NAC CMC

Been writing long stories lately.. haha! But pls bear with me... cos i know that this will be a long entry also... but if u have no interest in going for chinese music competition... and have no interest in knowing my feelings for it... u can skip this entry.. haha!

It's regarding the NAC Chinese Music Competition(CMC) lah.. Oopx... i know it's over like half a month ago.. And i didn't go on any of the days... but well... just want to comment abt it lor... the biannual CMC is like a target for us CO players... And every time... there will be more and more ppl that i know joining the com... And there ought to be times when there were unexpected outcomes and that they didn't get into the finals... And then from there conclude that they are lousy players... Well... for what i know abt these ppl... i know they're not lousy players... And to say the truth... it's not really the best way to determine who's the best player.. And obviously the competition is getting tougher and tougher each time... If that's the way they put it... then i think i'm one lousy player too... or even.. lousier...

Why do i say so? i joined in the 2002 CMC... Intermediate cat for erhu... That time there were only 22 competitors altogether... compared to the 30+ in 2004 and 49 this year... And i didn't get in... so am i really lousy? Maybe.. maybe not... actually i do not know... in fact in the first place i already knew that the chance of getting in is very slim... but at the same time i only want to put in my best no matter how... Ppl always say.. what more impt is the process and not the outcome.. isn't it? And indeed... i've learnt a lot from the comp.. firstly of cos... i'm not cut out to be a soloist... and i need to practise more than what i'm doing... and there's still a lot of things for me to learn... It's really not a matter of win or lose lah... at least i've tried... right?

I can't deny that i was disappointed when the results were announced after the comp.. But it's not the end of the world lah really... At the end of the day... i wasn't really that sad anymore... esp. there were so many ppl who went there to support me... and in fact... i felt more relax after putting down a burden... and of cos i console myself by saying that i still have the grading to prepare the very same year... and that i dun need to pia and practise for finals anymore... Haha. ok... that was deceiving myself... but anyway.. that's not the point... the point is.. i really enjoyed the whole process...

So since it's already over for half a month... hopefully these friends had already got over it... i mean they should have... Nowadays... we should all know that music.. or rather... arts.. is a very subjective matter... so a comp doesn't say much abt ur music... ur skills... ur feelings.. Anyway.. since i was just there to gain experience on such event.. i dun see myself going there again... on the stage that is.. haha! Leave it to the more dream-motivated ppl... haha! Or maybe... when i'm more confident in future.. i might be there again. haha! In the mean time... Friends.. continue to enjoy music!! :)))

COgang Xmas cum Bday Celebration 2006

Ok... as promised... have to talk something abt our christmas cum birthday celebration.. :) If not after these i'll have more things to update abt liao.. haha..
The annual COgang Xmas cum Bday Celebration is held.. on 25 Dec.. Late aftn onwards... at yours truly... Haha. So part one... we had pizza... eh... self-made.. haha! no lah... we bought the crust.. but add the fillings ourselves... Oh... wasn't in time to take any pictures of the food except for the cake... cos everyone is just too fast. Haha!


This is taken after the gift exchange... be4 everyone opened their pres..
Horng couldn't come on that day... she was here a day earlier thou.. but no pictures..

Wanted to take those pictures of the gifts each of us got... BUT.. my cam had to be screwed up that time... so.. ya.. no pictures... anyway... i got a Pooh bath towel which was contributed by siyih! Heex.


The 2 birthday girls!! Both no on that day itself lah.. haha.

Then the 2nd part is yea... Celebration for these 2 girls.. I nearly forgot to go and collect the cake lor... until the gift exchange was over.. Heex. Anyway.. the cake is quite nice.. thanks to mum's friend... did it for you qing jia. Haha!


A nice pic... w/o sylvia inside... Haha! jk jk... =P
pls dun ask me what the 2 girls in front were doing. Lol.

The 2nd/3rd day after xmas... i was too bored at home... so i took a picture of the presents i received... Very touched by the hand-made gifts! Thanks Via, Ling and Qin.. Although the white glue on Via's gift (the coaster-made mouse pad) still hasn't totally dry up yet.. i dunno why.. so it's still airing itself somewhere... haha!

Yea.. here goes the picture... but somehow i forgot to include the massage stick inside... Sorry Yushi.. to make up for it... i took a picture of the stick on its own!
And Thanks my dearest cousin and han for the card! Most of the time cards are enough to make my heart warm! Heex.


Here it is... taking up the whole picture... it's in the limelight now lah... heex. it's really useful.. haha! Thanks yushi!

The day ended when everyone left ard 10pm... and obviously i was left alone at home while 2sis were at Uncle Yeo's having BBQ xmas party... and parents went for wedding dinner... And i felt asleep while watching tv... and not knowing that my parents went out w/o keys... and i was in quite deep sleep... until dunno why i suddenly woke up and went out of my parents' room and realise my dad trying very hard to get the keys from outside.. =x the worst thing is when my mum said she called my hp (which was beside me) and i didn't even feel it and ans it. =xx that's bad i know... but perhaps i was too tired... Whole day of activities leh...

