Random feelings

Suddenly i rmb something. 

We were in my aunt cum godma's car and we were talking abt my sis' wedding. Then she asked me when i getting a boyfriend. like -.- Then i said, erm... '要找就会有的meh? 找工作都找这么久了，男朋友应该没有那么快啦.' Like the best ans i can give. Seriously not like i do not want, but is really don't have. So what can i do?

But seriously i dunno is i suay or what lah... Ok i think i suay. Have been suay lately, I mean still suay. I haven't won any money from mahjong since i dunno when. I haven't had something which i really want it to happen. Whichever thing i didn't want it to happen, it just will. 

Life is a game. But even if i play it right, i will get to the end first? I'm not sure about that. But suayness haven't left me yet. Or so i think. 

And so, I really don't know what i have done to enable other ppl to treat me like how they do. I've never taken any person or any thing for granted. Eg. if i am the one asking a favor of another person, i expect myself to be accommodating to the other party's convenience. But i dunno why sometimes when i'm the person helping, i have to accommodate also. I'm not saying every time and everyone does that. But i'm just puzzled. I guess i've said this many times before also. It is because i'm too easy-going? TOO easy-going for my friends to take advantage of? I dunno, but perhaps i really have to learn to say 'No'.

Dreams. Ambitions. Reality

Yeap, it's been another week since. And i could say... it was quite a relaxing week. Relaxing in the sense, not so much work and enough time for play. :)

But actually, life for me isn't really exciting this way. So I'd rather i have more things to do? Well, maybe. And yet we complain about how tiring it is when we have too many things to do. Pure irony.

Anyway, i was watching 就想赖着你 today and 杨朵 said that she had always worked to survive and never was able to pursue what she really likes. She saw the lawyer's eyes flicker with excitement and light when he talks about law. It makes her want to pursue her dreams. And she will go all the way to do it. When i heard that, I was actually quite touched.

How many people can actually pursue their dreams and do something they like? Well, I can say that i didn't really realise my dream. My first ambition was a teacher. I mean i really like to teach, but I dunno where is my ability in teaching. Although i like it, i dun think i'm up to such a job. Then as the years go by, my dream is to be a DJ of my fav radio station. Becos i listen to the radio everyday since i was a kid. Probably ever since i have a memory of listening to a radio. I want to share the best music to my ears to everyone listening to the radio. I will allow no lousy music in my programme. My dream. But i dun think it will ever be a dream come true.

Anyway, it was never my dream to be a performer or musician, although i like to play the instrument and likes to perform with everybody else. It's the combine effort which i always adore and is proud of. So my next ambition is to lead a whole orchestra, to be proud of my members as i stay behind the scenes to take care of other stuff. Yet, I still didn't have the chance. I'm still waiting. The road is still long before me. I will still work for what I want. For now, i'm happy to be doing something related to my interest.

I have a friend who always complain about the job and the amount earned. I would say the complaints come from the dissatisfaction from the job. The pay is probably double of what i earn. But i nv complained abt my job. Becos i'm doing what i like and my friend is not. And if my friend is sensitive enough, things like 'i think the pay is really not very high and not enough'. I mean, look at what your friends are earning, they complained but they enjoyed it too. I guess you didn't. I look forward to the day your bond ends so you can go and do something else. (which might not pay as high as well).

I wouldn't say I want to see the light in front of my now, since I just started out. I couldn't be more ambitious than doing what I should and earning my experiences. I'm much more than happy even if i have to travel so far every day and not coming home for dinner cos of other commitments. I like what i'm doing now, including work, syco, teach and learn. Each and every thing i do, I find the satisfaction in it, and i think this is what everyone should look for. :)

asswai concert coming!

SYCO concert is coming again. There's no prac the next week, by the time we start prac again the week after, we gonna each other for the whole week! :D The totally <3 week. haha!

Still rmb last year i had this bad withdrawal syndrome cos i woke up the next morning after concert and still thought that it was the concert day. LOL! That was quite funny actually. But actually this year there was so much less activities... And less talk time too. :( Think mostly becos everyone is more busy with their life now.. well, including myself lah. So less outings, less supper (for me) = less trips home tgt, blah blah blah.

Although i know the last week before concert is going to be hectic, especially when i've already gone through the same process last year when i work temp here. But, i think it's going to be fulfilling and fun! Are we going to have our colour days this year again!? :) I'm looking forward to the concert anyhows! If u haven't grab ur ticket. Go get it NOW! hahaha.

And i'm happy about some friends going. look forward look forward! LOL! :)))

The kids...

Today my violin kid got a bad scolding. Poor her and not really very poor thing also. haha! I was very stern with her today cos I dunno why she has to keep laughing during lesson and doesn't want to listen to me. Apparently i think her mother heard everything outside the classroom. And when the lesson ended, she came in and gave her a lecture, and asked her to apologise to me, which, she finds it funny too. -.- And difficult to say it out. I think she's scared, but used the smile to hide it. 'Sorry' is really difficult to say. I wanted to say 'it's ok' when she couldn't say it out, but i decided that I shouldn't be so soft-hearted on her. Maybe it will teach her a small lesson and she will listen to me from then. I mean, hopefully. haha!

Ya, from first lesson till now, i think every week she will at least say once 'you don't know one lah'. Excuse me, if i don't know, how i teach you? -.- I'm so going to ban her from saying that.

While this one is too noisy, the other kid is too quiet. And he do work so slow! (for a primary 4 i.e.). And he doesn't want to ask even if he doesn't know. So he just stares at the page until i ask him. And he actually yawned during the lesson. -.- Hello, i've been working the whole day too ok. Hais.

Now i've got another new student anyway. Sat at west coast plaza. Yup. Still very far. And i'm taken away from my gym sessions totally. :( But anyway. Last week it was the 2nd lesson with this little girl. And she took some time to praise me from top to bottom, as in my necklace, clothes, shoes. LOL. I think cos she wants to talk and dun want to play violin. Smart kid. But a bit stressful cos her dad and elder sister can play violin too. haha. Then this one, ask her to play whole bow, dun want to listen. then tell me very hard. -.- If not hard, don't need to learn and practise alrdy right. haha. funny.

Ok. That's all for now. Look out for more of the kid's amusing acts.

Week 1 ends

Yeap, end of week 1. This is like so fast! lol.

But ok lah.. nothing much on first week. Just receive as much as i can. And it's like really A LOT! Very different. Yup. I understand, more responsibility, more duties, more of everything! haha. But so far so good... That is until my colleagues to go on leave. haha. Which is next week! One of them will not be coming in for the whole week. And then the next following week, the other will be off for her trip. So there are somedays i will be alone. Good luck to me! hahaha!

Yup, but next week should be the start of all my nightmares ba. HAHA! Like mon and wed SY, tues and fri teach violin (at yishun), and thurs is erhu lesson. Just the thought of it i want to faint liao. LOL! This week only had to teach.. no CO at all. Already a bit tiring. I need more energy! And this week is already quite upsetting cos i couldn't get to yishun on time on tues. I was terribly late. I felt so sorry lor. Was quite an awkward moment. But ya... hopefully next week will be better. Shifted back the time a bit. Fri is still ok.

And then monday too. Should be going to be late for sy ba. haha. Dun care lah. Bo bian. Got staff retreat. Yeap. That's all! TV also watch finish liao. Time to sleep! :)

Erhu . music . life

Haven't talk abt my erhu lesson for a long time now.

It's been slightly more than half a year since learning from zhulin laoshi. So far so good? Very fulfilling lessons. Practising yang guang and jiang nan and qin qiang now. Actually is quite xiong. lol! I think he has quite high expectations of me.. and of cos i have high expectations of myself lah. Just that, i'm a bit worried abt the future lessons cos i don't know if i really have the time to practise bit by bit. sighs. But i'll still try my best lah.

Learning jiang nan from him makes me realise that jiang nan is really not easy. No matter how hard i tried, couldn't get the feeling right. And i think it's kinda my own technical problem. and i'm not working hard enough ba.

Plus, now i've got to teach on 2 weekday nights and weekend aftn. Where do i find time? My weekday nights are ALL devoted to music-related stuff alr. Mon and Wed mostly SY, Tues and Fri teach violin, Thurs usually erhu lesson. !!! Oh actually is my everyday life that is devoted to music-related stuff. Including my job. Haha! Good thing to me though, it's like dream come true to have my life all revolving ard things i like. Just that maybe i do like more things than just music. haha.

My issue...

Today i suddenly thought of something which happened earlier this year.. and all along i didn't tell anyone. And i think no one else knew abt this cos i was the coordinator, and probably the person who said it. I'm not going to put any names down, i just want to rant it off.


