No more attachments...

PHEW! finally the hectic life is half over... actually time really passes quite fast... it's only less than a month to the end of this sem... everything just seems like ytd...

Anyway ytd was really a hectic day... but at the same time rather enjoyable.. Did the usual merchanising.. super tiring and nerve breaking... cos just too many ppl coming at the same time... all the money exchange... and the lack of prog booklets in hands... makes me nervous... lol! but phew.. it was all over... and lastly... went to the sun tent for once. it was really quite nice... until i fell off the broken chair... dotx. damn embarrassing... but well... it was nothing big lah... had a few glasses of wine... some food... chatted.. a few photos and cabbed back at 12am. and had a good night sleep with the rain... without much worries after all... :) But worries are of cos coming soon... the report/reflective journal.. HAIX.

This weekend will be another busy one... work and co and meetings... and of cos... our class halloween party. Spent a lot of effort and Money to prepare for it... i think i still need some make up stuff... maybe tmr for some last min after work... =x but first time i'm going to a costume party... hopefully it turn out well! :) and hopefully taking many pictures. heex.

Got to check our accounts test paper today.. and guess what? I didn't get my 100marks goal cos of ONE number that i wrote wrongly... duh... i checked the paper over and over a few times yet i fail to realise it... luckily i didn't carry the mistake to other parts of the paper... THUS. i was ONE mark away from that goal.. DOTX. I was quite pissed with that silly mistake cos it was so obvious! but well... how could i be harping on that ONE mark rather than the other 99? At least it's helping me a bit for the mod as to not to do soo badly in the end.. in case i can't do well in other topics. haha! but i guess my other classmates did quite well too... hopefully! :))

Ok! Celebrate everyone! be4 we start to pia and chiong after that for all the researches, assignments, projects, exams and what not. SCHOOL. Getting there soon i guess... i just need to endure a bit more. :) Nitex ppl.

PS: talk abt my attachment another day. =P

Finally...

Of cos.. i've realised that this is not the best channel for public complaints... and i realised i have better ways to do it.. heex. so shouldn't talk abt it anymore...

Anyway... finally gotten to be attached to the festival... although we are doing very mild jobs as compared to the other classmates... we are grateful to have something to do... and at least not leaving us in a great state of panic... and i think we bound to learn something from these little jobs... be it good or bad... and could be useful to future when we do festivals ourselves. it's really better than nothing. and the ppl are so far being very nice. :)

Well... i have to thank the classmates who were concerned abt this matter as much as i am... knowing our situation.. asking ard for us and speaking up for us in some way or another... i really appreciate it.. and i choose to believe that they are real. thanks very much. becos it's so discreet, if we didn't ask ard to clarify some of our doubts.. they actually didn't know what has the festival and our own lect has got us into.. and i seriously doubt my lect's words from then on. i was just plain disappointed by how it was handled. at the very least, the other lect fought for our rights for the last attachment.. and i think we were all grateful for that.

The difference between the 2 attachments is that the 1st one was done very openly, everyone knows what everyone else is doing, and although the organisers were somehow quite unorganised at some times.. they gave EVERYONE very clear schedules at the very first day of the event. and the organisers came to do a mass briefing thus clearing doubts here and there in everyone's presence, and anyone who was left out could voice out at the very moment. but for this current one, as they informed ppl in different batches, every grp got their briefing separately (probably due to the difference in job scope), everyone started on different days, everyone have different in-charge and stuff like that... and very clearly... it wasn't as 'fair' as what our lect had told us. If we had gone for that lesson this morning, i guess our lect might have no where to stand.. and they wouldn't be able to end the class 1h earlier. I think there's just too many 'political' issues in this whole matter that in the end, nothing can resolve it, cos biasness is a very personal thing.

Oopx.. did i complain? haha... i was merely comparing... thus pls be careful of ur own future attachments. haha. I think even though it's very tiring to do the job that was allocated today... i feel fulfilled getting to do something... if not i just feel so outcasted when everyone else is talking abt the festival since it's the on-going thing... ANYWAY... the festival events are WAY too expensive.. i think u can guess what's the fest. we are attached to...

SLACK.