Oh.. Be4 the party and after they left in the morning... mum came back and say that we're going to my ex-tuition teacher's (her primary classmate) place for buffet lunch... it was her daughter's Big day! (that explains the wedding dinner at night) Oh god.!! she's really pretty... different from the usual look i see when i go for tuition... anyway... they will be in US for the next 2 years i think... And her husband is super tall also lah... 1.89m lor!!! Pengx..

So to round this up... i had a busy... little sleep... but enjoyable christmas this year!! :)))
Am looking forward to next year... Thou my timetable really really sux... Haha!

what a gloomy entry...

Brrrr.... today is super super cold... it didn't stop raining the whole day.... I really dread to get myself out of my blanket this morning...!! And well.. it's still raining now... And i dread to get out of my house today too!! If not for my new monitor (which i'm using now.. yes.. i'm using the desktop)... i wouldn't have gone out this aftn...

Anyway... I will skip the christmas part first.. cos i dun have the pictures in the com yet... it's uploaded into the laptop thou.. :)

Ok... actually there was supposed to be an entry be4 this... but i delibrately deleted everything when i've only typed half way... The cat was let out of the bag... somehow... haix... i think sis already knew that i know abt it.. she probably realised that her sis here rather observant and can't be so stupid to not find out on my own since my mum could even sense it... that's why she didn't hide when one of their friends called while we were playing game... perhaps.. she has made up her mind.. Only until today... he tried to talk to one of us (family)... mum didn't want to get involved... i didn't want either... anyway he didn't call in the end... so i'll just keep quiet... or actually sis has already found out abt it... right? Actually i dunno how come he knows also lah.. but whatever... i dun think sis is that stupid to not realise that he was the one who told us that she's going to see the doctor today for her eye...

Nonetheless... i must say that i wun stand on either side cos in the end it still depends on the 2 of them personally... and it's something that an outsider like me could help... becos... my sis said that it's not a misunderstanding.. so ya... i hope that he doesn't call... and respect the decision that the other party has made... it might be a sad thing... but when i heard what my sis said ytd and today... i feel for my sis... But i'm quite glad that it's not becos of something outside the r/s that she made the decision... Although she cannot deny that the other guy really has something for her...

Hope that this whole thing will be over soon... And i've tried my best to make sis' every moment with me enjoyable... Even in the expense of making myself appear dumb... thou some instances it really wasn't intentional... but i know... i dun want to make her more frustrated by asking her abt it... and i know that she is mature enough to decide for herself. So... i hope that she will return to her old self soon! jie.. I Love U always.. :)

Last few days...

Hmm... look at the time now!! I woke up so early? No.. i didn't sleep at all... there's practically no space to sleep le.. so tada.. i'm here lor.. but nvm lah... actually i'm not that tired... maybe cos i've been busy the past few hours?? i think so...

Anyway... those left here sleeping are yushi, jan, horng, qin and ling... melody left for home ard 3 and sylvia left for home too at 4+... u wun want to know how are they sleeping thou.. haha! but quite good i think cos i finished doing the stuff while they were asleep... the cards... the friendship band... and wrapping the present for gift exchange..!

Fri (22.12).. was our (liyana and 1) last day at global refund... actually i was rather surprised to received like chocolates from them.. even thou it's just chocolates... i was happy... And what more chocolates are my favourite?! Heex. But i felt guilty that i didn't have anything for them... although 4 weeks there is short... but more or less i've already adapted to the environment... and i do enjoy working there with the ppl thou the job can be boring.. so.. quite sad to leave lah...

Sat (23.12) was a long long day... i got up early 7+ and got out of the house be4 8am... it was xiaoting jiejie's big day! Ah boy (her bro) came to fetch mum and i over first... And man... she's really pretty!! So we followed the traditional chinese customs thou Bob's (her husband) isn't from a traditional chinese family... in fact.. he's from Hawaii... and they specially came back from US to complete the banquet... so we followed them from morning till aftn... finally had buffet lunch... i really like the sweet thai glutinuous rice... :)) Then we stayed ard in the house till ard 4 to do some stuff be4 coming back home to rest a while and prepare for the night..

I must say that it's really not the best choice to have a banquet at a rest... Oh... it was held at ECP's Tung Lok Restaurant... The food is definitely nice... perhaps one of the best banquet food i've had... But but... the sound system was bad... the reception was bad... they do not have a projector.. that makes the effort of the person who made the slides go down the drain... the front door section is too small for many ppl to the there at the same time... they do not have enough red wine glasses to go ard the 30 tables... so glasses of different shapes and sizes were served... ok lah... i think that's all to complain... the rest were quite all right... But i must say that they are really a rich family.... all the dishes were so authentic... nothing fake... not even the shark's fin! It really in big pieces.. without mixing with crab meats or jellys or whatever.. just plainly pieces of shark's fin.. isn't it cool?! But i like the prawn best ba... should be butter ba... but not very sure lah... haha. Surprisingly the dinner ended quite early... maybe it's becos the no. of dishes were lesser than normal... so after it ended ard 10.30pm.. we came back with the bus lah... Then also quite tired liao... just chatted online for a while and off to sleep..