We are arranging to meet a friend (A) for dinner/supper before she flies off. As there were quite a few of us, it was a bit difficult to arrange a time good for everyone. So there was a lot of smses to and fro. And i dunno, i might have confused some ppl along the way cos i sent different msges to A and the rest of the grp. Eventually, i managed to get most of the grp on a certain day which A said that she is fine with it alrdy.


So when i cfm the dinner meeting time with A, the reply i got was that A thought it would be supper. And goes on to say that she's having dinner at home with her family. I admit that it's my mistake to assume the time she is available to meet us. And becos A takes a very long time to reply each of my msg, and time is tight, so i didn't double check with her beforehand. Yup, my fault. So i tried to salvage it lah. I told the rest abt the situation i think. Then B told me that it's fine, but she can't stay too late cos of important school stuff next morning. And i told A abt it and ask her to come after her dinner, like as early as she can make it. My heart sank when i saw the next reply. 'my mum is cooking dinner specially for me. So i can only make it after dinner. You guys can eat first. It's ok if i don't see B. Meet her year end then.' I feel sad all of the sudden, sad for B, sad for myself, and sad for us all. She may have said the same abt me too.

Suddenly i felt like saying 'let's just forget abt the meet up', since A doesn't seem to see a need to. But i didn't say that out lah, just that i was quite emo for a while.

Ya.. my fault for the miscommunication... but she doesn't have to be so cold abt it. I felt that i have made a lot of effort for the close friends ard me and sometimes things like that just makes me feel a bit disappointed. And makes me think if all these while it's worthed me doing it.

A lot of thoughts still lingers within me, i don't know but sometimes when i think of such stuff, i will hold back for a while. But in the end, i still can't resist and try to do something i can to make things work.

If u know who and what i'm talking abt, you may want to talk to me abt it, but anything, i don't care. I don't know if u still read my blog, (and if u still rmb u said all these), you may want to think abt it. I don't know what's ur feeling when u told me those words. I really have no idea. I have no idea if we were still friends like we were.

Period.

Bubble-tea craze

Lately the BubbleTea craze is kinda back again. Same for me! KOI, Q-Essentials mostly. And it's like back to the >$2 age for a cup.

It reminds me of a bad experience with bubble tea back in the secondary school days. My friends and i were so into bbt that we go for different ones everyday after school. That was the sec 2 days... And i really mean everyday! For how long i can't rmb. But my favourite during that time was Chocolate ice-blended with Chocolate pearl. I love the chocolate pearl! HAHAH! But was damn ex for me last time lah.

But this incident i will nv forget. It was the day of Maths Paper 2 for final examination, in my opinion, one of the most important and confident paper. Just before the paper, my period came and i got cramp!!! Like damn jialat cramp. I took the normal Panadol pill, but no use lah. So still have to go for the exam right. But the pain is like making me tremble and lost focus. I can't rmb if i managed to finish the paper. But i was sweating and trembling the whole time during the paper.. Totally cmi. In the end i didn't do very well for the paper. Which was quite saddening. only 30/50 :( Luckily Paper 1 not bad and still make it to the first class. lol.

But ever since that time, i nv had bbt everyday anymore. At most like twice per week. Anyway there's one period whereby bbt faded out and there wasn't nice bbt ard. Until last year like that then we have good bbt in the market. So we are all back to the bbt craze! :D

Too bad nus doesn't have it... so i guess i'm going for healthy choices, i.e. juices! hahahaha! Good for myself. :)

NYCO Concert 2010 - 春回大地

The first NYCO Concert all these years. :) Really a happy occasion though there was a lot of unforeseen incidents.

A lot of mixed feelings for myself also. Think i'm the oldest on stage (excluding ding). And well, the only one from my batch. Looking at all my juniors, I'm rather proud of them actually. haha! I'm quite surprised that NYCO can produce this kind of sound and music. I like 大地回春. Nice song!

But i think next time we could really have a solely CO concert. Too much of gz. And i dun really like gz. haha! Too few combine items. :( Thus the alumus were really very free and have too much time in between items. Bonding with the other alumus. :)

And coincidentally we had at least one alumni from each batch. Cool. Me from 04, Julian 05, Mingkwang 06, Dominic, weijian and huifang 07, zhiwen and pauline 08. Wow. not bad. hahaha! Too bad the rest can't come. Exams period. :( But nvm, i hope we are having some alumni outing soon! I miss my people seriously!

And now that the concert is over, dun even know when is the next time i will go back to nyjc and meet the nyco ppl. *shrugs*

五月天!

17 April:

1. Circle Line starts operation.
2. Stadium station is packed with ppl.
3. 2 Pop concerts going on at the same area. (S.H.E & Mayday)
4. Watching a pop rock concert which looks like NDP sometimes. haha! (Fireworks damn cool, but too sudden most of the time)
5. A very HIGH night. Thou nv jump ard and we seat very very far from the stage, still, enjoyed the show overall.
6. They nv sing some of my fav songs of theirs. :( Like 而我知道, 倔強, 時光機, 牙關, 武裝, etc.
   
7. But they sang 瘋狂世界, 天使, 知足, 你不是真正的快樂, 離開地球表面 and blah blah blah. Actually some i've nv heard before. Then i realised actually i know more of S.H.E's songs. haha!
8. Luckily I brought raincoats to the event. Rain has stopped. BUT the seats are all wet (and dirty). haha. Raincoat is not used to cover the body but the seat so we could sit on it. haha. Ppl at Cat 1 are pretty saddening as the whole field is filled with mud due to the really heavy downpour earlier in the afternoon. (my shoes are one of the victims.. not at the stadium but outside ny) Sad cos the shoes are barely a month old at that time.
   

However, Money spent and concert attended. Satisfaction achieved! :)
Will upload some photo here soon. Not much thou. too far and manual focus camera lens. lol!

Pre-concert

Tmr's gonna be NYCO's concert.

Thinking of nyco. It's the place which i had the most memories in my jc life. We went to the coffee shop which i always go with the grp almost after every sat prac. We sat there for 2-3h talking and laughing... discussing abt school stuff, co stuff, and other funny things. But i dunno... the feelings of going to that coffee shop totally changed. haha

Anyway... nyco was the most uneasy time i had in ny too. haha! Cos of some personal reason. lol!

And then, the co room is so different from what it used to be. Dun have the same old feeling sitting in there or even, stepping in there. It's SO messy now! Dunno what they doing. Rubbish all over the floor, dusty floor. Everything lying around. Instruments here and there. Scores here and there. It used to be so neat during our time. tsk tsk tsk.

But anyhows, i'm quite happy to be back. Except that quite sad that my batch ppl and my junior batch ppl can't come back cos of exams. :( They are not even watching. Oh-so-sad. Too bad lah. I miss them, really.

Still, hope the concert will be a success tmr. And that everything will go well! :)

Via's Bday Celebration

Aiya... too many backlogs already. =x

Last sunday had a great time with the Beloveds... Traveled far to the west for fun and then to the north for food. Lol! :)

First to Science Centre. Went there for the Pixar Exhibition. There's quite a few interesting stuff there. The animations so cute. They wanted to steal the drawings back sia. lol! But no lah. crazy meh. In the end, though they say photography not allowed, but guess what, we saw a lot of ppl snapping away sia. Then we were thinking why we so obedient. So... Yup. :D

Spent quite some time there looking all the different stuff. The carousel damn cute lah. the idea behind the whole thing is damn cool. And the disc is spinning SO FAST! like wow! It was great invention.

Watched other short clips which were made at the earlier period. So cute lah! but can see last time the skills really not so good. heh.

Then 3plus. We all hungry liao. So went to mac for some food first. Nuggets and more nuggets! lol

Went back to visit other exhibits. The sound section. Some of the stuff quite interesting. Tried almost all ba.. Got this station where we have to listen to the sound and determine which speaker the sound came from. Got so many speakers so close tgt lor. Difficult. But could have done better. lol

Then another one was this telephone booth. Have to talk while listening to the telephone 'talk'. So it's call listening-while-talking. It's supposed to tell a joke. But damn difficult. cos u have to talk then the phone will 'talk' also. Once you stop, the phone also stop. So in the end, I also dunno what the joke is. haha!

Then there's this showcase of iron dust dancing to music. Damn cool and cute. Magnets are placed and the whole plate filled with iron dust. As the music played. The magnets are programmed in order to attract the iron dust at different speed, amount, angle and so on to form a 'dance'. It says that it takes 40h to cheorograph just 1min of dance. Like WOW!

Then went to the virus section. Quite interesting too. Teach us how the virus looks like and how it is spread blah blah blah. Quite a small area but informative. Just that, i didn't read all of it lah. haha.

