 淑慧姐姐, 秀芝 Auntie, Auntie Annie and 亚妹 Auntie.. (all my mum's friends)... 1 of them is mum's friend's friend (whom shared a room with da-jie)... and the other 2 joined us separately coss 2 of mum's friends cancelled their trip...

Then... our 导游 for the trip... I must say that it's really a pleasent surprise for us after the almost 6-hour flight to shanghai in the not-so-promising (trying to be nice on my words here) plane... Once we stepped out of the glass door after collecting all our luggage... this man greeted us at the door... Shouting our names so loudly unafraid that we'll be known by everyone there... But why? That's my beloved godbrother -- 小沈!! More than half of the group already knew him when we went to Shanghai that side in 1999.. He was our 全陪 then... and we had a happy time so much so that he became my mum and dad's godson and our godbrother. =) I dun even rmb he called me THAT until he shouted out so loud at the airport. lol.. So we're all prepared for a nice trip with him again from the first day! =) Then at 山东... there's another 导游 known as 地陪 -- 小张... He's a nice person too... very 斯文... and he shares lotsa stories on long bus trips... lol...

Next... Food... Basically 小张 told us that 山东人 usually dun eat rice as often as other ppl.. they had 面条 or 馒头 instead... cos they like things made from 面粉... quite weird i tot... then the most horrible thing is their food are all VERY VERY saltish and oily... so as very health conscious singaporeans... of cos we can't get use to them... and 小张 tried very hard to ask them not to add so much salt in the dishes... nonetheless... some doesn't make any difference... and we accepted that sometimes it's a matter of the chef's 习惯-ness... lol... then in the end 小张 just told them not to add salt at all... and tada... that makes the difference! Haha... And a bad thing for me... it's a norm that after every meal there will be fruits served... and Unfortunately... almost every meal is served with Watermelons... Oh man... i nv liked them... and i stubbornly didn't consume them at all... my happiest day was the day 水梨 was served... and those were bought by us... not supplied! I heard that the specialty there is seafood... but we din really eat a lot of seafood there leh... only a few meals... there's one that's quite good... seafood steamboat... every one has a small pot to cook seafood of the choice... (that's where da-jie got her windbreaker's pocket burnt when she stood up to get food..) Hmm... We also tasted many different types of their 风味餐... like.. 渔家餐 (food that families that live along the water normally consumes), 农家宴 (food farmer's family usually eat), 孔府宴 (food from famous Kong-zi's family... in his hometown), 饺子宴 (diff types of 饺子 served... the fillings inside were different) Eh.. can't rmb all...

Then... Hotel... Erm... all was quite all right ba... but there was this hotel that we feel that might have some problem in the 风水.. 不是我们迷信... it's a few signs that made us think so... we said it was quite weird... and 小沈 was the one who said that 风水可能有问题... cos that's where most of the ppl who were sick.. fell sick... it will be elaborate later... Then others... ok lah... i have no problem sleeping... Lol... Some were exceptionally good leh... with good TV + programs, bed and pillow and toilet!! Haha... Thou not the best hotels in town... they are good enough... say 4-stars~?!

Next... Erm... suddenly my mind is blank!! HAha... it's telling me that it's time to sleep.. Well... i should... cos... i'm working full shift -- 11am to 9pm for tml and thurs!! and no rest till next tues... sobx... my off-day is put to one day later... hopefully i can get all my desired off days for june.. =) Update again... and continue on my trip eh... SOON! Haha...

Anyway... updating on my application... still no news... Sianx!!! Like after so long... no call.. no letter.. no nothing!!! Haix...

Monday, May 08, 2006

Over the weekends...

Ok... din realise that i didn't update for so many days liao... either busy going out... or watching tv... or... i also dunno.. HAha...

Last fri did aftn shift cos of the ntu chinese studies interview in the morning mah... the thing was actually i ended quite early... i was scheduled at 10am lah.. but when i reached there a bit late.. there was one person inside and the other waiting for her turn... but i was done by 10.30... isn't that fast? so i decided to take a walk around jurong point... see if there's anything to my liking and can pamper myself for once... but eventually i bought nothing at all... so i went for a quick lunch... and went back to work... so i did closing with renjie that day... erm.. first time doing closing?! Haha... so i walked with him to take mrt... anyway also late liao.. lazy to take bus.. Haha...