I practically did nothing for the whole weekend. haix. why? cos i had nothing to do for the festival while the others are busy at esplanade or some other places. dotx. Some say that it's a good thing cos i can slack at home. true... but it's really painful to see all ur friends involved and you know nothing abt it at all. but thanks cw for updating me a bit this morning.

Maybe it's really a blessing in disguise... thou i'm very unhappy abt it... i had no worries slacking at home for the whole day. Actually still have school work to do... but am really lazy... but i think later no matter what still will produce something for him tmr lah. it's really a sucky assignment but well... still have to do it.

Dunno since when... watching tv is like my hobby.. i nv used to like watching tv all day maybe 2 years ago... i rather i go online and hog the comp for the whole night... but i'm watching tv on a very routine basis.. i could wake up at 9am and start watching tv till erm... the whole morning and aftn and i have a timetable to watch what at what time. hee! Anyway... watching star search now lah... i like S5! chen bang jun. he's good.. nice smile, nice build, good-looking.. and i think he will win!!! hahaha.

I'm really sian lah... (and bu shuang also). hmm... thus i'm not going to care and i'm going to work next week! bleahx! we'll see yea.. i really want to know our lecturer's reaction. And i took back all my words earlier abt looking forward to sun fest attachment... no matter what we are going to be assigned on this very last min basis and how good/bad it is. i dun give a damn cos that's the attitude they gave us too. how ridiculous it is when they tell u that they really dunno where to slot u when supposedly we were told that everyone has been already given a job. i dun believe it. Even when we are not paid.. that is not the way to treat us... i urge the school to choose the IBL company more carefully in future. ok.. not like they will see this... but seriously i feel very very mistreated through this incident... not only me but also other 4friends.

Argh... i really dun want to make this place full of the complaints in my life... but why must this have to happen to me? i dun blame my other classmates even it's an unfair thing... cos they probably didn't know as well... but think of it.. given my classical music background.. if i'm not qualified for the job... i dunno who is. not trying to show off my grade8 cert here.. the fact is probably none of them know as well.. and since most of the classmates came are more into visual arts/fine arts. probably very few of them are musicians or even part-time musicians. just feeling very unjust that's all.

I promise not to complain abt this matter again... probably complain abt other things. haha. Did i mention my accounts test last fri? cw commented to her bf that i'm aiming for 100marks.. Well.. I am! And hopefully i can get at least a 90.. cos it's only the basics and if i can't do well.... what abt the rest? so.. let's wait.

i think i should have a label call 'complaints' as well.. hahaha.

TIRED.

Haix.. dun feel like complaining anymore even though the situation haven't improve yet. I can't believe that even till the day of the start of the whole festival... we still dunno what we are supposed to do.. And seriously, the words and the way my lecturer puts it in the last email just shows how we are the 'left overs'.. and it seems hard to get a position for us. I'd rather not do it. ARGH. Whatever. But i can just say that they disrupted my life. every extra school activity is doing that.

Anyway... just finished studying for the accounts test tmr.. after the 15min nap just now... dun seem to be too tired now... but will go and sleep after this lah... hopefully test LATER will not be too bad lah.... since maths is usually my forte... i should thrive to do well in this. BUT. just becos of the test tmr.. i will have $50+ less to spend next month. haix. but well.. for the sake of my results. Can somebody tell me why are we obliged to do everything just for results? (including the attachments)

Other than these... I think i enjoyed myself in the evening thou there was absolutely no one talking to me throughout the time in the cinema... i hoped i was more sociable... =x But the films were really cool and some really reflects a lot on our lives. So anyway congrats to a fellow nyjcian who was one of the 3 in the champion grp. *prouds :) [Will talk abt the event more when got time]

Work was not bad too... got a visitor in the afternoon... 'dearest' mike. lol! These bunch of ppl are just out to bully me... even thou he's one year younger. i can't believe it. But managed to exchange some stupid and some normal conversations. And while we talked abt some ppl who had left the company.. kinda remind me of last time... but what passed has passed... things are all different now... and i'm so called in a safer zone. and ppl i know are just leaving one by one (not the part-times). if money is not impt, perhaps none of these will happen. haha. wistful thinking again. Even i think that money is impt. haha.

Ok... Nitex. OMG. Consecutively 3 days sleeping at 3+am. and waking up at ard 8am for the previous 2 days... and i think i will wake up ard that time again in the morning to just do a quick scan through again. to refresh memory. haix. students nowadays.