After that also almost time le wor. Like so fast! So many exhibits not visited yet. Why last time school nv bring us to science centre more often? Because i fell down during the trip in sec 1? lol!

Ok lah.. then we traveled to AMK for crab beehoon. Had KOI!!! Hohoho. Good to kill our waiting time at the crab queue. By the time we finished all the drinks, haven't even reach our turn to be seated. lol.

I like the beehoon crab. Cos the meat soaked in the soup. Got very sweet taste. :D Other dishes are nice too... Just that really have to wait very long. lol. But worth it i think. A great dinner to end the day with the girls.

Pictures up at FB already. :D Till the next outing with my Beloveds! :)))

New things to do

I've gotten a new task just on fri. I was a bit shocked to hear from them so quickly. In the first place, i was quite surprised that the female boss talked to me for so long and i already believed that i will be given the job.

Anyway, not to keep you in further suspense, I'm going to teach violin in a music school. I think it might sound cool to some ppl, sounds cool to me too! Not until u hear the rest. Though the place is far (either yishun or west coast plaza), i don't find really find it a problem actually.

And so, I'm going to start next fri, or earlier if a make-up class for a student is required. Just 2 days ago i went down to observe the lesson which i will be taking over. 2 altogether, but 1 student didn't come, so i only saw 1. But trust me, it is almost enough to make me think of how i should teach her. According to her mother, she has some illness when she was younger, but all right, that wasn't really the problem. She is a little over active, plus very talkative. haha! She argued with the teacher regarding fingering!

From what the previous teacher said, she learned violin in school, probably went through a few teachers who teaches differently. She can't recognise the physical notes although she can play. (she can only recognise ABCD). So we double up as a theory teacher as well. She has quite an opinion of her own. So, we always complain our music lessons in school to be so boring. Now they let the students play different instrument. Yet, what is the disadvantage? They didn't even teach the students properly. I saw that she didn't even hold the bow properly. Oh, we have too much to complain. haha.

Ok. That was problem 1.

Then again, the other kid is quite similar as well. Playful and can even bargain what he wants to do in the lesson. Hmm.. What's wrong with kids nowadays really. I think the hard time is to discipline them and make them learn what they do not like.

Yup. That was problem 2.

With these 2 problems, it's a challenge already. I've nv taught anyone violin before. I hope i don't freak out when the lesson really starts. Then i thought why i was given these 2 students from the previous teacher. Reason? haha! I don't want to know anymore. Anyway, I don't call this work, i call this testing myself! Good luck to me!

A short rant

I'm all ready to complain share.. but where is the listener?

I'm been thinking abt this so many times. Do you ever have friends whom u are really disappointed with but do not know how to tell them?

This is not a place to say it. I already said it in my heart for so many times and i didn't have a solution for it. I don't need you to know who is it, but maybe take a look at yourself and ask if u have really been a friend. Not just to me, but others as well.

But well, those who aren't really friends wouldn't see this as well. So what's the point.

Trying out Panning shot

My first attempt to do a panning shot. Did it out of boredom. (While i was queuing for JJ's 背对背拥抱 event at bugis) Had countless tries and this is the only one which looks better. And it's still not perfect yet. I think cos the lorry is bigger = easier to focus than the cars. Haha! The rest all cmi. i deleted all of them. =x

But anyway, i'm trying to learn more camera skills and i admire some ppl for their eye for some very nice scenes. I do want to have a different look at the world as well. Rather than too prim and proper. And i do need more practise. haha. Still quite lousy. But ya, i think i'm getting better! But still sucked at night scenes. Can't seem to get the lighting right. ISO for the nikon not high enough also. Have to depend on shutter speed i think, but then my hands not stable enough. Rah. Have to explore more. :)

Feeling stress

It's almost the end of Mar. Come to think of it, don't you find it scary that it's been almost 1 year since i graduated and I have gone nowhere? As in securing myself with something. And yes, i do feel very insecure and all for the past 1 year, not knowing what tomorrow will be like, let alone a month later or a year. And till now, i don't even know what will happen after next week. Will i be back to the same again? or what? I have no idea.

Although I spent the last 3 months mostly at home and meeting up with friends, syco, erhu and some random activities, I don't feel very good abt this kind of lifestyle. And that's why i rebutted sushi's comment. I wasn't really offended, rather, I didn't like the mention of it as if i need someone to remind me i'm jobless. I was quite upset with myself. And moreover, i believed i would be still able to have a wonderful entertainment life even with work. Becos i got very sick of ppl telling me and asking me abt my job searching, i dislike the sight of it. You know, concerns can be a kind of stress too. I felt very stress this whole time. I dislike the feeling the telling any family that i have an interview but in the end i was rejected. I didn't want to tell them i was going for interview but sometimes i couldn't avoid it. So what if i was feeling confident? Was it really my problem?

I feel guilty cos my parents, or rather my family, seems to not push me too hard although i know they are concerned. Then i felt even more guilty because they are more concerned abt whether i still have enough money to spend. I felt that i've already spent enough of my parents' money, esp. on my studies and everything else. They never complained, but they could have gone to a few more places with that kind of money. My sis asked me the same thing when she saw how much money i had left in my acct.

Hais, i got to work harder and be very well prepared this time round. Plus i hope the music goes well too. Although i think i played really badly. =x But seems hopeful.

Sighs, sorry for the sudden change in mood. Ok not really but change in emotion. Paiseh, sometimes can't control. I think i need emotion management. Not so much for anything else but just the being sad part. And the tears flowing part. I think i can handle anger, frustration and all those pretty well. Happiness dun need to handle lah. But then sadness + tears very hard leh... cannot control at all.

Ok. Shall go and sleep. nites everyone.

My spendings

My friend commented that i'm very into online shopping lately. I really am! I have so many things i want to buy. I hoped i had more money to spend on. haha!

Anyway below are my latest buy(s).

Last week Threadless Tee was having their anniversary sale, which was $10 for ALL t-shirts. Would be a good deal for the newest shirts. But in the end i got these.


Deep Tree Diving. Wanted to get this the last time but i had too many orders for myself already. Haha!


Reach for the stars. The animals cute. Only thing i was contemplating the whole time is the colour. cos it's forest GREEN. But i decided to give it a try since it looks quite dark from the picture.

So well, waiting for them to come! :D After adding them to my collection, i have 10 threadless tees. LOL!

But then soon after the sale, new t-shirts came up and i already have an eye for one of them. =x Just one.. haha


And you see why. So cute lah the penguins! lol. Next time sale have to look out. But so far quite a few of the shirt i bought last time already OOS. I have a good eye yea. lol! Hopefully this one doesn't get sell out too fast cos i dun think will be buying soon unless very very very good offer. haha!

Then to replace my existing old and torn cardholder, i got this.


Very nice! But i didn't like the protruding portion of the one. Too much as compared to the one i had. The old one fits nicely into most of my bags' little pocket and my pants. haha! But this one has 2 compartments. behind is transparent which allows my ez-link with Stitch sticker to be seen! I like. :D I wanted a Stitch one, but not much luck with that, so i'm settled with this. :)

And then.. i call this impulse buying. But i never regretted. haha!

DAME CUTE LAH i tell you. Wait till u see the real thing. Each and every one of the five is so cute i do not know which should i double up so that i can use it. haha! And so i decided not to. But to what i know, it's OOS almost everywhere cos it's been quite some time. Maybe some shops still sell, i dun know. but online not really. I think i got the last set left on ebay. So i didn't hesitate at all. =x

Lastly, I've got to show you this.

Like OMG right! And NO, i didn't buy it lah. I saw a online blogshop owner looking for it. So no luck yet. But seriously, i wouldn't mind having one, even if it's just a 15". Haha.

So i went through quite a no. of blogshop which sells cartoon stuff and LOTS OF Stitch stuff. And then again, EVERYTHING abt stitch is SO CUTE i want to buy them all. Luckily i really didn't have the amt of disposable income to do it. hahaha. need to save lah.

Ya so that's all for the moment. I'm saving up for my iPod Touch now. hahaha! I've got the money but they are my savings and i dun want to spend them just like that. Plus 3 months of unemployment didn't get me anywhere near there. I promised myself that i will get it with my 2nd month's pay if i get the job. Cos first month i plan to give my family a good treat. :)

Night Cycling

I realised that there are too many happenings with the asswai ppl. lol.

One day after E-awards, we went to zhiwen's house for some random stuff.. Haha. But i have to admit that i do not like to see every gathering is just so that they can gamble. It's fine to have small gambles for entertainment's sake once in a while, like during big occasions but then not like every week or every other day. Moreover they are all students. But well, it's the kind of life they want and i'm fine with them gambling and me just looking or hanging ard with the other non-gamblers. haha.