Then sat was off day... went to cut hair in the morning with er-jie... somehow they helped me touch up my rebond... which actually i didn't really require them to do so... but i'm just curious why the procedure was so much similar to the previous time... just to find out that i'm doing the rebond process instead of the originally intentioned hair treatment.. haha... and it will take another hour or so!! so we didn't do it... cos it was already 2pm when we left... imagine doing the treatment... 3pm! and we haven't had lunch yet... and i'm supposed to meet via at 4.30... so ended up nv do the treatment... erm... 2nd time already!! Haha.

Ya.. so i went out with Via... walked around bugis... trying to find whatever we want to find... and i didn't buy any clothes still... nothing really to my liking... haix... it's getting harder and harder to get clothes to my taste... after finding nothing to buy at bugis junction itself.. we went to popular... to hunt for books... ok... i'm into Sudoku after my sis taught me on fri. haha... we stayed there for around an hour lor! So went back to bugis junction for dinner... @ Trekka (i think it's spelled this way. haha.) ok lah... after that wanted to find the milk ice that i ate during the food fair @ suntec the other time.. but we can't seem to find it... so in the end just bought a bottle of drink from 7-11 and took bus home...

Sun.. work lor... what else?? but after work... i went walking around suntec... trying to find some shirts Again.. but still.. didn't buy any.... OP was having moving out sales lor... cos they moved their shop to the 2nd level... i wanted to buy... but either the colour is wrong or the design is not nice... Sianx...

Today... also sianx... Haha... sales not good... but it means more time to relax and talk also... and to learn more things! Haha... so firstly.. i learnt to record down the receipts in the book... erm... made a small mistake but of cos liquid paper can do the job... but i just had to do it slower and more carefully lah... then i learnt to do payment... erm... be4 that only know how to key in product code and check price.. but today... i could do a payment myself! Haha.. proud of myself... i'm a fast learner.. lol. Then of cos... i called erm... 1 and half pages of the 20-page list of ppl wanting to redeem the duffle bag... (Note: it's pronounced as Duf-Fle bag... and NOT Du-Ffle bag.) haha. reminds me of the days that i kept on calling ppl back in GE. haha... And today Mark was here too... think he still rmb me ba... i mean we clicked once we talked today.. Haha..

Ok... tml will be off day again... and it means no work for me all the way till 21may... Oh man... sianx!!! Still thinking what should i do tml... bored... i like working there... it's fun! Even though sometimes the ppl talk crap... erm... they talked about issues that girls aren't supposed to hear... and they make fun of u sometimes.. it doesn't matter... it's still fun... but of cos i'm not saying that i dun like travelling.. of cos travelling is good! it lets me see more of the world... more of what i dun see in sg... and some ppl just can't understand what's good about seeing mountains and rivers instead of shopping... haha. of cos! nice sceneries relax the mind and the heart... shopping can be done anywhere.. but some sceneries only some places have... am i not right?! Anyway... the trip that i looked forward to most will be a trip with my closest grp of friends.. Yeah!! Even a short one... right girls? =)

Hmm... nothing else le.. go and sleep liao... see tml got time anot... update again.. if not... wait for my return!! erm.. 19 may! Heex... =) Haven done my packing yet... but fear what? i have the whole day tml! Haha...

Thursday, May 04, 2006

May!!

Finally i'm back here again... it's the start of May liao! ok... it's the 3rd day of may liao lah.. haha... My b'day is one month and 9days away... ONLY!! Haha.. get ready ur money in ur wallets for my pressies!! Heex...

Labour day was a good day... cos i was out with my family plus da-yi-ma plus san-yi plus er-jiu and er-jiu-mu... to Noble House for lunch!!! Dun need me to pay.. of cos good lah... heex... Then i went down to orchard with da-jie to get something... and wanted to get my ipod earpiece repaired too... but then... the service centre nv open on public hols one! Dotx... waste my trip there... i could have come home and sleep... Haha...

Ytd and today both got SY at night... hmm... have to say that now not that stress liao... but when time comes... who knows right... moreover i'll sitting next to Mr Lee for the last combine song... which... hopefully i can pull thru.. haha... And finally i gotten more confident in the new song... Erm... friends.. come support kae!! Just visit any sistic counter for the tix! It's on 10 June 06... It's call SYCO plays! =)

Finally.. i have to say that i'm actually very anxious about knowing the results of the applications i made to university.. ever since Von started asking me whether i've gotten any letters from them... i've been worrying about it everyday... And today i finally got a phone call... but it's from NTU chinese... got to go for a interview... Of cos i will go lah.. but if i have to choice.. i will still choose nus over ntu.. And why didn't i get any reply from them~!? And if it's the first choice i chose for ntu... i might have a bigger interest in it lah... so now what? See what i can do... and what they can do also lor..