ARGH.

The quote of the day: "Everybody makes a difference".
Personally, I want to make a bigger difference than the one i'm arranged to make.

Of cos.. i have heard of this phrase long long time ago... but when u heard it in the wrong context... it didn't really feel good. Seriously, anyone in the same plight would have thought so too.. of cos... it is my own deduction... but i must have some grounds in saying so...

Firstly... no matter what kind of job we are in for... isn't it only basic courtesy to even let us know before hand... for goodness sake it's only 2 days before the start of the festival and these few of us do not even know what positions we are in. At least let us know what to expect. no emails, no phonecalls, no schedules, no nothing! I dun think it's nice to keep us in such suspense (esp. if it's bad one) for so long while seeing everyone else having themselves involved nicely to the event. At least for the previous one we were told much before hand even though the jobs are not much liked. And there was ample time to plan anything else ahead. Unlike this.. so last min! Oops.. i'm sorry but it's only last min for a few ppl..

There must be a reason behind everything.. of cos when she says the quote of the day as first mentioned... she could have meant no harm or there could be an underlying msg in it... i do not know... i'll give a both sides explanation... Of cos the consoling part is that everyone.. no matter how easy or how lowly the job is... everyone is equally important. and all of us will learn something out of it.. Yes. I agree. then it could mean that it's really true that there are just some jobs that obviously too little to be attached to.. Thanks for giving examples... but i think they didn't help at all. It just reflects how she thinks that the position is very minute too. Isn't it?

Fairness? Is there even such a thing at all... there's contradiction everywhere! Yes, i agree that those who really sent in a research ppl on whichever artist deserve who they got... thou i didn't managed to do a full research... I did express my area of interest too! The fact that she pointed out that some of them were put into certain areas cos she already knew their interest already show that there isn't anything she call it 'fairness'. Then why am i not given a chance at all? Tell me abt choosing randomly... my foot!

It's not that i dun want to believe that my most prob job is not impt... but think... if u ask anyone else to give up their current position for this... they would most prob think u are mad... but i'm sure everyone in the same section as me would rather give our job up for something else.

But whatever it is... no matter how much i think and how upset i am abt it... it is already a matter of fact which i can't change. I wasn't hopeful for any good news actually. If something is going to make me happy, tell me that i'm excused for the whole thing. i'd be more happy.

Nv been so looking forward to something and in the end gotten so disappointed abt it... and i actually hid my emotions in front of everyone. thanks but dun tag or talk to me regarding anything in this entry... nothing helps at the moment.