Today (sat) was quite fun... went back to nyco again! :)))
Casper called me in the morning while i was on the bus and ask me if i'm awake already. DOTX. scolded him. haha. reached ny abt 11am. hee. originally i said i wanted to reach at 10.. but apparently i left my house at erm.. 10.15? =P At least i nv put aeroplane today ok. :) Played tian shan with them again.... trying to prac for my nusco prac after that lah. haha. didn't manage to hear them play the new song... perhaps next time lah. hee. Had lunch with casper and zhiwen be4 going to nus.
Reached nus quite early too.. be4 3pm at least. haha! And i went in be4 they started their practice! Err.. first time in the last few weeks. =x Anyway... i realised i have to prac more. haha! And i realised... actually they do not really need me there anyway... cos guest players are supposed to be very zai.... very this one here is quite lousy.. haix. so ya... i should prove my worth there... yeah.
Had dinner with a very small grp of ppl... had some laughter and weird discussions... somehow i just feel that there's nothing they can't share btwn the grp. and it was fun in a way... and that is what i enjoy being with the nusco ppl. :)
很多人说："幸福要自己争取"。问题是当我还没有得到幸福的时候，我怎么知道那就是我的幸福？如果我知道纠缠是没有结果的，请问我还要自己争取吗? 如果争取到了才知道那不是幸福，请问争取的过程中所付出的是值得的吗？
《恶作剧之吻》是我一直爱看的偶像剧。我真的很钦佩湘琴的毅力。他为了自己心爱的人可以付出那么多，那么多。虽然她很笨，但这种精神却让人感动! 我自问是没有她这么有恒心。她竟然能暗恋 （或者说是明恋) 一个人那么多年 （7年），而且是在对方又对她很冷淡的情况下还是那么坚持，真的很不容易。although i'm not as brave as her... i've tried very hard for my last crush for a rather long time too... afterall it didn't work out.. and maybe it's better becos i dunno if that is my 幸福。but no doubt i've stopped the 自己争取 spirit in me... not willing to find myself dropping into a 深渊again.
记得在《第8号当铺》里，当铺老板韩诺用他一生的爱情转换成妻子一生的幸福，以为他离开以后妻子仍然可以找到幸福。结果妻子至死也没有再接受任何人。 他不明白，于是在妻子临终前问了她为什么要拒绝那些追她的人，为什么不接受幸福? 妻子说道："因为你就是我的幸福，等你一生就是我最大的幸福"。what an irony right...
To speak the truth... 就算我现在有喜欢的人，我是不会向他示好的。就算我需要一个人在身边，我也不会说的。因为我怕失去。
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