Decisions...

There's always times we need to make decisions... but the problem is... nobody knows what will be the outcome of the decision.. And starts worrying what if we regret after making that decision... every decision made is an important step in life... it will determine what will come after that...

Now is the time we are making an important decision that will affect and will stay with us for the rest of our lives... i'm really confused... the more ppl ask me.. the more confuse i get.. the more lousy i feel about myself and my results... the more i feel that i'm a failure because i never had plans in my life... the more i worry if i can ever get into a university although i kept on telling myself there's no problem to it...

Then i have all the qns coming out... can i cope with the work in future? will i be able to maintain the scores.. will i be able to graduate with a degree i want? am i up to the standard? i'm worry cos i seem to always stay at the same standard...

My rough decision is getting a degree first then decide if i really want to go into nie... actually teaching has been an ambition since young.. but it's not so strong when i was older... and i can't say for sure will i be a good teacher... Cos i seriously dun want to be teacher whereby all my students doesn't like... and classified as a 'lousy teacher'... cos i've been saying some teachers (ahem) that.. Haha..

But no matter what... there must be a decision made.... within the restricted time... it might not be the best.. but if we do not try... nobody will know is it a good one.. i believe that sometimes ppl are left with no choice thus have to make one that isn't really what he/she wants... but accept it.. there might be surprises... i believe it's the same for horng... however... i wish her all the best in her studies and persevere!! i will start saving de... (if i can..)