Dilemma???

Haix... i think i landed myself in deep shit again... really felt that i'm stupid lah... maybe i thought i was great... but in the end... i backed out... haiya... felt bad about it lah... but to be truthful... i'm not confident about the whole thing... i rather not risk... and what if i'm the destroyer... i'm just making my own life more miserable... hopefully he will not bear these grudges... =x

Then the other side? I'm really confused... the reason why i still go back... perhaps is becos i get to mix with the ppl there... and they see me like an alien... maybe it depends on the ppl i go with also? like via... we know that she doesn't like to talk to ppl she's not familiar with... not to say those that she doesn't like... (which is a lot. Haha..) In sy also like that... cos when i'm together with her... normally we dun mix with other ppl... maybe it takes time... i dunno.. but that's not exactly what i like lah... but then.... i dun mind also lah... Okok... that's not the point for now...

The point is... i might have difficulty in the future... u see... when the concert comes... i'll know already lor... unless i can really hide and hide... if not i have to make an effort in going down lah... Haix... in a super dilemma now... which side should i go? One is the teacher that evoked my total interest... and the other is the one that always give me chances...

Haix.... so have i decided where to go tml? since i already changed my shift to afternoon... should be change with kelvin... dunno is it that time that kelvin... happened to see him on my way home after sy that day...

Aiya... i'm very bored now!!! Sis and jason are playing PS2... and i'm only watching!! Sianx.... Just like when we were young... when it's still nintendo... i'll nv get to play... same case! whatever... Tired after a day's activities too...

Morning went to MCO... erm... i woke up late lah... i mean like... it's been so long since i got to wake up so early can... i think i just press the alarm off when it tried to wake me up at 7am... without even me knowing... until like via msg me... and in the end we took cab down to laoshi's house... just in time to take his car down to marsiling... Then.... came back... and soon it's time to go for badminton session with via, dj and kosing.. and surprise! I'm the earliest!! =)

Then come back liao.. bathe and went out again... with everyone else at home... to roxy sq for buffet dinner... And it's supposed to be my treat...! Just that... i didn't have cash with me... and i do not have a debit card... so da-jie signed card... and i'll be paying her back tml... after i draw money lah... oh man... i'm at least $100 poorer now... haix...

And tml... should be a long day too.. since i'm working aftn shift... which is 1-9... sometimes i realise the good thing about having morning shift... u can't do much in the morning anyway... lol... Aiya... i'll know what to do when tml comes.. =)

Bye.. Bless me...