Been writing long stories lately.. haha! But pls bear with me... cos i know that this will be a long entry also... but if u have no interest in going for chinese music competition... and have no interest in knowing my feelings for it... u can skip this entry.. haha!
It's regarding the NAC Chinese Music Competition(CMC) lah.. Oopx... i know it's over like half a month ago.. And i didn't go on any of the days... but well... just want to comment abt it lor... the biannual CMC is like a target for us CO players... And every time... there will be more and more ppl that i know joining the com... And there ought to be times when there were unexpected outcomes and that they didn't get into the finals... And then from there conclude that they are lousy players... Well... for what i know abt these ppl... i know they're not lousy players... And to say the truth... it's not really the best way to determine who's the best player.. And obviously the competition is getting tougher and tougher each time... If that's the way they put it... then i think i'm one lousy player too... or even.. lousier...
Why do i say so? i joined in the 2002 CMC... Intermediate cat for erhu... That time there were only 22 competitors altogether... compared to the 30+ in 2004 and 49 this year... And i didn't get in... so am i really lousy? Maybe.. maybe not... actually i do not know... in fact in the first place i already knew that the chance of getting in is very slim... but at the same time i only want to put in my best no matter how... Ppl always say.. what more impt is the process and not the outcome.. isn't it? And indeed... i've learnt a lot from the comp.. firstly of cos... i'm not cut out to be a soloist... and i need to practise more than what i'm doing... and there's still a lot of things for me to learn... It's really not a matter of win or lose lah... at least i've tried... right?
I can't deny that i was disappointed when the results were announced after the comp.. But it's not the end of the world lah really... At the end of the day... i wasn't really that sad anymore... esp. there were so many ppl who went there to support me... and in fact... i felt more relax after putting down a burden... and of cos i console myself by saying that i still have the grading to prepare the very same year... and that i dun need to pia and practise for finals anymore... Haha. ok... that was deceiving myself... but anyway.. that's not the point... the point is.. i really enjoyed the whole process...
So since it's already over for half a month... hopefully these friends had already got over it... i mean they should have... Nowadays... we should all know that music.. or rather... arts.. is a very subjective matter... so a comp doesn't say much abt ur music... ur skills... ur feelings.. Anyway.. since i was just there to gain experience on such event.. i dun see myself going there again... on the stage that is.. haha! Leave it to the more dream-motivated ppl... haha! Or maybe... when i'm more confident in future.. i might be there again. haha! In the mean time... Friends.. continue to enjoy music!! :)))
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