Sun (24.12)... we went on with our original plan even thou horng didn't go in the end.. so we were at cine's Suki sushi having sushi buffet at 2+pm... eh... with Sylvia and melody lor... I had quite a lot.... so i didn't eat any food till now... from the time we left the place... which was somewhere ard 4 i think... And after walking ard cine to avoid the rain outside... we decided to open up our umbrella and head to the next destination.. after all the walking ard... we didn't get any of the impt ingredients for the tiramisu... quite sad leh... but nvm.. we'll have chocolate birthday cake tonight..! :)

Hmmm... i think they are awake liao.. and i'm sleepy liao... so... think i'll nap for a while... haha! Unless i'm being harrassed by them.. Lol! Bye lah.. Eh... haven't distribute the chocolates yet... but they woke up liao and i can't get out the room.. Haha!!

Ohohoh!! And Merry Christmas everyone! Enjoy to the fullest wor!! :)))

Feelings towards PSS + MCO concert

As i walked thru the underground tunnel at the mrt and heard the duet song by Chen Weilian and Shi Xinhui playing 'from the wall'.. Actually i thought of why i didn't like weilian after all... when i was watching project superstar today... i thought of last year's competition.. and when i first heard weilian singing... i must say that i'm really touched by his voice... But as the competition goes on and he changed his way of singing... i've lost the feelings when listening... i still rmb i could feel it when he was singing panda xiong's huo chai tian tang... it was really good and i'm really touched till tears actually rolled down my cheeks.. u might think i'm crapping or exaggerating.. But NO joke! it's true... but as he continued to fight in the battle... i dun feel it anymore... And now.. i think back.. Why??

In my point of view... i think it's becos of 'removing' the bi yin in his voice... 让他的声音少了一些沧桑感... And i could even say that he lost his original specialty... dun u think so? 他声音的性格、感情、特点、味道，都被比赛吃掉了！If it's like that... what is so special abt him after all? just becos he can't see? It's supposed to be his voice... but sad to say... even that is already taken away from him... what has he got left? And isn't him better off busking?? at least he could really sing with his heart and let the audience listen to what he has got to be there.. and not being so commercialised like now... And becaos they keep wanting to change him... to better voice quality... he really lost the specialty and character he possessed.. and that's actually very sad.. if he remained the voice he had from the start till the end... i might have been more happy when he clinche the title of champion..

Well... but that's how the world is like... what can i say.. Anyway... this year's competitors... are lousy. esp. the girls' team.. really din see any potentials... but maybe that's the buying point... cos u'll nv know who will get it until it gets to the last round.. right? haha!

Anyway... ya.. that's all... Erm... did i mention that tmr is my last day at work? haha. ya.. it is.. wonder if we will get anything tmr.. but doubt so... cos we've been there for quite short time and the thing is dun really interact with them... cos we dun go out to lunch with others.. dun really talk to them during work.. so ya.. And seriously.. i think i din save any money during the period i went to work... cos i'm accommodating my friend there.. this is the last time ok!? So.. if i really have a choice.. i dun like to work with ppl whom i already know... even my family.. Anyway.. The Main point is... whoever is bored and wants to go out.. give me a call... i should be free on weekdays mainly. :))

AND AND!!! Come and Watch Marsiling CO concert on 31st Dec lah... Sylvia and i really very ke lian lor.. actually we are supposed to sell 4 tix each.. and we haven't even sold one single tix yet!!! Haix... i know 31st is a bad day... but then.. who dun want to play right.. we also want lor... go after that lah!! Damn sad that we got all kinds of negative replies... esp. from ppl who seems interested at first. Haix. disappointed.. Nowadays... what is CO to CO players? i really dun know.. is it really just a obligation in school? the thing is it might not be a lifetime occupation.. but i believe it should be a lifetime interest.. isn't it? And what for the whole grp is named after something when no one pays attention to it anymore? isn't it funny? Of cos nobody is forced.. but maybe you could ask ur conscience how long haven't u touched the instru u've played or when was the last time you attended a concert... and u'll find.. wow! That's long ago.. or 'i can't even rmb'. So instead of asking us who's going (which everyone asked) and saying if (whoever) go.. then i will go.. ask the ppl! How do we know and how we tell u if everyone's saying the same thing? And in the end there's NO conclusion AT ALL. So afterall... u all could discuss on your own and maybe ans me or sylvia. We would appreciate that u give a precise ans. Thank you. :)

Note: i'm NOT pissed.. just plain disappointment... really..

RSS'99 gathers...

Haix... abt a week nv update liao... been rather busy.. think will be even more busy this week... But then.. so many things are going thru my mind... i dunno why... i just can't help thinking abt it... But well.. i can't what is it lah... cos it's what i found out myself... But i've already sense something that is not right... when it's not the right person that appears in front of me recently... not the right name.. and not the right phone call.. so well.. it really happened... i dunno what is the cause of this happening.. but 5 years... what a shame really.. anyway... i'm actually in no position to comment abt that.. And i'm not sure abt the 'after that' lah... so ya.. just suddenly felt sad when i found out... i dunno why! haha!