So anyway, Last week we met for 5 days and 4 days for this week! Like working like that. See zhiwen see until sian liao. LOL. And yet, seeing her again later.

Night cycling with zhiwen, xunqi and desmond on fri. HAHA! Hand and butt pain. i dunno sia but both my palms are like very stiff. But today better. Ytd was like... Can't really do much.. i was sleeping most of the time anyway. LOL! It goes like this. Started off from ECP at 10pm. Cycled to fort road carpark or something like that for safety brief and then cont the trip. the briefing takes a bit long, so started off quite late too. Then, we got disconnected with the leading pack and we missed a turn at aljunied. By right we could have taken another route, but the organisers took us back to the correct route and i respected that cos they are the organisers. So that took us quite a lot of time cos we could only push our bikes on the pavement in the opposite direction of the one-way traffic. couldn't cycle cos too many obstacles on the pavement lah. Got to MS area.. Rested for a while and carried on to Jalan Kayu. Prata was all right, drink was good until some fly flew right into the cup. -.- and there's still bandung inside which i wanted! Tsk.

Then we had to cut the journey cos it would have taken up too much time. Actually we only went one more stop. Stopped somewhere at lentor ave, and some decided to cont with the original plan to cycle to orchard and then back to ECP. While the rest of us took the choice of going back to ECP straight. But eventually we didn't make it back to ECP. Somemore, we broke off again from the front grp. Hmm... need some reflection here.

Ok.. classes at CFA have all ended i think... so that's all first! :D Going to zhiwen's chalet! haha. Asswai again.

SCO and E-awards

Watched 2 free concert last weekend! Best! :D

First was SCO Concert featuring Hu Bing Xu. Thanks to SCO for the tix. =x Anyway, I think he still has his charisma on stage. Sometimes i do miss the times he was still with SCO. A different feeling altogether. Anyway, other than the conductor being awesome, the soloists were fantastic too! i realised i've nv seen a sanxian concerto before. So it was quite a fresh thing for me. Didn't stay long after the concert. Looking forward to the next SCO concert! With Ling Hock Siang and Qu Jian Qing as soloists. Woohoo! And watching it with the rest also lah..

The next day went to watch SG E-awards with AssWai.. haha. Had a great time cheering for JJ. HAHA! I wanna see JJ!!! (ok. that day will come soon) Oh and Budak Pantai was as good as ever. Really love their songs and their singing. Apparently it got to the headlines for newspaper report for E-awards the following monday. Some parts were quite boring but the rest were good. :D Oh! it's free thanks to the performing asswai ppl. Yeah. Although all of us hope we could perform, i'm glad to be there to watch too. :) While we would love to perform, the performers think we have better benefit cos we can watch all the performances while they are restricted to their own space. Hmm.. the grass is always greener on the other side ba. haha. Still we had our usual HK cafe supper and cabbed home after that.

Thank u asswai for such a nice weekend. :)

OCBC Cycle 2010 - I survived

Alarm goes off at 4am of 7 March 2010.

(Actually i turned it off and only woke up at the alarm from my sis' phone. LOL!)

Soon we are on our way in a cab to the F1-pit. Reached there slightly before 5am, waited for the rest to arrive and went to get our bike. My first instinct was, bike quality is not bad, looks new, better than those we usually rent at ECP. The whole bike is rather new with the better kind of gear control grip and rather new seat too. Just that. it's really hard.

Flag-off for 40km was at 6am. But by 5.45am, a lot of bikers have already gathered at the starting point ready for the race while we were still having our drinks and food from Starbucks counter. Oh at least we had something before going off.

Good thing the weather was really good. And probably cos it's very early in the morning. No sun yet. Feels damn good cycling. Sometimes i feel myself going too fast but every other second another person overtakes me! Haha. Stopped once to have a drink. That's all. Some motivators really did their job well and it does make a difference. :D The fast riders too give me some motivation to go faster. And that's probably why we finished the whole race much earlier than we expected of ourselves.


Yea. Quite proud of myself. haha! Maybe my category got lesser ppl. Women 19-24years old. Haha!

All of us after the race. Too tired to stand up to take photo.. but then all ready to go for out breakfast! HAHA!


My bib no. and medal. Heard last year's medal was gold. This year is silver. Like downgraded. hahaha!

Ya.. That's all. Looking forward to the next! :D

Nothing much...

Ytd this time... I was still at Mac with Via and sushi.. Finishing up our convo and getting ready to go... We like long time nv see like that.. Sit there and talk for so long. haha! Reminds me of our regular supper meet ups last time. Ever since my graduation... we haven't been meeting up for supper that much anymore... And now that the prata shop is undergoing some changes, the new signboard is up, but not opened yet. So ya, haven't been going there. And of cos i'm not really keen in having supper anymore (although ytd's mac was really satisfying. haha) =P

Afterall was quite emo abt something ytd and was hoping to find some consolation somewhere. That perhaps made me end up buying some snack from ntuc before meeting the 2 of them. And then was thinking through. I can't really blame anyone or anything. Yah.. and that's life. Ignorance is really bliss in this case. I hoped i didn't know. But ya anyway we still will at the end of the day.

只能说，不走运。

Continue exercising!

Went cycling with er-jie this morning... A fulfilling trip i think. Third time (only) taking the route from ECP (mac area) to end of Changi Beach (park) and back.

Took the higher bike... Really easier to handle.. Just that legs cannot touch the floor. So have to keep on going. Which is good in a way. Anyway there wasn't many ppl on a weekday so it's fine. No crowd = good = faster. But the whole trip is super tiring plus the sun was really strong today. And i actually wanted to give up somewhere along the way there and tell my sis that we will not go the whole route today. But i didn't. Still carried on and got myself all the way back. In the end i got myself tan lines. hands and legs. -.-

Ya... Dunno is too long nv cycle or simply too long nv exercise. haha! Haven't been exercising much in feb. BAD. Like last week went to gym, omg one of the tracks made my thighs ache like dunno what. And arms are aching too! But arms i was thinking it's a combi of Wii and the workout. hahaha! More Wii over the weekend and i should gym next week. haha!

Anyway might be going again next week before the actual event... anyone wants to come?

Still the same

Been quite a few days since i last updated. It's almost 3am now and i got a whole day of traveling and visiting later in the day!

Anyway, just to come here and say i'm still surviving, and, yes, i am still jobless. Everything is not coming easy, and i'm struggling to send out my resumes. oh my, i really need to get a life before every suay thing happens to me.

1. Seriously like how many times does your earpiece wire gets hooked by someone who walks pass you? I already got it once somewhere late last year. And i experienced it again just ytd! How lucky i was. And this time it was worse cos that person managed to break the inner wires and the whole rubber tubing from its base. I dunno how it was done but yes, the force was that strong. I was very very heartbroken over the earpiece cos it was a gift and it's pretty new. :( I hope i can find another one. note: THAT PERSON DIDN'T EVEN APOLOGISE! what has the world become? :(((

2. Because i haven't been to the gym for 2 whole weeks, i decided to go today cos there were no plans. I got everything ready and got there just to realise i forgot the locker keys. Brilliant. There's nothing i can do cos i dun have my shoes. And i can't lock my bag in as well. Damn smart. I can't even bathe properly cos the toiletries are all inside the shoe locker. Thanks. In the end i took a quick bathe and went out of gym. :(

Probably the only happy thing over the past few days was the movie with joelt, des, daryl, joelc, xunqi, junhe, via and mel. Friends always manage to make me forget the unhappiness. I need more friends. Oh actually i need a job more. Ok anyway we watched Valentine's Day. Nice movie, touching plot though sometimes hilarious, but ya, sweet ending. jh is classic, went to the wrong place when he's already late. lol. Lucky thing i called him before he got out of the train station at vivo. Erm. we are supposed to meet and watch at ms. Yup, so he's super duper late. lol.

Dessert at MOF after that. I love it. :) End of story.

And today i got Raving Rabbids TV party! Quite cheap! :D Finally! Er-jie and i had a few rounds before i went to bathe and start typing here. Haha. New game for the (chinese) new year. :)

Hope tmr will be nice too. To san-yi's house! :D Food and mj. HEH.

CNY 2010

Actually i'm tired.. but i want to wait for the dslr batt to be charged. :( So update a bit.

CNY has been so far so good. Actually better than i expected. Still in the midst of collecting angbao process... but counted whatever i have already. HAHA! Still not bad. I'm not going to say it here in case anyone robs me. lol!

