The hot topic

It's the General Elections season, so being a Singapore citizen, I should be concerned right?

Too many people, too many concerns. Oh, and some complaints too.

SYF 2011 - 2

两年一度的中学中央评审就在今天‘放榜’的时候画上句点了。今年因为有时间，所以三天都准时到场，56所中学，只有一所没看/听，因为太累，太饿，所以先跑了。

Like my FB status, "OMG. 3 full days at SYF is likea crazy. I listened to 55 征s, 3 秦兵s, 3 movements of 拉萨行, 3 out of four seasons, 2 太阳s, 2 飞天s, 2 阿佤山s etc etc. Yup. There's only 1 school i didn't catch. HAHA!"

Even I'm amazed by myself. LOL!

SYF 2011 - 1

Even though it's only after the 2nd day of CO SYF Central Judging, I have to say that CO standards in Singapore is really increasing like don't know what. We no longer have the situation whereby you twitch at every other school because of their super out-of-tune suona. Most of the schools could handle their suonas decently. Definitely a good thing. I'm totally not a fan of the instrument, but since it's inside the orchestra, it shouldn't be bringing the overall down. Luckily, we have quite tremendous improvements in handling the instrument now. I'm quite surprised actually. Apparently some schools performed out of our expectation! Usually good. Wow.

But of course, here, we are excluding the fact that they practice for this SYF only and they might not be able to play any other songs. At least it shows the potentials.

We'll see the last day, it's where a number of past Gold and GWH schools meet together. Almost the whole day is like exciting!

It's really tiring to listen to all the schools. The judges are really li hai. haha!

Nights

It's the end of it.

Everything seems so fast. I think we all didn't have the time to react. At least not me. It feels like I still have a lot of things undone. And haven't gotten everything settled. Looks like I have to go back to at least tie up the loose ends. Some stuff i haven't really hand over? Hmm.. Omg. Sometimes I think I'm a irresponsible worker. And maybe that's the reason why I wasn't given the offer anymore? It's not officially the end yet, but quite there.

Anyhows, 看开 already lah. It's not the kind of things that is in my total control, whatever comes, I just have to take it, right? 现在是抱着‘船到桥头自然直’，‘水来土掩，兵来将挡’，还有一点听天由命的心情看待。真的，说的是容易，做一定做得到吗？But then again, 一直以来我的工作运都还蛮烂的，可以一辈子不工作吗？=x But I need a rich husband first. That's like harder than looking for a job, because my 财运 and 爱情运 is even worse I think. Omg. I don't know what I can depend on actually. Kind of sad to know. Bahhh....

But I hope that the rush in leaving everything there doesn't affect their work. I guess they will still do well, without me, and with a new staff. I'm not irreplaceable anyway. And true enough, it's time for me to move on perhaps. I tend to stay in my comfort zone if I can. And I could have just 赖着不走 even though it's a 不怎么样的工作. HAHA. Maybe I should start getting used to moving around.

Erm. I don't what is installed for me in future yet, or if there's anything installed at all. Actually more like what I have installed myself for. I hope I'm not going to have any regrets giving such a big promise to it. :)

I'm tired. Need to sleep. Forever also can. =x

累

I wondered when I could be relieved. I hope soon. Everything going through my mind is so uptight. 真的，眉头会不知不觉的深锁。等我发现的时候，不知已经锁了多久。我并不喜欢这样的感觉，也应该没有人喜欢吧。如果发现自己的眉头有锁起来了，我会用手把它匀开，还提醒自己不要一直这样，但没办法耶！

Do some homework, waiting for responds. Definitely not the period of time I like, but yup, like I said before, no choice. Have to continue to find and then wait again.

I don't want to explain so much and again anymore.

That's it. I'm tired.

Dauntless Spirit 2011 (Y)

It's one of the most exciting concert so far!

Pre-concert 2011

Support SYCO Concert - Dauntless Spirit 2011! :)))

Last rehearsal tomorrow before concert. I hope it's going to be good. I'm actually having quite high expectations for the concert. And I'm glad that my sisters and close friends are coming. Parents not going because my mum can't go so my aunt is going, and my dad gave up his ticket for my aunt's friend. I was quite happy to hear that my aunt wants to watch actually. :)

Nice songs we are going to perform and I'm so looking forward to Minhui's concerto. Preparing to see her shine on stage! Omg I think I totally sound like my child is one performing. HAHA. Anyhow, I think the concerto are going to be fantastic! And I think the whole concert is going to be cool!