Anyway.. many happy things thou... i think the no.1 happy thing is i met up with my primary school mates last sat at ECP.. And i really mean School mates cos everyone came from diff classes... so i met ppl not only same class as me in p5/6 but also in p1-4... how cool... Well.. thanks to our batch's assist head prefect - wensheng for coming out with this idea... and huimin and bernice to actually disperse the info to me.. such that i disperse the info to other ppl as well... but many of them couldn't turn up... that's quite sad... so in the end.. ppl from 6/4 were only huiqun, kokwei, wenguang, samuel and me! haha!!! But ok lah.. most of the ppl who went were ppl i know! haha. mostly i knew from 4/8.. geraldine went too... so it's kinda reunion for the 3 of us. haha! And what more.. huimin, minjoo, carrisa and i were sent back by cheok (weimin).. how cool. haha!

Then it was shopping spree with via and mel on sun... we walked like almost the whole day lah... and my only zhan li pin is a bag... Oh... and a set of markers. Haha!!! But anyhows... we were very happy to take neoprints tgt... haha! Can't wait for the next meet-up! :)

So anyway... i off for my busy business... have to complete some stuff urgently... so shall not waste anymore time.. bye..~!! :)))

松柏: my new/old idol?

Now using sis' laptop to blog lor.. Cos i think the monitor really cannot make it liao... ytd still can watch a few xiao song （小松） and xiao bo's （小柏）video on youtube.. but today really quite jialat liao..

Anyway... as mentioned... nowadays i'm really amazed by these 2 guys... and i must say that they are really a pair of very cool twins... they just have the charisma to be on the stage... and i'm super impressed with the skills they possess and how they actually achieve what they are now... i've watched most of the talk shows they attended in taiwan... including 康熙来了which has 2 diff epi... and the 2nd one got part 1&2 somemore... then still got 国光帮帮忙, 封面人物 and 桃色蛋白质 and of cos... the 快乐星期天。艺能歌喉战 where they were the judges... and there really many interesting stuff that happens... 我是打从心里佩服他们的!! And could see that they become more and more handsome thru the years... with more 魅力 too... Just too cool to resist. haha! and and and... must really see them dance.. omg... very 厉害!! Haha. I just selling them like that lor.. lol.. see for urself lah..

So.. i spent most of my nights watching youtube that even my sis finds it amazing that i can watch like everyday! haha! But actually i got do other things also lor.. like practise gaohu.. and and.. watch tv... heex!

Ok lah.. another day then blog again. tired liao.. Nitex..

Monitor prob again..

Wah liao... i'm so so sad lah... ytd after that entry.. i typed another one... And i typed so so so much liao... the monitor starts flickering.. and in the end went on a strike... until now.. And i haven't save the entry yet!!! What the...

But anyway.. it means time to buy a new one... should have gone to the IT fair man... Argh... Shall go to sim lim sometime... WAh!!!

Sianx... i think i caught a flu lor... maybe it's the weather... woke up in the middle of the night to clear my nose lor.. Dotx... it's very annoying cos i know i need to clear my nose.. but i can't really open my eyes... cos i'm too tired lah.. Anyway.. abt that entry... i'll type it when i have the time and feel like it lah...

So now... i'm going to watch tv le lah.. star awards.. Haha!! Bye..

Full of activities...

WAh... like one week nv update le lor... sianx.. just dun have the momentem to do it... Haha... anyway nobody complained also mah... i guess everyone is just too busy with their own life too yea... Anyway... met 2 grps of ppl this week again!! Happy happy..!!!

First is of cos part of cogang for our movie at Vivo.. met them after my work... watched Happy Feet although we heard quite a few negative comments abt it... But then.. since we already decided the venue and movie and everything... it's quite troublesome to change anything just one day be4... so we still went for it.. and well... i enjoyed it... It has its entertainment value i must say... :) BUT... the penguins were only cute when they were young lor.. haha! Anyway... the sweeties that went were... ling, yushi who skipped sch to join us (haha!).. siyih, qin and horng... and of cos me lah! HAha!

And on thurs was with the Royal Family... Again.. after work.. Omg.. the last time i saw them was like Sept lor... They were so being missed... So we had our long awaited meal at Ding Tai Fung at Raffles City... And later we had nowhere to head to... and ended up at Bakerzin at Paragon.. Haha.. i know... all the way just to go to another eating place. lol. And so we chat and chat... i mean it's just a norm for us girls... i.e. talking non-stop.. Haha! But i guess we all just enjoy all the crap as a getaway from sch and stuff.. And the royalties present were of cos Han, Kim, Wanlin who came back from aus for hols.. Yuhui, Chek and her SO William... plus ME! :) Our dear Von couldn't make it lor... haix...

Oh.. i'm really looking forward to more meet-ups... although 2 were just cancelled... so sad... Ok... should say.. postponed lah.. Anyway... i'll have an off-day on monday... So bring me out if u are free!! haha!!! Call/msg at my mobile. lol!