Didn't do anything crazy but yup. at least not as bad as i thought it would be. haha! More visiting to come. Another one tmr.. To my parents' friend house. More angbaos. I like. Moral of the story: u can't decide how many relatives you have, so ask your parents to get more friends and visit them. =P

Everyone's been really nice to wish me a good job when they gave me angbao! I'm happy. Hee. And i hope it works. But i've been lazy these 2 weeks and didn't send any resume. So yup. I will start sending again this week. Heh.

Other than my issue, everyone's been telling er-jie that this is the last year she will be getting and wanzhen jiejie told her that her turn will come in bao-ing and angbaos and start having headaches as to who she have given or not. But in the end, she's getting married next year instead of this year, only ROM this year. So she will still be getting next year. But come to think of it now, ROM is considered married right? LOL. so confusing.

Had some interesting photos and videos for this new year.. will post up when all is ready. :D Nites ppl. And Happy CNY! :)

家家有本难念的经

Today mum make a big fuss out of something again. She was cooking something and she left the house with the fire on to continue boiling the food. She didn't mention it. I found it out on my own when i got to the kitchen. I didn't know when i was supposed to off the fire so i left it on first and thought i could go back to check later or wait for her to come back. But well. By the time i rmb that thing is still there cooking, it was when i could smell the burning smell from my study room. And well, dad who was in our room didn't detect it anyway. So I already knew what would be coming. I mean look, yup i know it's kinda my fault as well since i didn't turn off the fire. BUT i really like to say that i seriously have a very bad sense of smell. And then again, she even forgot what she was cooking even after i tell her that the thing got burnt! And the next moment she got all caught up with yelling and babbling whatever she could. While i just kept quiet throughout.

I know it's something normal. but sometimes i'm really scared when i look at how she flare up so easily. Esp. when she keeps saying maybe she's going to die cos she keep forgetting everything. I dunno but i didn't want to talk back either. She makes me stay away from talking to her sometimes because u dunno when she's going to take it hard again. I feel that my other family members have low EQ on this. including my mum -.- She sometimes say we got to learn to know when to say things and when to not. And say the right things in a right way and attitude and tone. I do agree that sometimes that why my dad and da-jie complains so much, about the wrong thing and i feel injustice for my mum. But they are all the same when my mum wants to complain abt the other ppl. I dunno. If i could, i really want to ask all of them to shut up. But I can only say here, 家家有本难念的经.

Staying home is good, as some would say. But i dunno if u see the situation in my home, would you still like to be me. sighs. I just got to bear with it until i get a job. And i hope it will be soon.

i really wish to run away sometimes... but i dun have the courage to, and i dunno where i can go.

In preparation for cny

It's already 2h36min into CNY eve. haha. Are u not excited? Ok. Actually i'm not really excited. I hope things are going to be good this new year... Since i'm all prepared for new year. I'm so prepared that i have excess of new clothes to wear and can't decide which to wear for what day. haha! First time.

For at least the past few years... cny was quite last min shopping. and till even i could be still looking for shoes or clothes or whatever. But this year like 1 month before cny i'm all prepared, clothes, shoes, even bag! And hair too. hahah! Way before ya. =)

First time try to dye my hair too... sis bought the foam one to try... She very enthu want to help me dye, so good lor. hahah! And below is the outcome.. on first day! :D I think now the colour even more obvious liao.



Anyways... i dunno... but i think i've got to prepare myself mentally and physically for whatever is coming to me. I really do prefer the maternal side cos they focus on more fun and interaction rather than boring life topic. With them it's always the laugh-it-out sessions with nonsense and all. But the other side is like. I dunno but i just can never blend into them. Dun ask me why. I dun think i'm not an anti-social person. Just that you know. to some people it's just hard. I dunno if it's really my problem or what. But ya... Every year i wish for the better and it's always the same. Well. whatever it is then. :D

Just have to 见招拆招. Wish me luck!

CNY in a week

Wah.. can someone tell me why time passes so fast? It's already into the 2nd week of Feb.. and it's going to be CNY next week!!! OMG.

I'm only half looking forward to it... I totally can foresee what is going to happen during CNY. Every single relative is going to start asking abt my life now. and i totally hate to repeat everything over and over again. And someone just struck me dumb and deaf? I hate CNY when it's during any turning point of my life. Give me a break ppl. Give me the space and attention in another way please. I'm sure i can be better than this.

Or why not just make everyone dumb? I dunno but maybe that's a good idea. HAHA.

Feb already

It's been a month my dear readers... not just one month of the year.. But also a month since i last worked. -.-

I think it's really just me...

Talking about close friends...

One of the sat, supposed to meet the beloveds... But last min got canceled and postponed to the following week cos the attendance was poor. To speak the truth i wasn't really happy abt it... cos I was all prepared and was planning for other stuff the following week. i.e. meeting other friends whom i have not met for a long time. At first i wanted to ps the beloveds but in the end i decided not to. And because of that, the other plans had to make way till much later (like a few weeks later).

Before that the organiser says that she's sad that whenever she organises an outing, the response is poor. I feel for what she said and therefore typed this post in our group blog. But in the end the organiser didn't turn up for the meet up cos she has something else on. Obviously i dun see the point! I was quite pissed about this whole thing. I dun understand cos she complained, I gave up my meet up and still have to apologise to my other friends cos of this, but in the end she was the one who didn't turn up and wasn't paiseh at all. Then why bother to tell me those things? I dunno. Too bad i didn't know that my buay song sms was saved to drafts instead of being sent out. I felt so cheated for the entire thing. In the end i dunno i put in so much effort for what. My whole morning was ruined by the sms i received. Thanks.

Fine, ANYTHING. I wouldn't even say a thing if next time anyone is not turning up. And i wouldn't hestitate to give up this for something else. Sorry but if this is what friends meant to u all, then why shouldn't i follow?

Jan 2010 Part 1 ;)

Aiyo.. like very long nv update again. Kind of forgotten what i did already. =x

I haven't even updated anything for January yet!

JB-ed with yushi, sylvia, jan, siyih and mer. A nice one-day getaway i say. Maybe even nicer for them cos they got to work and all after coming back. And i'm the slacking one. Went to shop at City Square (or city what??), Lunched at Kim Gary. Had a nice and full lunch before walking ard. Got a dress and a polo tee. :) And landyard for er-jie, the exact same stitch one i have. I know she's been eyeing it. Then seafood dinner at ERM! I can't rmb the place, have to see picture. haha! Nice and cheap dinner. Salted-egg sauce crab, Crayfish, big prawns, stingray, toufu and veg. We finished EVERYTHING! lol.

Klunch-ed with yuhui, jiale, han and chris. Like wow, i haven't been there for such a long time. As in haven't sing K for such a long time! No time to go more often leh. But Han didn't sing AT ALL, otherwise it's a rather good session. Went down to JP to look for sis after that. Shopped ard and got a dress for CNY. And actually now i've got excess clothes to last for cny! Yay! :)

Went for cycling twice already this month. On 10th and 24th. Have to train for the OCBC Cycle 2010 mah... Very tiring but very satisfying. From the rent shop near to Mac all the way to the end of Changi Beach Park. It's about 40km. 2plus hours to complete the whole thing... But damn tiring. But it's quite an enjoyable process. Looking forward to more! But CNY coming... should have no time to go le ba. :(

So the canceled date with my beloveds became a family dinner instead. Coincidentally everyone was home for dinner that day. Like really cos we didn't really plan to meet but erjie and i saw dajie just on our way to bedok int to meet royston kor-kor, called dad and mum separately and they were near int too. Wah.. Then saw mum's friend. So we went to Aston tgt. :)

Then met the beloveds on 23rd to celebrate char's bday. Was quite a rush for me cos i need to get a few things done. Plus with all the things i was carrying. A surprise visit to Mike and Simon at taka. I wasn't there to look for them lah, i was there to look for birthday card. In the end, saw them and talked for quite a while. I miss working with mike. Haha! Met the girls at Raffles mrt. Walked over to Don's pie for crab beehoon and... unfortunately they just stopped having crabs cos of cny. Like where got so qiao one?! So we went to Sushi Tei instead. Well, not bad. :)

Then got to rush down to nafa to meet minhui, yvonne and joyce cos got gig. First time gig at that kind of place. haha. And i think we will not go that kind again? Cos really very smelly and bad condition too! Like no normal chair?! Only yvonne got the normal chair got she got no choice what. haha! Then the other 3 of us had to sit high stool! Then lighting was poor, so can't see the scores properly. Some have to guess lah. So we screwed up the last song but i dun think the audience really care as well? Came back with smelly hair and smelly clothes. Eek.