Anyway it's the 3rd consecutive years I'm sitting with Zhangls. So lucky right. No matter where I was sitting these 3 years, I met him at the seats. Haha. Such coincidence can. Can't believe my luck. But it was all right, at least not as stress as the first time. And the song was quite all right. Some parts I need to keep reminding myself. Heh.

Time's up, game over.

I believe that everyone will meet with changes in life. Somehow I just have to face it more often. I don't like changes as often as this, but I will take it with stride. I mean there's nothing I can do to stop it now anyway right?

That day I was still talking with Via and saying like it's almost a year I'm here. And indeed, the 1year is ending and never continuing anymore. A bit disappointed, but it serves as a good decision making point. I wouldn't say that I'm prepared to stay in this job for long, but I didn't expect that it would be this fast. And the reason why I didn't want to leave as yet was because I wanted the whole experience of the work from the starting of the year till the end. Involved in a whole year's work. And I can tell people, 'yah, I've been through all of it'. But it's not going to come true then. It's fine, it's just life and people telling me, 'yes, you need to change'. Actually I have friends telling me that all along.

After this I actually hope I can jump out of the box. I hope I will still be able to remain in the arts. But hopefully not in a different field of arts. Erm, yup I hope. And then I'm thinking of the other thing that I have been wanting to do. Maybe I can start doing it already! Since I will no longer be associated like now. Hope so! :)

Okay, I'll start looking. And thanks to friends whom shown your concerns (you know who you are), I appreciate it. But I must say I'm the kind of person who is not good at both the giving and receiving end of consolation. And the more consolation I get, the easier I breakdown. So it's okay, just pray for me k. Thank you very much.

Plans to Fly

To prevent myself from forgetting to blog about my trip this june, I've decided to bring my lappy there. And hopefully we'll have places that have wifi for me to use. HAHA or well, at least I can save all those stuff in my com first. :)

I'm super looking forward to the trip and it still seem so far from now. And I'm going to meet my cousin there too! I haven't seen him for the longest time! Excited to see everything there!

Plus that day I was chatting with my colleague, asking if she's going anywhere after this very busy period for them. She spoke about where she's going and we talked about some of the places we've been to and about my coming trip also. Actually I'm really happy that I'm going on a trip like that, with just a few close friends. (Finally got rid of my sister? lol I'm evil but well there are already 4 or us the optimal number of travelers so we are fine) And we did all the planning on our own! (Although I kind of phased out last week towards the end of the day with the 2 girls haha paiseh) But I'm sure all of us are looking forward.

And it's the 2nd time I'm traveling with exactly the same people! The last time was 2002! WOW! And that was only a 3D2N (I think) at Malacca. Still during our schooling years. With Via to HK a few years back, Genting with Ling and Horng last year. All the short trips. So this time it's the furthest and longest we are going so far. All hail to our friendship all these years. Actually too bad the others can't go with us. Well, can only say it's really difficult for a big group like ours to be moving around together.

Anyhows, there's still some finalising and planning needed. Time to sleep first! Nights.

Exuberance of Youth - Amazing

Today's concert is really like an eye-opener to the kind of talents we have. Esp. the conductors, amazing to conduct SCO yah?

What does Expensive Hobby brings

Aiyo.. This is so irritating. Why is my hobby so expensive?

And worse, I know I will feel damn bad if I miss any of them. Like just how I had regrets for some of the shows I didn't have chance to attend or don't have money to attend. Now that I'm financially independent, I can, just that is that all I want to spend on. The fact is that I've spent a lot of money lately and I haven't even paid for my air ticket yet! I'm screwed. :(

First there are pop concerts. Then there's musicals and there are concert! like OMG. I want to watch Lion King for sure. But the most affordable + still can see price is like $125?! What kind of affordable is that? :( But I'm sure I want to watch. It's like my favourite cartoon! And I remembered how I was introduced to the show plus my favourite Simba soft toy (which was lost already) :(

Yup then after listening to 933 today, talking about 881, it seems interesting too! They say it's the musical which runs the longest up-to-date. And one of the important actor is actually... My favourite again! hahahaha. So how to resist you tell me?

Then after that another friend asked if I want to go watch The China Madman - Dick Lee recital. RAH! Hello, stop giving more things to watch. How to miss Dick Lee's performance when I already missed once the last time. But then again, it's the first one I would consider to miss. Afterall, it's because I love musical that's why I never like to miss the previous 2. Difficult decision(s).