Anyway.. am out for the whole day today also... sitting down playing gh for like 7-8h... Omg... thank goodness i'm still alive. Haha. It's really a long sit... esp. when i have no one beside me during the 2nd half of the prac... yuerong had gastric so she went off lor... poor thing.. But i also poor thing lor... just that... at least now start to speak more to the ppl there lah... so not VERY sian lah.. but still a bit sian lor. =x Oh! And pls! Kill me lah... put me as what principal player... DOTX! Then i asked laoshi after that... is like... not really an ans also.. just say the com decide de.. what is this lor.. Sighx. the supposedly best player in the grp... and I played like... none of the songs without mistakes... and some big ones somemore. lol. call me a PP. well... i dun like it. shoot me pls. =x I'm really going to practise.. serious.. actually not many practices left anyway... 3 sats left.. and i can't go for one of it... so left with 2.. so serious.. practise!!

After co had dinner with laoshi and his wife (jiejie)... Felt quite weird cos sylvia went for her class gathering so i was alone lor... and he sending me back so i just follow lor.. Then still shop ard... Xiang Bu Dao i still quite familiar with coastway point lor... at least i know got Courts.. and i guess their m1 shop at the basement... based on past experience there lah.. haha.. But then again... who in the right mind will go all the way there to shop? not me! Just that i happened to be there a few times after mco...

Hoho.. anyway tmr's family outing! =)) Yeah yeah.. it means i can get things like clothes! :) And of cos hopefully i'm being sponsored 100%! Heex.

Tired tired... That's all lah..

2 Enjoyable nights...

Back back back... Really drained out these few days... However.. i enjoyed myself with the company of so many friends... we had all our time laughing... Just a word... 'FUN'..

Went NYNY for dinner with the cogang ytd... where 3 didn't go.. ended work at 6... and yushi and ling waited for me at Raffles mrt! Heex... Then we met the rest at city hall... well well... I hope everyone had a good time.. although some of us were really tired... esp. Jan.. she's too tired to even eat anything.. poor girl... Then then... we saw Suken! So qiao lor... and expected... she came to our table.. asking.. why we go out nv ask her.. And everyone knows the story... which shall not be mentioned.. haha.

And today... of cos as i've mentioned be4... it's NYCO gathering... at the pasir ris park.. Actually i hoped it was more appreciated.. not that i really like that place... seriously... i dun.. but.. there wasn't much choice in this super peak period... almost everywhere is packed/fully booked for this WHOLE MONTH... And i will be like occupied for the rest of the saturdays... What to do!? i hate to say it.. but why should my saturdays be used in this manner? practising from 9am to 6pm?? and with ppl that i dun really know? and with my friend sitting so far away?? Sighx... i think i will dread it... really... And thanks to laoshi... we didn't go today cos he's not in town... =x that's why i could enjoy my day? Anyway quite happy that ppl actually came and quite helpful in things... =) Whether it's a success or not... i dun really care... of cos i hoped everyone enjoyed... but if they didn't... i hope i'll nv know abt it.. haha. Cos i really enjoyed the company... Jon, Ken, Benjamin, and of cos Emily and Yingying.. :)) And the others lah... and ds who came late and left early.. plus went wrong place.. dotx... But there were more juniors than seniors lah~! haha.

Hmm.. what should i do tmr then?? I need a more exciting life... be4 i return to the cold and lifeless office for work on monday... Suddenly feel like singing K... all thanks to ppl who brought it today.. and in the end we didn't go cos it was expensive... and it's like.. the craving wasn't satisfied... and the feeling of crave just didn't go off..! haha.

Ok lah... i'm enough... Anyway.. er-jie is still not back yet... and will not be back early... seriously speaking.. ever since she started her current job a month ago... we haven't had long chattings at night cos she was always returning late... even later than the days she was still with GMP.. Like at least 12+am.. even thou next day is a working day... only that now she's out with her colleagues instead of working at night.. i dunno... dun really understand her in some ways... but of cos.. i have no control over her life lah.. so.. whatever lor.. haha!

Relationships and me..

That day i was talking to this friend... we were talking something about him... and when he asked me how i know.. i replied becos i was observant... and i collect evidence... Then i thought... if that's the kind of person i am.. i.e. observant... Why didn't i observe it when it happened on me? It's kind of weird right... For one thing i know abt myself... i'm a person who most of the time sees a person in terms of their personality correctly... and i know if he/she dislike another person... from the little little actions or words they say... But... if u ask me if anyone has anything towards or against me... frankly speaking.. i can't tell... maybe some in terms of friendship.. But... in terms of relationship... spare me... i've been wrong so many times... and i still didn't know until much later! If i can read btwn the lines when ppl say something... why didn't i sense it last time and let it go on for so long? Am i so blinded that time??

Then i thought... why is it so? Is it what they called... '旁观者清'?? And then i thought... why could i only have guy friends... but no further relationships with any of them.. Haha... Perhaps it's becos of my character ba... I might always appear to be strong, independent, confident, capable (maybe), and dun need any help from them... this occurs to me when someone offered to help me carry things today and i rejected it immediately... Maybe that's why... But... actually i'm not really like that... Haiya... dunno how to explain... who doesn't hope to have something to take care of u... and always be there... lending the shoulder whenever it is need... and blah blah blah... But... it just didn't happen at the correct time or with the correct person for me... so i kept on banging onto the wall... how could i even start liking someone now after all these?