I finally cut my hair and rebond again! I think i really 1 year nv go cut hair liao. Think this time should keep trimming.. see can dun need to rebond or not. haha! Sat there for 3.5h. Listening to some random cny songs which i nv heard before and not nice to hear also, using wifi from hp (It's really one of the greatest invention!) and play DS lite. Haha!

Really tired liao.. update another time! Nites. :)

Yah!

Finally finished updating abt the trips... Oh.. forgot abt the JB one... aiyo.. will do so soon.

Actually i realised that i really very slow in updating abt overseas trips... Cos i took so long to finish the recent ones... and I really didn't finish the HK CO camp one in 2007 and the China trip in 2008. LOL! Both only have part 1. HAHA! =x I know that's like quite backdated... and seriously i can't rmb those details anymore also...

Moral of the story: Either really take down the details during the trip or just blog it all once you are back the next time.

Hais... no motivation at all.

Bad lah i know. Although i'd really wanted to share both experience cos it's something not everyone will experience. Of cos HK is common lah.. but the camp is not mah... And that China trip was one memoriable one.. cos it's when the sichuan earthquake happened. and places which i visited are so beautiful and i dun think many will visit at my age. haha!

Well.. if i have the energy to do it. i will =x

First time on Pri Sch Kids Erhu.

Last fri went to help laoshi teach his pri school kids... all beginners.. Like wow! My first time and... Really difficult to control them. I almost died.

I asked them what do they know and what did they learn last week or before. They say they dunno! Best, i went over to the other erhu instructor teaching the bigger kids for syf if she knows what the beginners are learning, she doesn't know! And she said that they have been hun-ing all the while. Ok fine, she's not the one who teaches them anyway. Luckily we have a parent volunteer there to give me some hints.

First got problematic students dun want to prac, dun want to play when i say play together. I ask them why are they not playing, they either do not answer me or say that they dun know. Pengs. But there are a few nicer and clever students as well, picking up the stuff pretty quickly. Although not perfect, but the idea is there.

But the students really lack discipline. Super noisy, super dun listening, super playful. Super want to go break and super dun want to come back after break.

If he ask me to go again, I will, but have to use better tactics liao. Must make them listen, practise, and learn more things.

Then i recall myself in my schooling days, i was like super fierce and serious when i teach the younger ones. I nv had trouble making them listen to me. Or rather they are all scared of me to begin with. Ok... that was more of the primary school days. And probably some of sec school days. I was already not so fierce in sac. lol. But i dunno, very hard to be fierce nowadays leh. Maybe old liao. haha!

HK Trip 11-15 Dec 2009 - Part 3

Day 3

Our planned Ocean Park trip with Von. Gab didn't go with us cos he wants to do his own shopping for IT and gadgets.

Before meeting Von, 3 of us had our breakfast at 海皇粥品.

We had porridge and shared the 炸肠. It's really nice!! The porridge nice too! :) And quite cheap leh... So we went back there for breakfast the next day again. :)

After that went to meet Von for the day. :)


Failed attempt 1.

Failed attempt 2.

Failed attempt 3. We didn't try again. We already asked 3 different ppl to help us take lor. LOL! Even the person with a DSLR/SLR couldn't take one with us and the 'Ocean Park' logo. Damn jialat, dunno what to say. But ya, you know that we have been there. haha!

Von and han initially didn't want to play any rides... Actually i dun really know we go there for what. Just to prove that we have been there before? I wanted to see the animals, but i know they didn't want. So it's fine. But anyway kim and i managed to convince them to take the raging river with us. haha!


Us on the 'boat'. I volunteered to be in front and kim at the back so that the 2 others are sandwiched between us. This is taken along some curve... they were urging me to keep the camera quickly.. and we were really noisy... Dunno what we were talking about but really noisy!!


Anyway we were terribly wet after the ride. I think cos we were heavier as we filled the boat and we are all not exactly light (except for han), so the water splashed over us really badly. As u can see, hair all wet. top wet as well.


Von and han rested while kim and i continued to explore other rides. Ya.. the mine train. Quite fun... but not really the thrilling kind. Mild.


We managed to convinced the 2 of them to take Viking as well! But von was really scared. She couldn't let go her hands at all. While han was quite selective of the rides lah.. and she dared. haha.


Kim and i went to this. Damn fast. the first drop was 'wooooo'. Haha!

We did the cockscrew as well... better than the mine train... not bad... but could be better. Like wow! at least we did something cool there.

Then came the worst part of the whole thing. lol! Han and von initially wanted to take the ferris wheel... but it was too long and they came out half way. We didn't know they went off, they didn't know we were still at the same place. so kim and i had to walk back to entrance to meet them. And kim was really complaining throughout the whole walk back. LOL. really bth. and i was laughing at her throughout too. =P

We left cos von mentioned abt going to the branded factory outlets... we asked for the add and all, thinking to go the next day, but in the end gab says he can bring us there on that day. So we went lor. But didn't buy anything. Not my kind of thing really.

Then we went for dinner tgt although wasn't our original plan. Dinner at 庸记. Had roast goose and some other dish. Nice dinner but more expensive than our any other meal. haha. Anyway i think we all damn sia-suay-ed cos we were really damn noisy. Wah really bth. luckily we wun see them again. i think every other table must be cursing us. haha!


The family photo 1, in the wrong order.


The family photo 2. Insisted empress to sit beside emperor. haha!

And that's all for the meeting. They continued to shop at Central while 3 of us went to 女人街. Did we go back to the hotel first? I rmb it was still quite early... and they initially didn't want to go out anymore. It happened but i can't rmb which day was it. lol! Did we walk there? Can't really rmb but i think we did. lol! Omg i have damn bad memory, next time must write down. haha.

So anyway we took like super long to get to 女人街 itself cos we were distracted by the other things/shops. Went to esprit outlet and got a few pieces. not many lah... Walked down 女人街. Haven't really changed much. And coincidentally saw Kevin there! Like wah... we dun even meet in Sg cos we stayed quite far away. haha. Caught up a bit and continued.

Eventually Kim got really tired and didn't want to walk back. So she got a cab back while han and i slowly make our way back.. like really slowly. haha! Cos we shopped more along the way. Did i mentioned that i already spent most of my money by then? Bought a few pieces of clothing and a pair of boots. HAHA! Super 夸张 but it's true. Think i was left with 400+HKD by then. And we still had 2 days to go leh. or 1 and half. but still!


Day 4
Went to 海皇 for breakfast again... Another cheap and good breakfast.

Then over to 东冲 to shop at the factory outlets.. Got a cap for jiaqi over there and a coach dinner bag/crutch! Wah.. must be thinking.. i still got money ah. hahaha! Initially i wanted to change more money but they didn't want me to and said that they have enough if i need it.

We had Mac for lunch over there cos there wasn't much of a choice. Tried their shrimp burger... it's not bad.. like Mos. haha!

Went back to hotel and then to meet han's friend for dinner. Dinner at 糖朝. Nice dinner too! Han's friend's friend is cantonese and he ordered everything for us. Damn good. lol. Nice dinner as well! And we didn't pay for it. The guys did. and so i didn't know how much is it. haha! Then we went to 女人街 again... Walked damn far too. From 尖沙咀 to 旺角. That's like 4 MTR stops! lol. Anyway by this time.. i'm left with 125HKD. lol!!!

And we still went shopping. I didn't get anything else le lah... but i saw the keychain shop and decided that i want to do something for the royal family. I went in while the other 2 girls shop for denim skirts and shorts. Aiyo... I asked how much is the 5 keychains together. She said 175, i thought it was all right but after 1 sec i realised that i didn't have enough money! HAHA! i thought i was quite funny so i put down that thing and went out of the shop. That person damn nice come and ask me why i didn't want it. And i honestly said that i got not enough money. HAHA! And she super nice to lower the price to 100HKD for me! Like a lot lah... i was quite shocked to hear that leh... i was quite prepared to give her everything liao. hahaha. And so i got christmas presents for them le. :)

Then we went to get the egg tarts han's friend got from Macau. After that we totally cmi and took back to hotel. Started to pack everything into our luggage. Not bad.. everything fitted in quite nicely.

Day 5
Nothing much... Had the egg tarts for breakfast. Damn lucky lah... dun have to get our own breakfast. Cos the 2 of them realised that they didn't have much money left as well. haha! And imagine we already didn't pay for the dinner on previous night. I can't imagine.

Cos we slept really late that night... We woke up late too! After checking out, went to get the 恒香老婆饼. Aiyo.. i not enough money until have to use card lor. Heh. =x And they are really heavy.

After that went back to hotel le. Cos we no money plus still tired. hahaha. Slacked at the cafe downstairs. used their internet for a while but the whole system so weird. after the 20 min usage is up, the com will auto shut off and no matter how hard i tried, there's no more response from the com. dunno what they do.