The saddest thing: I have very little resistance against things like that. Well, I can only say, sometimes when a Gemini have doubts in things like that, actually he/she already made a decision. Hard to understand? I keep saying I don't know if I should go, don't know if I want to go. In fact, I already had a decision right from the start. Just that I feel helpless having that kind of decision?

It's just like I was deciding whether to buy a MacBook Pro or a normal PC, I actually already had my decision. But I wouldn't admit until the very last minute? I guess that's how we work.

Right. I'm really like tired now. Let's make the decision another day! (Remember: the decision has already been made. HAHA)

The I AM night WE ARE waiting for!

The 3rd time he's staging a full length concert in Sg, and the 3rd time I'm watching a full length concert of his. :) I'm happy and excited ttm prior to the concert. I don't need to have any expectations of him because I know it will be good. :) And just hoped that he will sing all the songs that I would like to hear although i know not all of them will be sung. But no matter what, I AM there. :D

It was truly a high high high night! :D Enjoyed myself so much, it didn't feel like the night has passed. I'm sure no one there would want the night to end. HAHA!

I know that it's a non-photography event but usually they allow digital camera, so i had some photos in low quality. But most of the time I'm using all my energy to look at him and listen to him.

Apple!!! I Love! :D

Actually I've never imagined that I will really buy a MacBook. But I did! And to my surprise, I actually have quite a few Apple products. HAHA. And the addiction for Apple products came from the first one I ever got - iPod Nano 1st gen. I would have never gotten it on my own. It was a free gift from signing up for the internet connection. Never regretted doing that. And it lasted me for about 3years? Good enough i guess, because my friend who had the same one already changed to a new generation for quite some time by then.

And then I gotten a iPod Shuffle free (again), from doing a survey in Lasalle. And it was kind of a lucky draw. So I guess I was lucky for that once. HAHA. Now it still can be used. But not so much in usage, because of the next in line.

Finally I bought my first iPod (Touch). :) It's a total love really. Although can only use wifi but I thought of all these when I bought it. Got it about 2 months plus into my job. The first expensive thing I bought for myself as a reward, (just an excuse actually. Heh.) But it was really the best buy I had then. :))) But now it's a different story already! Haha! Oh, still loving it anyway. Just that shortly after I bought it, they launched the 4th generation. TSK.

And then now, I have a MacBook Pro! :DDD I really took a long time to decide on which one i should get. And sua ku me didn't know that there's no normal black MacBook anymore. -.- And seriously I loved that MacBook ever since I used it during internship at Lasalle. But that was so long ago. Yup. So things do change. HAHA. And then i was contemplating to get the normal white MacBook since it's so much cheaper. But in the end. 反正都要花那个钱了，就一次过吧。Yup, which is really so much of a one time spending. Later will explain.

Last one is iPhone 4! And actually the phone is supposed to be earlier than the lappy, but I did something a bit stupid, so yup, the phone will only come on Monday! and I can only use on Tues then. :( And even sadder because my phone is really dying. And I very scared it cannot 撑过这个周末. :( Ok, I'm waiting for Monday to come! And welcome new Apple product to the family. HAHA! When it's here I will post up photo of them together, but need to go and find my old one first. Heh.

Ok, that's all because my lappy is going to be empty batt in like 8min. Nights folks.

难以抉择 1 - 不开心的事

Today is the day i really felt like strangling my student. I really felt like asking him to get out of my class. I would have done that if he's my private student. Seriously. If the student don't see the need to listen and learn, then what for I waste all my energy after the already long day at work?

I take teaching as a passion and something I like to do. I'm happy when I see the kids learn and are able to play a song properly. However, I don't know if I'm just really that unlucky to get students of such. The 2 that were gone are also like that! I seriously don't know if it's just the kids nowadays or is it me.

So to speak the truth, I was really very disheartened when the kid treated the lesson like that. Although I'm sure he's rather scared after I flare up and didn't want to talk to him. He quieten down and immediately played better though not fantastic. I had no choice but to tell his mother about that. And I really felt better, it's like at least a 交待 to the parents about what is going on in the class. I would very much like his parents to sit in the class. But it wouldn't be a long term solution. And kids tend to hate this kind of things to happen?