Hmm... haiya... whatever should come will come....

Busy busy.. tired tired...

Hmm... haven been updating these few days... too tired.. really... although i haven been sleeping early also... but i just have like loads of things to do lah...

Monday was busy practising... for the audition... eh.. not for the whole day lah... but then... in the end it still wasn't enough... so i should obviously practise more lah.. =x

Then tues... was first day of work at Global Refund... with Liyana... erm... she was there earlier with jamie... but jamie left cos of another job.. thus i was asked to replace... well... it's not really a bad environment... but usually it's very quiet... and how interesting can data entry get?? i dunno... haha.. So... after being in the retail line for a while... i really like retail more... as to of now lah.. Cos pay might be higher... later working hours... and i feel that it's less rigid... and retail is seriously more interesting... If i have a choice... i will not go back to data entry again in future... BUT... as for now... i shall do with whatever i have... becos.. i still need some $$ for survival lah.. haha! And with a friend... of cos it isn't that bad... and if really have to continue... i dun really mind also... cos public hol is still a public hol and i dun need to worry abt having to work on those days and cannot go out... right?! =) So... so far.. i still quite enjoy work. thank u. AT LEAST i'm doing something.. get it?

Anyway.. tues night was the audition... it really didn't turn out very well... I think my biggest prob... is my confidence... in the first place i'm never a person with high level of confidence... so i sort of lost my calmness... and can't prepare myself calmly for whatever i was requested to play... it's a bit wasted... but well... it also mean that i should practise more diligently... ok.. next year's sy is no relaxing matter... Time to start brushing up!!

Wed.. went to SP after work... surprisingly i survived thru... although i was really.. tired still.. haha... But i didn't go and eat with them after that lah... cos... i want to sleep!! =x But really... most of the songs is use hun de lor... and so Sam was also hun-ing with me.. lol.. really lousy... i thought of pulling out for some of the songs... sighx...

And the thing is.. i think i have quite many things to practise... cos i have like a concert to play for in each of the coming 3 months... so it means 3 months to be busy for!! ok.. whatever... i just have to do my best... and treat it as a training for my lousy sight-reading.. lol..

And following days are going to be busy also!!! But i'm seriously looking forward to tmr.. cos it's dining out with my fav ppl!! =))) Yay-yay... Heex. And i know we are going to enjoy yea~! :) And sat... and yet another gathering... with nyco ppl... It's really been a long time since i last met them... thousand years ago.. haha..! Ok lah... nvm... looking forward!!! (cos i'm the one who started planning it?) lol.

OK... Sleep time.. or rather... comic time be4 sleep time. =) Nitex all. (if u are reading at night) U can sleep now... after this whole lot of bedtime story... lol. if not.. too bad.. =x Lalala... i'm mad..

Qns & Ans.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? Haix... dark eye rings again...!
2. When is the next time you will have sex? God knows when...
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"? Wor? Hor? Lol!
4. Favorite planet? Captain planet! =P
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile? Qinqin. haha.
6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone? All.
7. What kinda shirt you have on? Shirt lah... light pink one from giordano.
8. Describe yourself in one phrase? Eh.. i'm bad in describing myself. A very easy-going person?
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing? at home without shoes now..
10. Bright or Dark Room? in between.. a not so bright room..
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? caring lor.. missy tan leh..
12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on? whichever one that is cleaner..
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping after blogging lah! Cannot tahan.
14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile? can't rmb... deleted the msg already.
15. Where is your letter box? Downstairs lor..
16. What's a word that you say a lot? Huh? =x
17. Who told you he/she loved you last? Got meh?
18. Last furry thing you touched? I dunno.. probably one of my soft toys. heex.
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? None.. i lead a healthy lifestyle de lor...
20.How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? Dotx... a thousand years nv use film already lah..
21. Favorite age you have been so far? I think it's every single age... there are always different experiences for me in the different stages...
22.Your worst enemy? enemy?! What's that.
23. What is your current desktop picture? co gang collage
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? i can't rmb lah... (that's not what i said.. haha.)
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly? million bucks! I can use a little of it to experience flying too. and use the rest to do other things...
26. Do you like someone? Yupx
27. The last song you listened to? the last song on my playlist was 'wo men de gu shi' by Tension.
28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet? No... i rather be the person who is sad about it for the rest of my life...
29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be? dun want lah... will dirty my hand and.. hand will pain also..
30. What is the closest object to your left foot? my right foot lah!
31. Next 5 people to do this: Whoever came upon my blog.. lazy to think of ppl. =x