Slack until the time to leave.. we were the first to board the bus and we all slept all the way to the airport. Luckily we checked in online. If not have to queue and queue. tsk tsk tsk. Yup and didn't buy anything at the airport cos no money liao... But had Popeye for lunch though. Thanks to han for the meal. :) I was left with 25HKD and i brought it back all the way from there. lol!


Yup! That's the end of the trip. Actually it's quite a tiring trip. But it was really good. All girls talk and no restriction! I like. So Qin!! If this year we go anywhere again. i'm not asking my sis at all. haha! Yeah.

Sidenote: My Stitch is Still very famous over there, his things are ALL over the place.. i wished i could bring all back. but ya.. nv lah of cos. No money and space lah. -.- But Yay! I LOVE STITCH! haha!

HK Trip 11-15 Dec 2009 - Part 2

Day 2

On our way to breakfast!!


Dim sum breakfast at 莲香楼. The super traditional HK styled dim sum, where ppl push the carts around. It's the kind of eating place u got to share table with other eaters. It was really kind of the locals to help us when we need. It's kinda a messy place, but the food is nice definitely. And it's cheap too! Oh! To speed things up and to prevent ur fav food from getting sold out, wait at the kitchen door and get the food on your own. Yea.. nice place recommended by han. :)


After our hearty breakfast, proceeded to our next stop - 長洲.. first time there! Got to take a ferry for abt 1h. We took the express one there and the normal one back. Cos we dun have a choice. But fine we got a taste of both. :)

Walked ard the little island. It's really quite small, but there was quite an activities going on the streets. more of tourism of cos. Bought some of the gifts there, tried some bread from their bakery, (which is really nice!), and went for lunch thereafter.




Our lunch place... Just along the riverbank... there were a whole stretch of restaurants over there. Actually we don't know which is nice, so just chose 1 and try lor. haha.


Apparently the food is not bad but the 辣子鸡 is like too much (spicy) for us. But the fish, oyster egg and veg was good! And all these right... only 168HKD. Means to say less than 10SGD each.


We went back after the lunch cos there was nothing else on the island. And it was already ard 3+ when we got back. Kinda tired, so we got some snacks and drinks at MIX cafe. They serve lotsa different juices! But i had Honey Cinnamon Latte. (if i didn't rmb wrongly) And above is the classic pancakes which both kim and i had. Han got fruit tar from another place.

After the rest, we finally got up and went for our shopping round. Walked over to H&M! Like seriously bought a lot... But our biggest spender there was Han. She got like almost everything. And ya.. i got a few tops from there as well. :)

Then we walked with Kim to Mariott to get something... Yes. we walked.. and it was quite far... hahaa! but all right cos of the cool weather.. but a rather long walk though. afterwhich we were all deadbeat, like seriously. lol.

We were supposed to meet von but we were all dead tired from the shopping and walk ard all day. so didn't. Went back hotel to rest a while and put the shoppings down cos it was still early!!! err.. i also dunno why we so early lah. lol! Did we have dinner? i can't even rmb. hahaha!

Then i asked them to go out and walk again. hee. This time we walked towards 油麻地. But didn't go out for very long cos shopped at this shop for a long time, bought some clothes and jackets and return to the hotel. We got like membership for that shop lah.. hahha! a bit 夸张 right.. but that was it. Heh.

HK Trip 11-15 Dec 2009 - Part 1

Err... time to update abt my HK trip hor? LOL!

Ya.. after going through a lot of trouble and coordination, finally the 3 of us embark on this 5D4N trip.

Day 1

Took an early flight on Airbus 380 there. First time on the airbus. Han and i went upstairs to take a look. LOL!

Coincidentally, I saw Haizhen-gugu and her husband aka 姑丈 at the HK airport. We were sent to our hotels in the same mini-bus. :) Took a photo but it's in her cam.

Anyways.. Checked in to Eaton Hotel at the end of Nathan Road.. and then went for our dinner.. That was abt 5pm. Haha!

Our first meal in HK. My 排骨捞面 or something like that. =x Anyway it's at the 茶餐厅 just opposite our hotel.

After that we started our walking journey... Walked to 尖沙咀. All the way to Sogo. Didn't really buy anything. (Not yet). haha. It got dark really early cos it's winter. Ard 6pm it's already all dark like it's 8pm. And we thought it was late already. lol. Cos we started early mah...

So we stopped over at a dessert shop for some dessert lor. It was abt 8pm. Me and my mango grass jelly! It's cool! :) Wanted something else but they didn't have already. But this is nice too! Yeah.

After which, we walked back to our hotel. Got ourselves some snacks and yeah... enjoy the rest of the night having HTHT! heheh.

Ok.. will continue again tmr. Haha. (i think i will)

Year 2010 Resolution :)

Yeah.. So for a good start for 2010. (Er ok... it's already 11 days past the start of 2010) I did some really fun stuff. Though most of the time was spent rather badly. Will update on the happenings soon. (when i have the time to upload pictures too. or just paste the link from fb. haha)

What i want to do in Year 2010:
1. Get myself a perm job.
2. Find the motivation to register for driving. Actually i do have it in mind. But have nv carried it out. =x
3. Lose some weight. (which i've already been trying)
4. See more of the world! Which will probably start with the Penang trip in May. But i hope to go somewhere further and that i've nv been before.
5. Listen to more good music.
6. Attend more arts events.
7. Have more savings.
8. Possess a iPod Touch. :) Probably the 2nd month into my first job. Cos the first month's pay is to be used to give my loved ones a good treat. :) Be nice to me now. haha!

However, to fulfill no. 2, 4, 6, 7 and 8, I want to use my own money for everything, and so the prerequisite is no. 1. And i'm really trying now. Mum ever offered to pay for my whole driving course, but i thought i should do it myself. I think their money should be kept for themselves. If my sis can do it on her own, i can too!

I thought it went quite ok today. Preparations really helped. I wasn't nervous at all. Had everything ready to say and ready to ask. Thanks to my sister. Always the greatest helper. :)

Yup. I'm quite looking forward to what is installed for me this year. If it's good, I'll be really happy. If it's not, I will just have to take it as it comes. What haven't I been through anyways? Haven't 2009 shocked me enough?

First Step

Finally did some cleaning to the com desk... And TADA!!



Really clean now.. And more space too! :) but the other parts of study room still... lol! Dun need to say much. Will make use of the time i have to tidy up... if not mummy keep nagging and nagging... really bth... But there's still a lot to go for the room lah.. Jiayou ba. Haha!

Bye 2009!

How long have you not see a new post here? (that is if u are still come frequently like i do) HAHA!

Anyway, though 2009 was an eventful year, it was not the best. Lots of changes to life. I didn't really have a lot of posts for the year as well. Abt 100. Merely there.

2009 ended with a half-happy-half-sad note.
Happy? Why not? End of year is always the party and gathering time.
I had my super fair share of fun with my Beloved COgang, SYCO peeps and Royal Family. It was almost all i could ask for, although i hope there were more ppl i could meet up with. But well, it's all right, we still have other times to do so.

Sad! Cos i lost some of my things. wallet, job, some money during mj, some tears here and there and ya.. most importantly, my direction. The only thing i gained in the process was freedom.

Though work had not been the best, but it's at least better than nothing. I do like the company, as in the nature of the company, although I do not agree with their management style and the rigidity in such an arts company. I do not understand why an arts company has to be so business-liked and artistic reasons was to the minimum. Or at least that is what i feel. Anyway, colleagues are rather cold, there is no empathy between them. And well, that's the end anyhows.

What happened in 2009:
- First 4 months were packed with school, work, internship and syco. There wasn't much time for any other regular activities except for some small meet-ups with the regular friends. Which i was grateful for, if not the whole semester would have been boring.

- Glad to have the chance to travel with friends twice in a year: Taiwan with Qin in May and HK with Kim and Han in Dec. Must have thought that i'm rich. But ya, the 2nd trip was much more like a opening trip with my ny girls. That's why i went. Nonetheless, I enjoyed myself so much during the 2 trips. So many moments to rmb.

- Happy to have the chance to attend 2 pop concerts - JJ Lin on 28 Mar and Stefanie Sun on 11 July. The artistes are just awesome. And we should really support local talents so that they will always come back!! :)

- Other than that, attended quite a few good concerts/shows in the year. Remembering off-hand: Cats, 天冷就回来2009, Broadway Beng, Budak Pantai and some good SCO concerts.

