Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Lost of Motivation~

Had a few tired days... I dunno.. but i felt that i'm losing my energy and motivation and passion for everything... It's really that i realised i knew nothing about any econs topic that was taught this year... Not even the content~!! And most of the time i was falling asleep... it's like i'm just going for lectures and tutorials for the sake of going... Oh man... Pick myself up~!! It's like... i'm just like giving my life to sch, CO, sleep and dream... Von said... Get a life man... Well... i would like to... but li bu cong xin lor... Oh wells... Think syf should really get pass soon so that i can have more time for myself, my friends, family and studies... :)

Ya... i'm supposed to say abuot sac's standard... it's like a thing that all of u wanted to know right... And of coz.. even the instructors say that they can't be compared to our batch... well.. quite true lah.. if at this point of the time... their confidence level is still at like 40% only... then what's the point right? At least at our time... 2 weeks be4 syf... our confidence level is at like at least 70% already... not to mention the skills level... But as i said... they did improve over this few months' time lah... i would say that they can secure a silver at least IF nothing goes wrong... A gold is possible.. but i can't guarantee the gold with honour... it's difficult to be truthful... but i hope this wun bring their morale down.. =X Anyway... i did reflect about their performance to mr boo... and weng laoshi too... and i know that the instructors will do their best to correct the problems... so it's up to the juniors whether they can do it in time for syf... counting down to their syf... it's exactly a week... so what can i say~!? All the best that is...~

The best thing today was... Guo laoshi said my Jing Shen Zhuang Tai is not bad... coz i always go co is men men bu le one... Oh man... it is so.. haha... i know lah... coz i'm always so tired when i get there... i dunno why i'm like quite enthu at the beginning... and arranging everything properly... even chasing everyone up for sectionals... (which i ought to do lah... =X) Then was like talking happily to all the others.. Ok... i enjoyed my day at co today~! :) And then the next thing is... Mrs Wong knows my name..~!! Oh man.. this is so scary... i seldom interact with her lah... and so i also dunno how she like get my name correctly... haha... i'm shocked... emily also shocked... she was like... 'ta hao xiang gen ni hen shou'... lol... she's not even my maths tutor lor... this is so dumb...~

OK lah... that's all for today.. i'll be watching the rehearsal vcd later... the one that was recorded when nyco went to SCH for rehearsal... hope i wun get nightmare after watching it.. lol... But seriously i think we can only get a silver at our current standard... although ding says that we can get a gold... but we need to work a lot more harder to get the gold.. perhaps she's just trying to give us some encouragement... Ok anyway... This sunday we'll be going Settlers Cafe... Either at Chinatown or Holland V... this one not decided yet... ERm.. check out ur email pls..~ :) CyA ppl..~!

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