ARGH.

The quote of the day: "Everybody makes a difference".
Personally, I want to make a bigger difference than the one i'm arranged to make.

Of cos.. i have heard of this phrase long long time ago... but when u heard it in the wrong context... it didn't really feel good. Seriously, anyone in the same plight would have thought so too.. of cos... it is my own deduction... but i must have some grounds in saying so...

Firstly... no matter what kind of job we are in for... isn't it only basic courtesy to even let us know before hand... for goodness sake it's only 2 days before the start of the festival and these few of us do not even know what positions we are in. At least let us know what to expect. no emails, no phonecalls, no schedules, no nothing! I dun think it's nice to keep us in such suspense (esp. if it's bad one) for so long while seeing everyone else having themselves involved nicely to the event. At least for the previous one we were told much before hand even though the jobs are not much liked. And there was ample time to plan anything else ahead. Unlike this.. so last min! Oops.. i'm sorry but it's only last min for a few ppl..

There must be a reason behind everything.. of cos when she says the quote of the day as first mentioned... she could have meant no harm or there could be an underlying msg in it... i do not know... i'll give a both sides explanation... Of cos the consoling part is that everyone.. no matter how easy or how lowly the job is... everyone is equally important. and all of us will learn something out of it.. Yes. I agree. then it could mean that it's really true that there are just some jobs that obviously too little to be attached to.. Thanks for giving examples... but i think they didn't help at all. It just reflects how she thinks that the position is very minute too. Isn't it?

Fairness? Is there even such a thing at all... there's contradiction everywhere! Yes, i agree that those who really sent in a research ppl on whichever artist deserve who they got... thou i didn't managed to do a full research... I did express my area of interest too! The fact that she pointed out that some of them were put into certain areas cos she already knew their interest already show that there isn't anything she call it 'fairness'. Then why am i not given a chance at all? Tell me abt choosing randomly... my foot!

It's not that i dun want to believe that my most prob job is not impt... but think... if u ask anyone else to give up their current position for this... they would most prob think u are mad... but i'm sure everyone in the same section as me would rather give our job up for something else.

But whatever it is... no matter how much i think and how upset i am abt it... it is already a matter of fact which i can't change. I wasn't hopeful for any good news actually. If something is going to make me happy, tell me that i'm excused for the whole thing. i'd be more happy.

Nv been so looking forward to something and in the end gotten so disappointed abt it... and i actually hid my emotions in front of everyone. thanks but dun tag or talk to me regarding anything in this entry... nothing helps at the moment.

400th post: end of attachment 1

Wow... this is my 400th post... i think these 100 posts were achieved in a rather short time. as compared to the past. haha. and it marks the end of my first 6-day attachment too! :)))

Ok... I think we should all look at this attachment from a different perspective. Instead of thinking of how bad the organisers were, how bad their attitude were, how lousy were their organisational skills, how low were our pay, how we have to do all sorts of stuff, how some ppl were just so irresposible (both organisers and crew)... whatever and whatever... ok.. we should think of these.. but not in the way of just complaining and complaining... instead... think this way. If we dun like what they are doing.. we make sure that we dun make any of those mistakes when it's our turn in future.

Yes... the event might be a success... but i dun think the credits just go to the fair organisers... and reason for the fair to expand every year is not becos the galleries like working with the organisers as well... i believe if there's other choices (other comtemp art fairs)... they would have left this one... but there's no other choices! there's only one and the biggest comtemp art fair in asia. Ya.. so much for the name... and after all... there were galleries that feedback to us abt their unhappiness towards the organisers. and of cos we see the attitudes ourselves. I can't believe the fact some ppl just suckup to foreign galleries and treat local ones like shit. i hope i interpreted the person's words and tone wrongly. but i doubt so. cos the very first reaction that my friend had when we heard that person saying that was the same.

Sorry for all these unclear stuff here... can't reveal all the names... in case there's tracking down. (the power of google). Anyway... it's just like another womad that started some bitching moments abt some ppl out there. and yea.. i bitch too! erm. was unhappy with particular ppl ever since dunno when lah. but the attachment just made things worst. it's super obvious cos once everyone's behind.. the bitching starts.