Aiyo.. still got..
1. My "ex" is still... (i'm still looking for one..)
2. I am listening to... Ai Qing Yogurt by JJ in iTunes at this very moment.
3. Maybe I should... start doing more meaningful things. bleahx
4. I would love... to get a job and stop rotting. lol..
5. My best friend... (wow.. the long lost qns) Too many to list.. They know who they are... ppl i hang out with the most and talked to most..
6. I don't understand... why am i at home on a sunday.
7. I lost... nothing.
8. People say... i'm rather funny... i dunno why..
9. The meaning of my screen name is... there isn't really any meaning to it..
10. Love is... a feeling that can't be explained.. and there's not reason for it..
11. Somewhere, someone is... my friend. =)
12. I will always... like music...
13. Forever seems... unreal
14. I never ever want to... let myself down..
15. My cell phone is... black 6101 nokia phone.
16. When I woke up this morning... hoping to have kuay chap.. but didn't.
17. I get annoyed... erm... not so easily..
18. Parties are... what i like! =)
19. My pet(s) are/is... none! (although i hoped to have one)
20. Kisses are the best when... i'm not feeling very good.
21. Today I... slack the day away playing PS2 and sleeping.=x
22. Tomorrow I will... practise my gaohu! haha.
23. I really want.... to find myself...

Finally updating.. :)

Haix... have to retype a bit.. explorer hang... dotx..

I think i have neglected my blog quite a bit lately... the inconsistency of updating and the unusually short entries each time... =x But the thing is... there is really nothing much to be mentioned in the boring life of mine now.. Anyway... i just had 2 fruitful days... so i thought i'd blog abt them.. =)

Fri... first was swimming with sylvia in the morning.. how nice to be in the pool in the good weather... no sun in the morning! breezy... and the water is cool.. No sunblock needed! =) Then finally sit down to practise for sy audition seriously in the aftn with her... And solve our problems... and really.. get into the tempo and everything... i must say that comparatively to the past audition pieces... this year's one is really not that easy.. but it means practise lah! haha.

Then it was the arts management bbq at night... it took some time to find the place.. i found it eventually. =) it was quite good... catching up with some of the classmates.. (those that went) and getting to know who our seniors are... cos after the semester... i've nv seen any of them be4 lah.. haha..

And today... it was really a long day... went out early morning for mco practice... well well... not much comments... i'm so sleepy today.. haha... but sometimes i do enjoy the conversations we make on the journey there... heex. and so we followed laoshi's car to orchard after prac ended... had lunch at pepper lunch... and walked ard... then went on the marina sq with the free shuttle bus and continued to walk ard... haha... until it was time to go to SCH for the concert.. It was somehow or another rather nice... But i esp. like Mr Law's composition... maybe it has the most traditional chinese music elements in it... And his works are always so impressive.. I like! haha... The others were not bad... but for some i felt very incomplete whereby the piece/movement ended rather abruptly... a bit weird lah... just when i was expecting more from the music.. it ended...

Anyway.. it's sleeping time... damn tired!! Oh!! i finally have something to do... haha.. read the comics i rented... and start gaming on jason's PS2.. heex. And of cos.. i'm going to WORK.. starting from next tues... replacing jamie for abt 2 weeks ba... Hopefully it's not bad. haha. Anyway.. Ciaoz~!

Casino Royale

So finally i decided to blog~?! hmm.. maybe... or perhaps i'm just too bored to do anything else.. haha!

Anyway... Just went for the exciting 007: Casino Royale... Hmm... what should i say about it... Of cos.. full of action... Shocking actions.. haha. i got scared quite a few times. heex. About the storyline.. some are quite anticipated while some are surprises.. But the idea is quite new as to bring james bond into the context of gambling... Esp. the part where he won with straight flush even thou his cards seem small.. so cool! Ya lah.. i think due to my experiences of watching so much this kind of shows... i've guessed correctly some of it... Lol. Anyway... overall it's nice lah... Watch it.. esp. when u need to add some excitement to ur life.. (like mine!) haha. And of cos.. nv ever forget his tagline.. "I'm Bond, James Bond" :)
[And pls... prepare what u need for that 2.5+h... Haha~!!]

Aiya. that's all for now.. Nitex.

short short...

Sorry... i'm just too lazy to blog these few days... i dun even know what i could write about... life for me is just so square.. that nothing really interests me a lot... suddenly i lost my directions in this hols... not knowing what exactly i want to get out of it... cos i thought it will go according to my plans... but now everything seems so unstable and so blurred.. i'm really like... 过一天算一天 lor... =x

My Holi-DAYS...

Quite bored these few days... so i ended up watching some long overdued shows.. i.e. E Zuo Ju Zhi Wen (the tw version) and now.. Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi which i missed most of it on tv... But i guess the former is much nicer.. cos i'm super addicted to it.. haha. absorbed by the charm of the male lead.. and amazed by the stupidness of the female lead... And of cos her determination... I'm quite impressed by how determined she is.. and how she nv gave up even thou she knows that the guy doesn't like him.. how brave... I wished i could be like her... and fight for my happiness too... Maybe i did try in the past.. but what could i hope for in future? Anyway... whatever shown is just not the reality... it's just a fantasy.. isn't it? cos no matter how hard i tried.. the ending was still the same... Anyway... i wished i could watch the jap version one again... the last time i didn't really watch the whole thing...

Hmm... thinking of returning to arms of the erhu private lessons... dunno... just suddenly have the feeling... maybe i'm just too bored lately... Am still not working YET... waiting for my slots of cos... maybe dun even have any.. Anyway... should have quite many things going on in Dec... that includes of cos planning for gatherings... And attending gatherings... Anyway.. Why must all my friends only be free in Dec~?!?! Sianx.. And i think i'm going for the xian yue camp too... sounds happening to me.. Hmm.. see how lah..