- First time organising outings for the maternal side cousins. Which turned out to be really fun! Once to Pengerang in Feb, and once just the older girls in July. It was really fun with them. We all came from different age group and yet can really click well. Looking forward to more this year. Time to plan for some during CNY. hee. (And forget it, far from possible for the other side)

- Though not always jobless, I have been working on a temp staff basis. With 2 positions related to CO. Yea, i do like the nature of both work, i.e. CO. And i really do not mind working for either of them. But I didn't really like the idea of temp staff because there's no sense of belonging at all. And of cos, I feel that i'm being exploited for doing more than I should. And I hope that 2010 will bring better chances in getting a perm job. Well of cos, I got to be more prepared for such chances. On the side note, it is also becos the temp jobs only pays me hourly and obviously it is very little. Stop complaining if u have a stable job paying more than what i have. Esp. in front of me. I feel very worthless.

- Another good point to mention. I think i've spent sufficient time with the SYCO peeps in the year and we have had quite a few good performances together! Don't u all agree with me? From annual concert to SYF presentation to Outdoor concert to Chamber recital! I still think our tian wang and tai yang was cool and it sends chill down my spine and goosebumps up when i watch it. Touched. Really! :) Really love the SYCO peeps!

- As for my Beloveds, I am really glad we got over the year tgt again. I was happy that i was there for every single celebration you can find in the year. And I want to do the same this year. It feels happy and blessed to have friends with me for my special day every year and i hope u all feel the too! :) So be sure you are there for mine and the others as well. :D

- Started to gym in Aug. Had a good time in gym and had a good time having runs and all, to keep fit and loose some fats of cos. And proud to say, finished my first 10km run in Dec for Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon. I didn't think i would be able to do it before I really finished.

- There are some friends whom i didn't meet in 2009 at all. Was a bit disappointed cos all the plannings didn't come into action. I tried and failed. But I will try again. I don't believe that everyone would be as busy or busier than me. Com'on friends, we should really meet if not it's really hard to keep up, and it will only be worse every year. All right?

- Thanks to MOE, i started taking erhu private lessons again. After stopping lessons for 5 years, it was really a challenge to take it up again, esp. from a different teacher this time. But i didn't regret and i realised that i found back the passion in it. To excel in it. All these time I was just smoking through with what i rmb and what i thought i knew. But this is the time i really make some changes and improve to what i should have already gotten years ago. If it makes sense to u. haha.

- From the previous point, I was also granted one of my greatest wish - to get a new erhu! I was really happy when i got it. At a not-very-cheap price. My bestest gift of the year. My dad paid for it. He didn't even ask if I could get something cheaper. I really thank my parents for such supportive spirit and actions all these years.

Yup. That's all i'm able to think of. It is an eventful year, whether happy or sad. Well, Sometimes i felt that i didn't really do my best in the year. And definitely it's not one of the best years for me, cos of many reasons. And in fact, quite unlucky in my opinion. Even the good happenings didn't help me in thinking as such. But after reflecting, i'm sure we all have to move on. And well, I can only say that i'm looking forward to a better year 2010. Wash away all my unluckiness please.

Lastly, I thank all my friends who have shown me concerned in one way or the other regarding all the unhappy issues i had throughout the year. I really appreciated each and every one of you and what you have done for me. Without you guys (mostly girls), i would have been much worse than what i feel now. Let's strive together in year 2010! :)

Almost the end.

Countdown of 7 working days till the end of my current job. Actually i'm quite reluctant to leave. I do like this job. I like to work in SCO. I do not really like the nature of my job but i like the nature of the company.

Well, I didn't choose to leave. Just that i'm not needed there anymore. Apparently i'm just not the ideal person to do the job according to them. It's fine. I do understand their concerns as every company is concerned as well.

It's just that I didn't expect it to come so fast. Before the trip I was still asking abt it and was told the possibility of extending the current temp contract. After the trip I was told it's over. That's it. What a blow. But i have to accept it and of cos. carry on and get on to the next job (not that i've found it yet). Yah, I need to find a new job, like soon.

Need to start packing up the things i have in office. Haha!

破碎的梦

一切都已成定局，不必再多说了。我也没有选择的权利。就这样吧。
我觉得今年我真的是跌到了谷底。虽然一直抱着正面、积极的态度，但就是什么都不如意。
希望过了今年，运气也会好转。
没办法看到自己的未来，真的失去了方向。

First weekend of Dec

Woah... First weekend of Dec over... we are another step nearer to 2010 now. Hmm... That's really fast! I'll be spending the 2nd weekend of Dec in HK! In like 3 days... I will be flying to HK with kim and han! omg. That is so... i dunno. Anticipating. I hope the trip wouldn't seem too short for us. HAHA! (I haven't even started packing yet. i'm dead)

Last weekend was... Exciting? haha! And nerve breaking too. Ok... anything could be nerve breaking for me.. including watching the horror movie with the nyco ppl. LOL. Ok that's besides the point.

And ya.. the audition was nerve breaking too! I was all fine until i really get into the room. BUT somehow i was quite composed and I tried to calm myself down mentally while playing and without playing wrongly. Was a bit wobbly for the choice piece which was like 'how can it be' cos it should be better. Some of the notes were obviously out of the intonation... but surprisingly i played one part (which i always flopped) nicely! The note was clear and i did it during the repeat too. Haha! Or maybe i wasn't playing fast enough. But i dun care. lol. Set piece was fine! Sight reading was ok... except for the half notes... a bit tricky... and a lot of ppl got caught off guard over there too.

After the playing zhang commented a bit on my intonation. He asked me if i know which note i didn't play accurately.. Err.. I wanted to say a lot! haha! But he said that my first finger is nv accurate in intonation at first position. if i had shifted it to the correct position. it would be all fine.
Ok. Accepted. Then i vaguely heard guo commenting my yin se was quite all right while zhang continued to comment on my instrument. Teachers are really teachers... just one look and they knew it. Haha! If not for the tight time already i think they would have taken more info off me. lol. Like who i bought it from and who made it and blah blah blah.

Then today! 2 ppl are making me nervous by asking me if i got in already. Like I dunno lah! But made me wanna know... Plus my boss mentioned that guo says some of us didn't play very well during the audition. dunno from which section and who. so dun ask me. Well... i hope those whom i hope they will stay, will stay. the others... just go back to where you were. sorry.

Yea. Sunday was the standard chartered marathon. First time going on a 10km. And i left my friends behind after like 2 or 3 km. I can't rmb. Seems quite far cos i kept on looking forward to the next km covered. It took so long for us to see the 5km mark. And i thought 'omg now just 5km'? What i've gotten back? A medal, a satisfactory timing, a pair of muddy track shoes, a few incidents i clearly rmb, and some blisters. lol! But i think it was worth. I saw someone wrote on the tag behind, 'Limits are meant to be broken'. I thought, 'wow! that was cool!' He/she is right, we do not only meet our limits but should try to break it, so that we will not always stay on the spot. Interesting. There are a lot of interesting/encouraging quotes... Next time i should put 1 too. Haha! It really makes the person behind you feel better while running.

Ok... I'm feeling hungry now.. so i should go sleep now. Bye!

Mood spoilers: Some grumbles

So fast... Left with 1month till the end of the year. Still rmb last year we had a crazy time at Joel's house for countdown to 1jan09. So fast it's going to be a year already. What's in for this year then?

Ya... it also means last month in my current job. And i say the job status now is BAD. Dun think i'll be able to complete the task on time. But anyway. I was thinking. They think that i'm 'green', yet they decided to give me such a task. Isn't it kinda weird. Of cos, i have no experience in doing anything like that. And most of the time the E does not tell me things to do automatically. Then sometimes I wasn't told of anything they discussed with the designer/supplier. so what's the point huh? Then today my boss tell me that i must chase them for things... And that's the reason why i'm here. But they are asking an inexperienced person to do it? Isn't supposed to be I do what they ask me to do and job done? I think they are asking too much from a temp staff.

Although i really do not mind working for the company, i have 2nd thoughts as well... esp. towards this dept. Today the office was peaceful cos all the HODs are out for the whole day. and only my boss came back in the evening. Of cos there are ppl working their heads off, and some ppl just relax and had nothing to do, walk ard, sit tgt and chit chat and god knows what they are doing. Do they have to let the whole world know that they have nothing to do? The whole morning was spent eating breakfast and talking. Then lunch. Like WOW! Cool. Actually there's nothing wrong with slacking in the office, i do that sometimes, but dun have to be so loud and boomz. -.-

I guess tmr will be another day of rush.. to get everything done before my boss goes on leave (again). Here they say how important are the things but they are just always not ard. I can't wait to be away for a while, so that they can spend all the time looking after the mess. =x

Ok. It's just fit of the moment. I still have to do it. bleahs. All rights. Need to do a lot more changes tmr. Have to go sleep now. Nites