Anyway... u can say i'm stupid or silly... but i didn't feel anything offensive towards myself throughout the whole 6 days. The fact that my friends pointed out that i was treated rudely made me surprised! cos i didn't felt so. even after they mentioned. i guess i just didn't take all those remarks seriously. and i seriously think that i'm that kind of person who would try to get out of trouble by smiling the matter off.. or just keep quiet.

Anyhows.. i would like to thank the organisation for deciding to increase our pay by $10 per day. thou it's still not a lot... it's enough to cover my expenses for that few days plus the 2bags i bought at samsonite fair. haha! and i think there's still a bit of leftovers. :) Thankfully. erm. wondering if i should return the money to dad. since he paid for the bags first.

HAix... really tired. shall continue tmr. bye.

Complains... =X

I'm pretty amazed that after the 4th day... u see lesser and lesser ppl appearing at the place... and u still see me sitting in front of the comp typing this after the long 10h... The only thing i could say was... the employer/organiser just made everything worst. They were super unhelpful... just give u ans like 'i dunno', 'dun ask me', 'just tell them (blah blah blah)...', 'go and ask (another person)', and 'this is none of our business'. DOTX. and a lot more lah...

The first 2 days were really terrible... and there were many things that screwed up... and they still think that it's not their problem... and thus on the 2nd day aka gala opening night... we had to do a lot of lousy job like washing cups for the lounges... why do we have to do that i also dunno... but from that day onwards, apparently everyday there's a grp of ppl that start washing dishes at a certain time in the evening... and i still do not understand why.

Then many many ppl just go missing without letting ppl know where they went and stuff... take long long long breaks now and then... ok... i do take some time off with caiwen and rest. but at least we done something! i seriously dunno what the other ppl have been doing.

It's how weird even after the tasks were already allocated properly.. the organiser can just pull ppl out to do something else at any time of the day. somehow i think that they should just give us a better scope of the timings cos every now and then there ought to be some manpower problem here and there... then they start finding ppl to cover up and mess up the whole schedule...

But these 2 days weren't that bad... i tried many roles thru the day... be busy the whole day.... but that's probably the reason why the time seems to pass by very fast for today. and at the end of the day... there were some returns that the few of us shared together. :)

Anyway i'm really tired and my eyes are closing already. i'll try to update again.. ANYWAY. 2 more days! YEAH!!! :))) Can't wait for monday to come and party our heads off even if there's none organised for us. lol!

5 more days to go!

Ya.. i think i blog quite regularly also.. haha! Well... i've got nothing else to do at the moment what. haha.

I think today was a bad start for me cos i was late.. dotx. for less than 5min lah. but in their policy late for 1min also late. so ya.. tmr i will TRY to get there as early as possible. lol! =P Anyways... it's not really that bad lah.. just that really tiring... and we dun really have anything to do for the day since not all of us are of good help to the gallery owners/exhibitors. But hopefully the following days wouldn't be too bad. Cos after all we have to write reflective learning journal for the attachment.

Sorry huh... but can i complain again?! why are we paid SOOOO LITTLE? there's another grp of ppl whom they were paid much more than us lah. dotx. it's like... even if we are obliged to work for them... it doesn't mean that they should exploit us right? Afterall this kind of things are not secrets... everyone knows once we get there! so why are we treated in a so unfair manner? Just becos they claimed that they are doing us a favour by giving us a job attachment? And so it's ok for us to be exploited? I hope we will have better luck the next time... or rather... over the next few days first. thanks.

On a lighter note... the first day have passed! 5more days! lol. anyway towards the end of the day caiwen and i got to run more errands for the heads... i think cos we were seen walking ard and doing nothing too much. haha. so we went out twice to get stuff for them... the 2nd was really tiring cos we do not have much time left and we had to go all the way to carrefour... and then... she haven't return me the extra i paid. ok... she said that we should work within budget.. we did call her.. but she didn't pick up... so we called the even more senior person and he didn't say anything! ok.. not like she's not going to return me lah... haha. And finally! the first time we heard him praise someone... and that's us! haha... for something minor lah.

Ok.. that's all for day 1... i'm really tired afterall... now i got tight leg muscles... need more relaxation... and sleep. NITEx! :)))

side note: YEAH! playing erhu for genting!! lol. :)