Freedom. :)

Come and say 'yeah' with me! I can't believe that one semester had just passed like that.. it's like.. so fast! But anyway.. ya.. it's over.. and no matter how much i procrastinate... i handed in my works on time... Something i'm proud of lah.. cos u know me long enough... i dun used to hand in hws on time.. (except for some lah.) haha..

Actually i think i have plans for the hols lor..!!! First of cos is to get enough sleep.. haven't been sleeping well and enough lately.. then.. i need to EXERCISE! Swim or run.. whatever. ok.. both! :) Then... I need to work~! but then.. Ann auntie went vacation with dad and mum.. so i dun think there will be any schedule till she's back on sun... And.. of cos.. i need and want to meet up with my dear friends!! All the way from pri sch to jc! haha. so adventurous right. heex. but well.. i'll try.. meanwhile.. waiting for friends to finish their exams in ntu, nus, jc or poly.. or Whatever. i'm freed of exams now.. haha.

Oh.. so i just mentioned.. my parents are away for holidays.. yes.. AGAIN. To hainan dao this time and from ytd to sun.. so am i supposed to party?? haha. actually planned to go for ladies' night.. but it was called off.. so liyana, caiwen and i roamed ard vivo city... trying to shop for something but in the end didn't buy anything.. and we just had food.. haha.

And.. regarding the mgmt assignment.. Terence commented it was good after he read it... and gave me another point to add in.. that i really thought of but dunno how to put in words.. so good lah.. actually he said 'excellent' lah! er... i dunno.. really? haha.. i din know i have such calibre of writing good essays. haha. anyway... although terence didn't offer me a part time job... he asked me to tell him when i graduate! there's a light of hope!! =))

Ok.. i'm really tired.. hopefully i could do some work out tmr.. heex. Nitex.

TIRED!!!

Am totally exhausted today.. damn tired by the time i got to sch.. Haix.. Still got another paper to mug for and another assignment to pia for.. i think i'm so dead.. what am i doing here when i have a paper tmr?!

But ytd to today was bad too.. i spend most of the day doing those 1000+ words to the mgmt report... and started studying for today's paper ard 9pm... finally slept at 4+am... not so Finally thou cos i haven't finish... but really cannot tahan already... so i woke up ard 9am to continue lah!! And eventually... i dun think i rmb much out of it... hopefully i'm able to pass.. although it's only MCQ~...

Went down to SCH after that... met Terence Ho for abt an hour to clear my doubts... and chatted for a while... Well... i must say that he's rather nice... cos he offered to help me look thru my report!! =) BUT.. he didn't offer me a part-time job. haha..! ok lah.. next time.. i think will have chance. lol. Now i need money.. not a job. haha.

Anyway.. haven't touch theatre assignment yet... Argh.. i'm such a procrasinator!!!! i can't stand myself... and why must assignments be done on com? haha.. pull me to those temptations.. of playing and doing other things.. bleahx. ok.. enough... go and study now! another sleepless night...

Gathering??

Ytd i had some quite long chats with 2 friends... And i decided with one that we should have some kind of gathering soon... And he was like... 'u will organise k'.. dotx... what a guy.. seriously. and that person is unfortunately.. jonathan lau. haha. And he was like... gathering for which grp.. Err... NYCO lah... if not he wants to meet my girls meh.. lol.. he's funny lah.. anyway.. we commented that we have not met for a long time... the last time i saw him was july? ya.. a few months.. but for the others.. oh man.. i think it's a decade. haha. ok.. exaggerating. =P

And the other friend too... my long long time friend. we crapped and erm.. gossip quite a bit... haha... And we decided that we should meet up soon too... i dun think we can ever stop talking... and the person is none other than jiewan. haha. Oh.. it's amazing how ppl of the pri school decides to have some kind of mass gathering for our batch... How cool... like after we graduated for erm... 7 years?! Interesting.. haha.

Today is supposed to be assignment day... however... half of the day was spent baking some not so successful cookies... it was originally er-jie's idea... since she was quite free today... she said she wants to bake... So we did something that we found so wrong after that... i.e. to buy those ready-made cookie mixture... cos too lazy to start from scratch.. and so it didn't turn out well on the first tray.. like those via and i baked the first time... then i went to take a look and i know.. it's the dough... it was too watery... so the rest of the time i was there... beating the mixture again... And now.. all the already-inside chocolate chips melted and were mixed inside... and changed the colour.. dotx. But the outcome was still not good... So conclusion.. next time dun be so lazy! haha.. still go back to the traditional way lah.. wasted my aftn. dotx.

And now... stupid MSword just encounter some error... luckily i saved... i was on a new paragraph when suddenly a window just popped up and says there's an error... dotx... this is so not good... ytd my com hang too.. in the midst of my conversations... and today hang another time. while i was freecell-ing.. haix... Anyway.. back to my assignment!!! Must finish today!! Another 1700 more words to go.. sighx..