Nowadays kids are just getting smarter and smarter, which leads to cheekier and naughtier too. Or is it just my students? 4 out of 5 are like that! So kudos to primary school teachers. Luckily I didn't go for the NIE primary school teacher interview (I may not get it as well). I remembered when I go and learn violin last time, I didn't even dare to talk back or defy my teacher. I don't even dared to talk to my teacher unless he asked. And strict training means strict training. I didn't like it 100% but i learned well! Like what are the kids doing today?

Even the quiet student doesn't register whatever I say. Many times, I told him that if he reaches earlier than me, take out his violin to practise! And I only think it's logical because to speak the truth, I don't think any of the students are able to fork out the time to practise at home everyday. So I'm already giving some chance to self-practise and get a little more recollection before the lesson starts. And I told them straight, they don't practise enough at home, so might as well use the time to quickly take out violin and start practising! I remember that's what I always do for my lessons whenever I didn't practise well enough. I would pray that my teacher doesn't come into the room so soon so that i have more time to warm up and look at the notes again. Then my student, every week I go into the room, he will just be sitting there doing nothing. Why ah?

Then 15min into the lesson or less, you can see signs of student showing tiredness, keep hinting through the painful sound, and can't wait to keep. Naughty one will just start talking, start playing a fool, and start pressing the piano. (I never ever touched my teacher's piano when he's around unless to tune). And keep wanting to sit down! Why do I meet such monsters?

I nearly cried in front of my student. Too stress I think, and I was thinking of something else also. But perhaps he'd be scared at the sight and start to listen to me? I don't know. But I don't want to take the risk.

And these students are the very reason why I'd rather give up the income from teaching and the joy to teach, compared to SYCO. If only they knew how to appreciate the effort. Plus, I don't stay in Yishun, rather, not even anywhere near, and I've been going there faithfully to teach all those demons. But every time I felt so drained from the lessons I think they are not worth it. But i know that SY is the place that eventually I will have to let go, so it's just a dilemma altogether. But the thing is if I continue to stay like that, I will never be able to progress well enough for both the CO and my own lessons. I feel guilty for not playing every time I go to lesson. Why don't my students feel that? :(

OMG HOW?

No post, no recollection.

Just realised i didn't have a post for the last JJ concert. WHY??? I'm sad max. and i couldn't understand how come i didn't do it.

This is weird. HAIS.

Nvm.. will be updating abt this one very soon! Still feeling very happy. And i can still relive it anytime i like! Except for the first part. HAHA. Those 3 hours are the best i've had for the past few months i swear. :)

Gmarket craze

All the items I've gotten.. *Ahem.

 As you can see, I've been crazy on gmarket.

Change of blog add!

A sudden decision to change my blog add.. It's been with me for the past 6 years! Not exactly, but it was also in the month of March! Such coincidence.

And this happens to be the 701th post? So, time to do a little change. 

Reason to change the add: (1) To move on for what i've experienced in life for these years (2) A little change to how i want to present myself in the blog

Yup, so if you have come to this page, thank you for still following me. :)

A little fan moment

A funny encounter i would say. Cos I totally didn't know it will happen. I didn't expect him to reply to the comments. But anyhows, since it happened, i might as well make use of the chance. HAHA! =x

The Rest of Dec. (Finally)

December was really so eventful i think my mum can't really be bothered if i go home for dinner anymore. hahaha!

Let's continue from where i left off, starting off with new numbers. haha.

灵异事件?

I can't believe it myself either. But it's damn freaky i swear.

Was walking to the usual bus stop after erhu lesson. i thought i saw someone sitting at the bus stop. Back-facing me/facing the road. On 1 of the 3 slanted benches - the one nearest to the oncoming traffic. But then when i walked nearer to the bus stop, there wasn't anyone there! And i swear the same thing happened last week, after lesson too!

I was rather freaked out cos it's the 2nd time. Last week i thought i was just too tired. Then this week leh? But i dunno is it really just me being tired and eyes playing tricks or there's really something. Anyhows, at least 'the person' didn't turn ard, nothing happened and I will just treat it as a eyes-tired event.

Somehow, my mum's friend was quite concerned and asked my mum to go pray for me for 犯太岁 this year. I hope i feel more secure and that i'm really fine from any misfortune or unluckiness from now. Hais. Been suay for the longest time you can think of. How long? I don't even rmb.

Ok. Good luck to myself for the coming year and hope i dun see that again next week!